yo guys..wana wish ya all



HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR



am wishing it now as I won't be home tonite to wish ya all.. Gona party at Bukit Bintang tonite...

hahha... cool hor... check it out man.. gona highlight my hair bright bright... cools yar...



kke... wish ya all have a new year's joyous celebration.... and May God bless ur new year this time round....



c ya

Another day has passed me by. Didn't do much today, except to help mom out in cleaning up the house a bit. Brother's sick, so was lending a hand or two too.



I am so bored at home. Nothing much that I want to do, lots of things that I need to do, but yet not wanting to do them. Coming back here is like coming back to all the daily chores that I hafta do. It seems that I can't escape them, oh how I wish I could. Yet, it's back to reality for me.

Went to Midvalley today... supposed to watch LOTR today, but the leftover seats available was not favourable, so we choose to forgo it. Instead, we ( uni mates and I) went to the food court for some lunch. I had nasi lemak today, it was good. Have not tasted authentic nasi lemak for the duration of time I've been in Australia, do miss it heaps. and most of all, I have my favourite bubble tea today! Yay!!! Still, it tastes better here. I went to get a yam milk tea (my fav) from the shop near the GSC in Midvalley. Preferred that particular drink from that shop. Funny thing is, my friend whom I met in Australia also like it. Looks like I managed to find a friend who likes some of the things that I do.



Am feeling quite lethargic these days.. wonder why.. Am quite tired and all for no reason. It's not like I'm doing heavy things, rather, I came home straight back to my old routine before I left for Australia.

Yet I tire easily. Gosh...

I'm finally back at home in Malaysia... yes! this girl is back in Malaysia. Spent 8 hours in the plane, was quite bored as I travel home alone. But oh well, it's past. Got a pleasant surprise when I got there. Mom and dad came to fetch mealong with my brother. It's a surprise for me as the plan was initially that my brother come and fetch me alone. Quite happy too... Mom gave me a big tight hug when she saw me... another surprise too... coz my family arent the people who hug each other and all... can't remember the last time i hug my mom... but now i have a fresh memory of it. :D



I'm still unpacking, can't believe i have so many things! Gosh man..... I still have two big boxes of clothes and books on the way home. I have no idea where I'm gona fit them as my room is fully packed.



I went out the whole day yesterday. My mates from uni called me out for lunch. Since I have no car, they came to fetch me all the way from subang. Trust me, it's far from their place to mine. What's more, this friend of mine have to detour to Old Klang Road to fetch another friend of mine. Am thankful for such willing friends :D Went to Kepong Baru to eat hawker food. It's not really nice, guessed I should've gone to the one in Kepong Baru wet market to eat its claypot noodle. It's really delicious there.... but it's alright. The store I went to was next to the duck rice that I wanted to go and eat. But I didn't eat it yesterday coz I don't feel like it. What's more, my friends wanted to eat the other stall, oh well.... will go and eat duck rice another day.



After that we went to One Utama. Gosh, major changes in that place man. The new area is open, my friend parked his car there, quite different, new and classier it seems. Wasn't really in the mood to shop, so what we did was to just go get the present that they need to get and move on. I went to my grandma's place in Kepong Baru after that to get my car. My aunt was using it when I was away, so now I get to use my car again. She's cool, pumped full tank for me to use.. keke.. anyway, hang out there for a while longer as I do miss grandma.. she's quite old liao... keke... but still as funny as ever.



Saw girl girl oso, so cute... she kept on giving me presents she got for Christmas. Miss her so much, miss cuddling and hugging her and kissing her. Still so cute as ever. Looked so like me when I was younger. Haha... so funny, she's like a replica of me when I was younger. So cute summore, asking me for her Christmas present.. like hinting all the way...



Came home for dinner, which my brother cooked (I was supposed to cook but I came home late, he bising summore.. aisehhh). After shower I went out again.. this time round to yam cha with my taekwondo mates. Quite nice to see them all again, hanging out at our "old place". Seems like I'm getting back to my old routine .....

It's been a while since I've written anything here. A week to be exact. For one who has consistently writing here, it's a while for me. I guess somehow Im not using my own comp hence I don't really write. All I've been doing mostly is to check email here and that's all.



Been going out quite often these days. Not shopping, but just more like window shopping I guess. Can't seem to be able to buy anythingthese days. But it's not like I'm desperate to get any, so I guess it doesn't really matter.



Ya know, was reading a friend's blog and found out that she went through a lot this year. Am sad that I am not able to be there for her. Though we are not really close, but seriously, I am sad to know that she went through so much and I did not know of it until now. Hey girl, if you are reading this, and I guess you would know it's you.. take good care of yourself. I am sorry that such bad things happen to you, and I am sorry that you have to go through what you went through. I believe you are strong enough to fight it through and to stand strong once again.



I'll be leaving for home in a few days... cant believe that I've been here for 10 months liao. This time round, I'm leaving for good, leaving Australia and the fond memories behind. Looking back, so many things has happened in in my life this short year. Bonds built, bonds broken.... Never really did occur to me that a lot of things can take place in my life within a one year period. I guess my life has been quite monotonous in the past. Fond memories, really fond memories. I'm gona leave behind so many things... uncountable.....



Going home means a new start, a new beginning... another ste forward in my life, hence the change of the banner in this blog. I call it one step forward, coz I am taking another step forward in life right now, one which I have no idea of, one which I will need to rely on myself ... so many thng unknown right now..... aihh....

nothing to say liao... nothing to see liao...

everything... let Him decide for melor....

Wana write out my frustration and all, yet don't see a point in writing it here.....sometimes feel like letting everything go.. yet it's not a choice that I can make myself..

wat is this man!

Sad with my situation, angry at how the things are going, pissed at the things that I need to do, tired with everything ....

Actually my mood was quite good today, boring..but still good. And then my aunt came home n destroyed whatever neutral ad good feeling that I have. For some reason, I have a feeling that she is picking on me. I'm quite pissed with it actually. This is not the first time she did the same thing to me lor. Am I sucha nuisance to her? Then finelar, tell me straight and don't pick one the things taht I do. What's more, I'm doing more than I need to lor. I'm helping out with the washing up, I'm lending her a hand when she needs it and etc. It's not as though I'm trashing her house or anything, what's more, I'm helping her maintain the good appearance of her house. What she want me to do, pay rent ar?



I seriously don't think that I am such a bad person to live with, but I can tell you that she is lor. I'm really sad over this. I mean, hey, I know i'm boarding with you for free,and I am trying to like make things better by helping out and all, but why do you hafta treat me like this? Am I such a nail that pricks you? Never had I misuse her hospitality. Even to go to my friend's place I never bother her or ask her to send me there. I made sure I tell her when I do go out n stuff. Damn sad to know that I am so unwelcome in this place.

I am sooo bored here. Gosh, sometimes I wonder if I can continue to be the way I am and live the way I am doing right now. I want to do something, this restless body of mine want to do something more than just to go shopping and etc. Is there anything that I can do? I can't think of any right at this moment... gosh, life can be so boring when u hav nothing to do

For the life of me I do not understand why a person would want to commit suicide due to personal upheavals. Is it really worth it to end your life? Can't you see that your life is such a precious gift from God? Do you know that You do not own this body of yours? Why then would you want to commit suicide just because things aren't really going your way? Is it worth it to give up so much and let go so much due to a little hurdel? Can't you at least try to jump over the hurdel, to overcome the upheavals of life and live on?



Isn't it saddening to know that youth nowadays are choosing the easy way out? Isn't it more saddening to know that the path that they chose isn't really the easy way? It is merely a detour, a turn that you take to run away from the main problems or issues that you are facing in life. It hurts me even more to know that there is no one showing them the right path, the right way to go and so on. It's really saddening to know this. Hurts me so much to know this, that the people around us are not really caring for each other anymore, but rather, they befriend you for the sake ofhaving a friend and having a good time. They shy away from you and think of you as useless if and when you encounter problems, they are not willing to see the world as it is, but rather through their own eyes, which the blinds are put down to hide the dark side of this world. Things that you do, they say, aiya, it's nothinglar, it's like that one geh lar, this is the usual or the typical thing to do. Can't they see that they can be different? Can't they see that they have a choice to not just be the typical person? Can't they see that they can choose to be themselves rather than just act along? We are losing our individuality here, yet we still close one side of yours eyes, to turn away from the truth.



sometimes, life is so saddening, so dry, so.... yet, if you look close enough at the little things around you, you can actually catch a glimpse of the light shining through the little things around you, the smile of a child, the joy of friendship, the beauty of the sunlight, the comfort of the slight breeze... the little things unnoticed, these are the little wonders of the world, beautiful world amidst the jungle.

PLease my frens, keep a fren of mine in prayer... his name is Kian Hong and he is suffering deep depression... keep Him in prayer as he is becoming suicidal!



PLease... Dear God...

A rainy day today it seems... another day that I will be staying in, doing nothing and maybe, reading again. Have read up a quarter of the book already. Guess tomorrow I might make a trip to the Monash Caufield library to return it. Might browse through and see what they have in the library. Maybe can borrow more later. But not so soon though as I think I have five more with me. Borrowed quite a lot of books to entertain myself from Monash Gippsland. An avid reader I am, and I won't deny it. Reading gives me pleasure, and allows me to tune out of things that sometimes bug me. I don't really read informative stuff, but rather light stuff, romances, novels, fantasy and so on.



Sian ar, isnt' there anything else that I can do. Stupid weather... raining.. wana go out oso cannot. dengzzzz

Got some pretty bad news today. It seems that I cannot rely on my uncle who is currently here on holiday (distant uncle though) to help me bring some of my stuff home. Seems like it that I would hafta send more of my things home. So sian with it liao lor.... Felt like throwing most of things away!! But then again, some of it I can't afford to throw lor. Aih, can't do much about it lar...



Been spending my day reading.. seems like I'm reading everyday. Geraldine finds that I can really read, thinks she finds me scary too. I can finish one book a day, not those thin ones.. a couple hundreds ones. I guess it's alright for me as I am used to reading. A habit instilled in me when I was young. Actually, one thing funny is that I find that my parents actually wanted to stop me from reading. They say I read too much. Weird huh!?! Keke.. oh well, parents are weird sometimes, but it doesn't mean that I don't love them.



Felt like writing something, but I guess the thought is lost amongst all else that is on my mind.

Another day has gone passed me... in 16 days I would be home back in Malaysia. Do I anticipate it? Do I yearn to go home? Or do I want to stay on? Sometimes, I do find that I want to go home, yet, a part of me is telling me to stay on, not because of the land, but of the people who are here. Some went home, I know, but yet there are others who will be staying on, will be here for a while longer too.



Went out for lunch with Pastor Tony and Hermanna today (meaning on Monday). I has such a good time chatting with them and all. Sad to know I would be leaving them so soon, would miss them sorely as they have been such good parents and such good family to me during the past year.



Haven't been doing much today, except fixing up the blog and also doing some readings. It is only at the end of the semester do I find out that there's so many good books to read from the library. Am pretty much enjoying myself though. It's been a while since I've really spent my time reading, and I guess this is a fine time for me to catch up on them. Am enjoying myself immensely :D



Not feeling so well today though. Been sneezing a little too much and so on... do hope I won't get sick. Must be due to the cold air from the car last night. Oh well, will be fine soon I guess. Am not such a weakling afterall.



Gosh, I spent quite a long time today doing up my resume. It's brain cracking, needing to remember all sort of things that I have done in my life and when I did them and my educational stuff and etc. Dengz man... What's more, I have not completed them yet. Got myself so stressed out by it. What's more, this is just a resume. I still need to write a cover letter, to search for a job and to prepare myself for interviews. Aw man, this is gona kill me man.... aih, part of life, so part of life.



Leaving for Melbourne tomorrow, staying in Caufield for a while. Do hope I'll be able to catch up with some friends of mine. Want to spend some time with them all before we all have to leave and move on in our lives. Things are gona be so different, aih, wonder how everyone would do in future. Do hope that all of us will do fine and be blessed in our lives.



Fleeting thoughts, so many things I want to write, yet too many for me to narrow down and write long. Looking around, seeing nothing, looking ahead, sensing something. Is this what I'm feeling? I also do not know...

Finally!!! I think the blog is okay liao... well, it's not perfect, but i think it's good for now... will need to add some touch up later on.. but for now... i'll stick to this fers....hope u guys like it!

(wrote this last night)

The sky is so beautiful today, such a big difference compared to the gloomy winter sky that has been bogging down on us the past few months. Such clear and beautiful sky. Tonight, it was lighted up by stars, with them blinking lightly, whispering softly to your heart to look up and feel their love. The moon, directing our paths, shining down on us, looking at us, beaming brightly, giving us a smile that is unforgettable. The sky, with it’s deep, dark and mysterious shades, yet tinted with slight blue, as though the day would not let the night come forth…draws you deeper into its depth. Amazingly beautiful. Sometimes, it felt as though He is beckoning us, look, look up and see the beauty of my creation. Yet, us all with our hardened heart, refused to see the beauty and yet complain, why the world is in such a state. Look around you, look around for the tiny things in your lives, you’ll see His love in them, you’ll see His effort to let us know that no matter how bad things are, there are little things around us which are good, good enough for us to let go of the bad. But we must let the bad ones go; else, nothing can get through. Sometimes, I wonder why things are the way they are, can’t they be changed? Can’t they be different? Yet, sometimes, it does seem that I willed them to be so, to let antagonistic thoughts to grow, making me sad, making me mad, wanting to lash at something and someone. Yet, I wonder too, why am I thinking of thoughts such as this? Shouldn’t I be looking at the beauty of things around me? Shouldn’t I think positively, shouldn’t I look at things from His angle? So many thoughts, so many directions of thoughts…

WEBSITE UNDER CONSTRUCTIONNNNNNN!!!



pls, i know it looks disgusting now.. do gime time to make the changes necessary.. in the mean time...

bear with it lar!

Yay! I've finished my exam!! It's like the final of the finals man... what a relieve. Actually I was quite stressed with the paper as I felt that I was so ill-prepared for it. But praise the Lord, I was so calm when i went into the room. And as I was looking at the questions in the paper, I find that it's not that hard either. I think I did alrite in the paper, but I have no qualms about passing it.



I'm currently in the library, scouting for books. I found heaps of books that interests me, and with Geraldine telling me that I can return them to the library in Caufield, it would be fun! At least I'll be occupied, won't be that bored lor. Aih, going down to Melbourne again, staying with my aunt. For some reason, I do not wish to, don't really feel comfortable staying with her. But I don't really have a choice lor. Oh well, there's nothing much I can do about it.



I'm like really going to leave Gippsland already, gona be so sad. :(



Happy that I would be graduating, that I will be going home

Sad to leave this place that has been my home for the past year, and leaving behind friends...

aihh.. sad lar.



OKies, I'm going home now... will continue later

Feel like writing more, but can't think of what to write. Am tired, am bored, am stressed out, am so me. Felt like taking a walk, but to where? Friends whom I can go look for aren't here anymore. Miss them all heaps.



One more paper for me to clear, and I would be home free. Yet I can't get myself to concentrate on my studies... there's so many more chapters for me to go, and I would hafta cover all of them by tonite, can die man. Did some here and there, do hope that I can remember all those that I have read and memorised to my best ability. Sometimes I do wonder if our brain can store so much information at one go anot. Exams, is it really testing our ability to know what we're studying, or are we being tested to see if who can memorise the best? Really does make you wonder. Won't deny the fact that most of us are actually studying because of the cert that we will get. It has become a necessity for us, as it is what is needed from us as we go out to seek for a job. No cert? No job, and even if you can find a job, not much of a chance of getting promoted. Heard it so much from so many people. The world has become so competitive, sometimes it makes you wonder if it's worth it anot.



Graduation, it would be really soon. Yet, sad at the same time, for none of my family members are able to come and attend my graduation. Am deeply sadden by this news. But I can't do anything to change it liao, because it's too late to do so. But then again, maybe all this is under God's plan. Should I dwell into it? Nah, don't think I want to. Just keep myself up and floating with His plans lor... whatever it might be.

Came across this as I read Elaine's blog. It's a little bit behind, but being me, I find it interesting to read people's feelings. ELaine, hope u don't mind me taking this from your blog :D Added an element or two, but yet still the same mostly.



I AM:

tired yet I can't sleep

I WANT:

to be able to graduate by the end of this year. Hopefully will be able to do well in the supp tomorrow.

I HAVE:

been laughing a little too much today.

I WISH:

that everyone around me would be happy always

I HATE:

it at times when people are not considerate of others, thinking only of themselves. Even so, I wish that they would not be so coz I can't hate people for long

I MISS:

all those who are far away from me now, those who are back home, whom I will not be seeing again for a while

I FEAR:

nothing I guess, for fear is a strong word. Yet, I do fear God, but in a good way.

I HEAR:

nothing? Not deaf, just not hearing anything for this moment, except for the songs that are playing on my comp at this moment.

I SEE:

the beauty of the place in which I am at now. I see the beauty of His creation. I see the love He has poured into this world. I see the hurt people are causing Him to feel. I see the disaster people made in this world, the contamination, the hate, the pain. I see His heart still loving when ours turn to hate. I see His longing for us to come back to Him. I still see His love...

I LOOK:

at things in my own naive way, and I am not ashamed of being so. All in all, I am still me.

I SEARCH:

for Him at all times, seeking and yearning to be closer to Him

I WONDER:

why things are like so complicated at times. Can't it be more different? Can't it be more simple?

I REGRET:

the past mistakes that I have made in my life

I LOVE:

God, family and friends.

I ACHE:

loving a person when I know he doesn't know about it. I ache when I see my friends hurting, knowing I can't do anything for them.

I ALWAYS:

wish that my friends would be able to find the right person in their lives, that they would always have joy and happiness in their lives, and also I always hope that they would like me for who I am

I AM NOT:

as naive as people think that I am. Nor am I cute! (pls, stop calling me cute okies, coz i really don't think I am, seriously!)

I DANCE:

with joy and love in my heart

I SING:

when I feel like singing, when my heart wants to cry out in songs.

I CRY:

when I feel like crying, when I can't take it no more, when I need to feel Him near me, when that is the only thing that I can do

I LOSE:

myself at times when I sing to Him

I CONFUSE:

people at times

I NEED:

something more than what I am doing now. It feels so empty, so without anything.

I YEARN:

for something more in my life, for something meaningful, for something that is for me.

Yay!! I'm eligible to take the supp paper.. now all i hafta do is concentrate on my studies so that I can sit for the paper tomorrow... wana do well in it oso leh......



still... Yay!! passed everything for this sem liao

Tired, stressed out, yet need to push on... help

Exam results are coming out tomorrow. How am I feeling? I seriously duno too, now need to start studying. Oh, I mean, must continue to study for my supp paper scheduled on Thursday. Kinda scared now, duno if I can actually like remember so many things. Aih, what can I do man.. need to push forward and continue on no matter what.



Been studying on and off these days, think I am able to remember some of what I've read and studied. Hopefully I'll be able to do it well. The paper's carrying full 100 marks, instead of the 60% in the last time. Oh well, the structure is pretty scary to me, but I think I'll be able to do it well, as long as I work hard enough and remember what I've studied.



Am pretty worried over a few of my friends. They are facing such big problems in their life right now. I do hope that they are okay. Am still waiting for the reply from one of them, have not received any emails from him for a couple of weeks now. Sometimes it's hard for them not to worry about the things that are happening in their lives, also hard for me not to worry about them at times.But seriously, one thing we need to remember is not to let worries that the better of you. If not, well forever worry about things and not living our life they way it should be lor. Sometimes I wonder, why worry when you can opt not to? I won't deny that I do worry at times, but sometimes I choose to not care so much and go ahead to do what I want and like. It does make my life happier. Think of it this way, worry or not, you still need to live your life, so why not choose to live it through happily instead of forever worrying, forever afraid?



Oh well, this is solely my thoughts and my opinion....

Spent the whole day yesterday with Geraldine, it was her birthday. We had fun walking around Melbourne, just doing nothing basically. Later that night we went to a Jap restaurant, Ito. The food there is not bad, the environment is good though, good ambience and etc, good if you want to go and just hang around and spend some quality time with your friends.



I am now back in Churchill, the little small which has been my dwelling place for the past year. Came back here to do my supp paper. Do really hope that I can sit for it, still pending on my results. Scary ler, it'll be coming out on Thursday, and if I do pass, I will be sitting for it in the afternoon on the same day. Quite stressful actually, but oh well, it will truly be my last paper then. Do really hope that I can pass everything, coz I really want to finish everything by this year. Don't think I would want to spend another semester studying liao lor. But yet again, I would truly miss this place. What a fantastic year I have, what fantastic friendships I've made here. Thanks everyone for making my time here so memorable and great.



I am actually feeling quite bored these days. There's nothing much to do lor, except studying, and I tell you, it's absolutely not my favourite past time. Oh well, we don't have much choice when it comes to studying do we. Nevertheless, it would be my very last paper.



Going home soon, miss everyone at home, miss everyone here. Want to see you all soon. Enjoy your holidays ok!!!

Love....life.....

Another friend has left... soon more would leave, one by one, each going back to their own destination, separated by sea, separated by distance, separated by circumstances, by situations...yet once we were joined together, in heart, in spirit, in love and in care for each other.



For those of you who are far away from me,who are home, do know that I love you heaps and that I care for you lots. Don't ever ever think that I don't. It's a great pleasure and honor knowing you and hanging out with you. Thank you so much for willing to be my friend. It's hard to explain or even to put words of how I feel towards you, but the genuity of your friendships truly touched me deeply.

More and more friends are leaving, can I really take these departures? Think I cried for almost all of the departures of my friends.. really do wonder if I would be able to meet up with everyone in near future. Really do hope so.



Just got back from the city today. Quite tiring... a bit pathetic man, today we hafta wait for an hour just for the train! Can't imagine that we wasted an hour!

Another friend left Gippsland today. Really sad......will miss you so much Samson. Thanks for always being there for me and for always caring for me. Love you always my didi. Take good care of yourself ok.

Hit by a realisation...



I fell in love with this place, Gippsland... I fell in love with the people I met here, be it in church, in uni, be it the time met is short or long.....I truly am in love



Heart aches so badly, knowing the fact that so many of my friends are leaving home. Love you all so much...Will I be able to see you again? I really don't know......Miss you all already.....will always love you...

Friends come and go in our lives, leaving a part of them in us and a part of us in them. this is one of the best gifts that a person could give to others. Rather sad to know that I would be leaving this place soon. What's more, a number of my friends would be leaving this place earlier than me. I'm really really going to miss this place man. I know I am getting mushy and stuff, and I can't stop myself from being so lor. There's too many memories for me here, so much that it engulfs every part of my being.



In my entire life, though I have friend surrounding me, I felt empty because I feel that they are befriending me for the sake of something. Yet, coming here, though I still feel that way at times, there are people who really showed me that they are really true in their friendship with me. It's amazing to know that friendships could bloom at such a speed, so unpredictable yet so beautiful. I really thank God for every single person that I met here. I would never never forget anyone of you and I would always cherish the moments we've spent together. Though the year passes us by in a hurry, I do hope that our friendship would continue to blossom and grow further.



Thank you all for the memories that you have given to me. Thank you for the gift of friendship you have extended to me. And thank you most of all for accepting me as I am, flaws and all.



I'm in my final days of my study life, and soon I would move into a transition to working life. I don't know how it will become, how things will be or what I will do. Things are so unpredictable for me as I am not a long term planner. I go with the flow, and this is not really a good thing. Yet I believe that things have already been planned for me and I would make sure I walk the path that He wants me to. Though things might not happen to way I want it to be, yet I am sure He knows what is best for me, and I would want to do what pleases Him. Nevertheless, I would still be the person that you all know, the girl around the corner, the girl who does silly things and the girl who goes hyper at odd hours ;D



Today would be the last day for me to attend the Churchill Christian Fellowship. This church has been a home for me for the past months that I am here. When I first attended the church, it felt weird cause it was so small and things were so different. Things were not as I expected it would be. Yet, one thing that I can sense when I was in that church was the presence of God is that place. It was so strong and so real, capturing my heart and my attention. The people in the church is so generous, so real, so loving and so true. It's really really different from back home. They made me feel loved and cherished. I would really really miss everyone there. Though it's different, yet God placed me in this place and I would accept it. He never did leave me, He knows what I need and gave it to me. He gave me love in my life, people who would accept me as I am and people who truly cares for me. Though time is short for me here, yet it has been a great short time here. Through church and through Shine, God has been pouring out His blessing unto me. I can't stop saying how grateful and thankful for Him for the friends that I met from church and Shine. Truly, these bonds are bonds of a lifetime.



It just crossed my mind that this week would be my final week of being a student. After that I would be home free and graduate. Can't believe it. Still a bit stunning, a girl, on the path to becoming a woman, is graduating from her studies, moving towards working life. Still young, still playful, still a girl, moving on towards the world, to a different kind of life, a different kind of environment. Am I prepared to make this transition? Would things work out fine? Would everything be alright? I really don't know. So not prepared, still so blur, still wanting to be carefree, to look around, to seek something for myself. Yet, it is time for me to be bold and to step out into the world, to face it with all that I have and with all that I am. Yet, I know I would not be doing this alone, He will be with me always and forever, every step that I take He will be with me. Amazing, truly amazing, to know He is just here with me at every moment, waiting, looking, encouraging, embracing, and most of all loving me.



Whatever I do, I trust that things will be alright. Whatever decision, whatever choice that I make, I trust that it will be the right one. As long as we walk with Him, things will be alright. The path my seem cloudy, it might seem as though there's so many things blocking your ways, as though it's not going the direction you want to take, be strong and have faith. Things that happen in your life has a purpose. Yes, every thing that happens has a purpose. It might seem deadening, saddening and heart wrecking, but hold on to your faith, to your trust in Him. He never breaks His promise, and He will be sure to hold you close and show you light. Trust, trust in Him.



Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding,

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

and He shall direct your path.



Keep your faith and be strong my dear friends. Be strong always in Him.



Truly want to tell you how my heart feels, my dearest friends. You don't know how strongly your friendships have touched me. I can't put to words how my heart feels, needing to part with you guys and leave this place. The memories are so strong, so real and so true. Friends I've made here truly, truly have made my life so good. Every single person whom I met here has touched my heart so deeply. It hurts to know that we would have to part, to move on and to leave behind memories. It hurts to know that I might not see you anymore, not to be able to talk to you anymore and not be able to hug and share my love with you anymore. How I wish I could give you all a gift, a gift that is truly from my heart. Yet, I have nothing to give but for my heart, this small heart of mine. It really do break my heart knowing that I would have to part with you all, to leave behind all the beautiful friends whom have shared so much with me.

Stressed? Not very sure.. don't feel like reading my law stuff just now. Couldn't even concentrate on it. dono why.. oh well.



Don't really want to do a countdown for it. My paper's in the afternoon so I guess it's not so bad... would have at least the whole night to study lor. Erm, well, a few hours lar, coz it's already 3 something here. No worries, will do my best to read up all my things.



Sometimes I wonder why things are the way they are.. Can we change them? I really don't know.. can we do something that will alter our fate and our choices in life? YEt the choice we make would determine the path that we take. Sometimes things look so unclear for me. The choice I make, are they correct? The path that I'm taking, are they the right ones? These are something that I cant answer at all. All I can say is that I've made them and I would stick with them. Trust my instincts? SEriously, I don't dare to for the these instincts of mine can be quite wrong sometimes. ALl I do is trust in God, in seeking Him with the choices that I make, with the paths that I am taking. TRust and faith in Him. As long as I am walking straight with Him i guess things will continue to be alright. Though sometimes trouble and sadness and fear comes, yet i know i will be able to come out of them glad, joyful and even more trusting.

Hm, now waiting for my 2nd paper, IT law... kinda freaky as there's so many things that I need to study for it yet I do not have the heart nor the concentration to do so. Only managed to cover up to two chapters only, and there's five more for me to go. Kinda scary. Not sure if i can finish reading everything by tomorrow anot. The paper's on Friday afternoon. Seriously, I have a feeling that I would sit there until my butt sore as there would be 30 minutes of reading and noting time, and after that another 3 hours of sitting there writing my answers. Wah lau, seriously am going to get some sweet and stuff so that I won't hafta be so sian and stuff lor. Don't even know what stuff am I going to bring in ler. Shit man.



Oh well, will leave it all to God lor. Let Him help me. I will try to do my best to read up everything nonetheless. Guess, come to think of it it's useless to worry so much when you should spend the time worrying to study. OK lar.. will stop worrying so much, pray more and study more!

ARGGGHHHHHH!!!! can someone please please kill me. I am so not in the mood to study liao! I don't know why, but I am quite stressed with my studies.. it's not like I havent started at all, what's more I'm actually studying earlier compared to the past two and a half years in Monash. Yet, I feel so drained, so without energy to carry on, to continue on with my studies? Is it because it's my final semester here? Does it play a part in why I'm feeling what I am feeling right now? This is one justification that I can't give.



For some reason it's just not in me to study my business marketing? I do, on purpose avoid studying it. I just can't stand it for some reason unknown to me. Is it too hard? The answer is actually no. It's not really hard, but there is a lot of things that I need to cover, to study and etc. Aih, so sian with it liao...... kill me arrr....... arghhhhhh

Think I would be procrastinating this afternoon. For some reason I cant get myself to concentrate on my studies in the afternoon. I think it's my down timelor. Yeap, there's such thing, and I guess most people know it too. My peak time is during the morning and nite, but then again, I'm left with nite as I sleep the morning off! kekeke... oh well, what to do, I'm nocturnal too. For most of us here, I think we're nocturnal lor. Hang around the net till late at night, but of coz got study oso lar.



DIe man, there's so much to read for my law. So much so until I duno where to start. Makes me blur only lar. Now reading contract, boring lar. but then cannot not read it as it's different from the ones that I studies in the past. Well, not totally different, just that it talks about contract on the net instead of documentation of contract. Oh well, at least I still remember some of the basics of business law, so guess it'll help me oso.



Studiessssssssssssss..... arggghhhhh... kill me ar! how can i get myself to sit down and study and concentrate yar? Can someone tell me how??? How??? HOWWWW>??????



hm... okok... relax... breath in, breath out.... must relax... cannot tense...



kekek.. oklar.......... all the best ya alll

Exam is just around the corner. It will officially start in a couple of days' time! Goodness, quite shocking as this sem seems to fly off, leaving me running after it. Should I be panicking? Should be rushing myself to study? I really don't know. Somehow some part of me refuses to pick up the book and start studying. Yet I know if I don't do it, it'll jeopardise me. Don't worry, I'm already starting to make notes. Yet, I am still afraid that I won't be able to catch up, to remember what I'm studying.



To all my friends, I wish you all the best in your exams. To those who are worrying and stuff, slow down and take things slowly. Don't make yourself panic like me.. I'm slowing down too, trying to catch up at a slower pace. Don't worry as I know you all can do it!

Jiayou and Gambateh!!



Sem's coming to a closing, time to part is getting nearer too... just want to let you all know that you all mean a lot to me and I thank you for being my friend, for not minding me as your friend, and thank you most of all for all the memories you've given to me.

It's really amazing to know that God can do wonders for you. Today was the last Shine meeting for me, in guess some ways it is the last day of Shine for me in this campus. I'll be leaving after this year and I might be going home to Malaysia lor.



I came here, being blur, not knowing if I'll be able to adapt, not knowing if I'll be able to know friends. But you know, when I first made the choice to contact Leon and to attend the first Shine gathering, things began to change in my life. I get to know more people, people who love God and who seeks to follow Him. Though things are really different from back home, it amazes me that God would bring us all together, all from different backgrounds, from different countries, churches and so on so forth and joined us all together in One Spirit and one love.



It amazes me that we can just get together to worship the One God, so many differences, yet when we come together for this one purpose, we became one.



Today during the shine praise and worship, Chris sang a song that made me teared up. The minute i know what he's going to sing, my eyes were already wet. This song means a lot to him, and I would know why. Everyone who heard the song before would understand why. Don't give up, don't ever give up because someone rili loves you and cares for you. The lyrics hits you in your face and your heart. Sometimes we would find that we're struggling so much and so hard about things that we forgot that we don't really need to, all we have to do is just cry out for Him. I have been struggling for the past week about some issues. It comes to the point that I hated myself for being so and for fighting it. But on Sunday, I made the choice, together with Hermanna, to let it go, and to leave it at Jesus' feet. Ya know, in that instant, I know things would be ok. Praise the Lord, for my spirits are lifted and I am quite myself again, the always smiling, always silly girl. Dont' give up because you're struggling, don't give up thinking that no one cares, coz there is... He cares, He knows what you're going through. Just ask HIm and He will give you what you desire, what you need. Be strong knowing that He will help you to when you are weak. He loves us so much, yet He doesn't push us, He wants us to come to Him by our own will.



Today's sharing was really good. The past year has been great even though there's ups and downs. He lifted us up and gave us strength to carry on. I know in my heart that I have such amazing friends here. So true and so real. I don't have to worry if there's something else. I didn't share today, coz I know I would be crying non stop if I do. But you know, I believe we all know each other well enough to know what we're thinking during that time. Really really thank God for the friends he's given to me. Really thank God for His patience with me. I know I am stubborn at times, not wanting to listen to Him and not wanting to let Him help me. But His patience breaks me, making me open up, surrendering my all to him. He truly is a God who loves me.



To many of my friends who's reading this, though we might not have the chance to meet again, I just want to let you know I truly truly cherish you and I truly truly love you. The memories we've made the past year will forever be in my heart and soul. KNow that I will never forget you. Thank you for your acceptance of me, for your love and care you've shown me. Thank you

Feelings and emotions can really take hold of you. For some reason it kept on bugging me, making feel sad and off. Felt guilty that my friends hafta bear with my attitude and desolation these days. But I duno how to make myself happy again. Why do issues always bugs us when we don't want them to? Sad to say it's been bugging me for too long and I can't handle it anymore lor. It's not like I will go and kill myself and stuff like that, just that like, it's holding me so tight I find it hard to breath.



Telling my friends about it also doesn't help much. Coz they are not me and I am not them. They can give me advice and stuff but it's still up to me to decide whether to pursue the advice they give me. It's not that I don't want to but I think it's more like it's hard for me to handle it lor. I tried heeding their advice, but it's like... still nothing happens.



Might be my own fault for keeping on dwelling on this issue and not letting it go. I did try to let go but it just didn't work lor. How? Wat am I supposed to do? I'm quite sian over this issue liao lor. It doesnt help much lor. Damn pissed off at myself for being so.



Yet... I'm still so vulnerable :(

Today was the performance and I rili rili thank God and praise Him for all that He's done. So amazing!! It's like, we did everything in a week's time, practice, getting the songs together and so on. One week. Though I don't know how everyone feels about the performance, I felt that it ran quite smoothly. Really thank God for the strength He's given all of us to make this successful. For all of those who went for the performance, thank you for being there and helping us make it a success.



Really felt in my heart this is one of the purpose God put me here in this place, to be a part of these people and to reach out to them. Thank God for giving Joo the idea in the first place.



Ya know, this is a really one time performance as most of us would be leaving this place really soon and it would be hard for us all to come back together and sing and performance as a group again. Would really cherish this moment we had together, such beautiful and good memories.

Ya know, the month of September is really memorable to me. I know I havent been blogging on a regular basis but i would want to record some important events that took place.



I went to tulip farm and melbourne showground on September 20th. The place was quite amazing. Though the flowers werent fully bloom it was still quite beautiful. I have never seen such beautiful scene in my life before. It would be even more breathtaking if all the tulips were fully bloom. Nonetheless, still love it. Took some pictures, quite like them, but quite sad that I didnt bring my own camera.



Later that day, we went to melbourne showground. I guess it's because the company was good, so I did enjoy myself. I went to seat on the kamikaze. Yeah... die.. keke... it was so scared while on that thing, waiting for it to turn 360 degrees. I was screaming till my voice was turning hoarse, it was quite scary. Don't even know why I was on that thing in the first place. I was sitting with Chris, and was closing my eyes. He was screaming oh shit oh shit all the way. it was quite funny actually... keke... but then he started nudging me to open up my eyes (yes, i was so scared that i closed my eyes). Well, I did, and i started screaming all over again!! it was scaryyyyy... arghhhhh.... yet it was exhilirating. Keke...



Later we were just walking around, playing the games that were there and stuff lor. I played golf. My dad would be happy if he was there with me. He had been trying to get both my brother and I to play golf. But sad to say, I din get to win anythinglor. Keke, but it shows that I still remember the techniques that I've learnt when I was back in Malaysia. keke.. fun.



WAs quite tired when we got in from Melbourne. Think it was 11 something, near 12. And coming home brought a surprise. My friends from Melbourne came down. Well, I know they were coming but I din know that they would be celebrating my birthday with me. So it came a surprise when at 12 ish, they presented me with a cake! Really am happy coz they came all the way from Melbourne to do so. It was fun. Though I know only one of them (the rest are his friends), yet, they just celebrated my birthday like that. REally am glad and happy.



I had a great time during my birthday, with my church friends celebrating it with me, with close friends taking their time to come to my place to celebrate it with me, (thanks mel, thanks elicia) and the ISA celebrating it with me. I actually have had 4 cakes during my birthday. And furthermore, a friend took me out for dinner. I was really happy and touched by their love and care for me. So thank God for the friends that I have here. Well, I won't deny that I miss my family during this occassion, with it being my 21st birthday. But they really made it up for me lor. REally am glad and thankful.



Here, I would like to thank everyone who have made my 21st birthday such an enjoyable one. Thank you for being my friend and thank you for being there for me when I needed you guys. Love you guys heaps. Would really miss ya all when I go off end of this year. Such memories for me to cherish and to hold on to and to love.

went to melissa's site and found an interesting pyschology game, so i gave it a try. turns out I'm a musical thinker... kekek



Musical thinkers:

Tend to think in sounds, and may also think in rhythms and melodies

Are sensitive to the sounds and rhythms of words as well as their meanings.

Feel a strong connection between music and emotions



Like many musical thinkers, Leonardo loved to sing, and had a fine voice



Other Musical Thinkers include

Mozart, John Lennon, Jimi Hendrix



Careers which suit Musical Thinkers include

Musician, Music teacher, Sound engineer, Recording technician



hm... can say tat i am lor... i do feel a strong connection between music and emotions lor...and i do love to sing. guess it's true qua. but my career choice is so far from the ones recommended leh.. hm.. oh well :D i've made the choice, so i'll stick to it

Jehovah Shalom, God is peace. God does amazing and wonderful things. Every once in a while He'll let a song touch my heart, giving me profound insight of His love, His grace and His mercy. He lets me know that He will give me peace in my heart and mind and soul, just as long as I ask for it. Sometimes we as human being worry too much, some things are meant not to affect us, but yet we still worry about it... minor things, major things, all worries we make them big deal. We forgot that we can actually lay our burdens, our worries to God. We forgot that He made the promise to carry us and to walk with us at all times, yes, AT ALL TIMES, through joy and happiness, through pain and suffering, through times of trouble and sadness. He is there with us. Even now as you read this blog, of what I'm writing, He is right there next to you, wanting to reach out to You and help You. Why don't you reach out at this instant, say it, just tell him, "I need You"? I'm sure He's just there waiting.



Do you know that God is waiting for you to tell HIm your troubles? You don't have to do all things by your own strength and power. You just need to call on Him and He will provide for you.



He is amazing. Little things He did for me, miraculous things He provide and help me. He gave me friends when I needed them, He gave me love when I needed it, He gave me companions and also company when I needed to be with someone. Amazing God. He's so powerful you know.. it's rili amazing to know that He's so powerful, so much so that He could just destroy this world in an instant, but yet He's so gentle with us, so loving and gentle and kind and sweet. So amazing, can't describe what I'm feeling now, except that I am really amazed by Him.

So many things running up and down these days for me, so much so that I'm overwhelmed by it.



One thing I am really happy and thank God is to know that I have so many friends that care for me, that are willing to spend time with me, to know that they are willing to do to make me happy and such. Really really thank God for it lor... thanks everyone for making this year's birthday such good memory for me.



God does amazing things in people's lives. He showed me love when I needed the assurance, He gave me peace when I needed it, He gave me friends when I felt like I have none. Really do thank Him for being such a good God to me, such a loving God to me and such a caring God to me.



Feelings and emotions can be so overwhelming at times, hard to predict why am I feeling the way that I am feeling now. Too overwhelm... y these tots? y these things? y these issues? hm.... duno what to say already regarding... leave it be for now

Somehow during this time of year, things are beginning to struck me that people arent the same as I've met them earlier. Things do change a lot in a short time yar. Somehow things are just different. Am I different? I wont deny that I am, I'm no longer just the Sue Anne who first came here, but a different Sue Anne altogether. Living on my own, without my family makes me mature and grows. Sometimes I do wonder if I've grown to be different or am I still the same old gal.



Life is funny sometimes, things happen unexpectedly. No one could guess when or how it happen, it just did! Life is really really unpredictable. But one thing I'm really thankful, I don't have to go through this life on my own. I have God and friends and family to support me at all times. Makes a lot of things worth it. I wont deny that I've through phases in life feeling left out, unwanted, unloved and unsupported, but yet, thanks to God, I am able to go through those phases and come out and stand up to say that I am here! I'm alive, it's ok if people ignore me, I'm still me, I'm still loved by God, always and forever.



The heart of worship, isit about singing and praising? It's more than that, worship comes from the heart of us, from the deepest part of us. We worship Him not only through songs but through how we live our lives. Sing, and be thankful, live and be grateful.

Things running through me head again, unable to stop them, unable to pursue them. CAn i stop them? think not, think so??? Duno lehhh.... so many things, unaccountable, unwanted.... yet my feelings and emotions continue to maintain the same! Praise the Lord, this is wat I wana do!!! Lift my voice and praise Him with all that I am and I that I can!

Another session of singing and music! Wow! It's so fun ya know... I think I don't mind doing this often. Mel is getting better on piano again liao! So nice, would have a partner to sing with and stuff.... yeap, I guess my favourite past time is to sing lo.. I guess all music lovers would know the joy of singing... and for me, not to just sing, but singing is truly a meaning of life!



God is here for me! Wow! It still amazes me when I hear that God is here with me... something I wonder, am I good Lord? Do you still love me Lord? Am I worthy Lord? But you know, I do know that He does love me, so much so that he willed His Son to die on my behalf. Yet, sometimes I guess the mind takes over, making us think things in a square box. CAnt put God in a square box can i? But yet, sometimes I felt so not worthy... I love Him, I really really do.. and I miss spending time with him, singing to him and worshipping him... I miss you Lord... miss you so much



Really thank Him for being with me at all times, no matter in what situation. Really really thank him tat when I feel lonely, he put friends into my life, he fills up this loneliness with his presence.



Praise be to You forever and forever!!!!

Discussions, discussion.... am actually getting bored with it. i guess it's because i've been having discussions on the same topic for three days in a row! and summore, I have another one tomolo. what choice do i have but to compromise on this issue as my presentation is on WEdnesday! Father, I just pray that we will be able to handle the presentation well! amen!



I have had fun today! It's so nice to jes sit and listen to people sing and play music. Chris was on the piano, playing for Mel's practice... I just go there to have fun lor... keke.. but it's really nice you know. Chris is good on the piano.. really good. He was teaching us some new songs.... there's this one i really like, but then sad to say I cant really remember it lor... If i were able rite, both of us singing different part, it would make the song really nicelor.. aihhhh.... hope we'll continue to be able to do this lor.. it's just so nice to sing praises worship Lord God Almighty!

Should we let feelings take hold of us and dictate how we will live our lives? Sometimes we do don't we? We allow ourselves to be passionate about things and then, boom! it hits us straight in the face, too passionate about something that we ignore other things

Why am I being bombarded with thoughts? Thoughts that are confusing me, making me feel the things that I don't want to.I cant seem to be able to control what I'm thinking and how it's making me feel? Why so? Why at this time, at this place and at this hour? Why?? Will this continue? Will it stop anytime soon? Why???



So consfusing, so distraughting.. so ... too many thingsss

So soon, it's weekend again. Don't you guys feel that time pass by us so fast here in Gippsland. In another few weeks' time and exam period would be here! Can't believe it lor. Ya know, it's really stunning and also scary to know that I would be graduating end of this year. Duno wat to expect when I am no longer here but back in Malaysia. Would I cry? Would I miss my friends heaps? Would they even remember me after I leave this place? I find that I can't really answer that. I do know that I have managed to make quite a number of friends here, some who have impacted my life here greatly. Maybe coz we're spending a lot of time together, or maybe we're just close. I don't really know. But God intended them to be in my life for this year and I would greatly cherish all the friends that I've managed to get close to this year. Though it's just a short time, but then, we don't really need to judge friendship by time do we? It's been a lovely things knowing so many people and to love and to care for them as if they are part of my family... well... they all are, my family here in Gippsland.



Soon this chapter of my life would end and a new one would be starting. Am I prepared for this new chapter? Seriously, I don't think I am ready for it. But can one be really prepared to go on? I would move on, I know I will for I am that kind of a person, not worrying about stepping to a new phase or a new place in life. But I would forever reminise the times that I have gone through in my past. It's not like I can't leave it behind, I can, but then again, these are some things that I would hold on to tightly and cherish throughout my life.



I so love and cherish all those that I've gotten to known here. I don't really know if we'll continue to contact each other anot, I really hope so. But then, being from different countries, it is sometimes hard to keep this contact alive. Not everyone would want to do so, but yet I do really hope that we would all be able to meet up again in near future and to be able to think of the times we've went through, the thoughts that we've shared with each other and the things we did together.



Most of all, I do hope that God will forever bless them abundantly in whatever they do. Really thank God for all my friends here in Gippsland. REally really am.....

It's early in the morning now and I'm still awake. Din sleep the whole nite coz went to chris' with Mel to get some stuff... we had a singing session there..quite nice...



I'm actually quite tired but then again, my mind's pretty awakelor. And knowing myself, if i were to sleep when my mind's awake, it would be a major disaster! D sleeping time would become dreaming time and in the end, i would not be really restinglo! It would be better to stay awake and to sleep later on when i am really really tired. Weird person eh me.. but then, aih... this is me and i cant do anything to change tat part of melor.



Hm, it's raining already. Guess this might be a cold and wet day ahead. Hopefully it wont be like this later of the day when I'm awake coz I would need to go up to the post office to grab some stufflo... well.. hopefully yarr.. we as human cant dictate weather can we.



Now my brain's a bit dead due to the lack of sleep for the past week and also due to the lack of sleep this nite.. keke... well.. might be more of due to not sleeping the whole nitelor... ok.. now even worse after i wash my face, do hope i'll be able to sleep afterwards, coz if not then aih...



basically, if i were to continue to write now, i would be crapping all the way, not making sense watsoever lor... keke.. so .. till d next time

Thoughts kept following in and out of my mind,

Uncaptured, unwanted

Yet it still stays around, waiting, pausing,

Blowing my mind away.



What can I do?

What can I say?

Nothing,

Captured by the air of nothingness

Floating, flowing

Will it stop? Will it leave?

Will it.....

It's been a while since I've written anything here. For some reason, I was either too busy (duno why) or too preoccupied with something. I guess another thing was I have recently reformatted my computer and this blogger address was no longer in my favourites, thus it slipped my mind that I do have a site here :D



Anyways, I'll just try to update things that have been happening to myselflor. Not sure if there's anything interesting, but here goes ....



Last Friday....



It's one of my free days (i have a lot this sem!!!)... and I've actually agreed to help out the ISA to set up a booth for the trip to mount BAwBaw... basically it was pretty bored as I dun think there's anyone who did signed up on that day. But then again, it was not so bad. Sat there for an hour or so and I hafta leave. I've agreed to help Melissa earlier, she needed someone to drive her to some places for interview, and me being free agreed to help out. At first we were quite blur and we don't really know the directions to the places we wanted to go. But then, it was quite coincidental as my fren's car was parked next to ours and he actually approached us and gave us directions! thanks Thy.. it was great help... ok.. the reason my fren needed my help was because she hafta write an article regarding art galleries around Gippsland.. and them being in towns nearby, she needed a driver as she doesn't have a car nor license to drive. That's where I come in.



Thus our journey began...



First place we went to was Yinnar. We first approach an art gallery by the name of Arc. Though it looks just like any other building on the outside (except for a big painting of cows on the walls...), it really does have the set up of a gallery. The actually have like rooms for artists to paint here. Beautiful paintings are around the whole place.. pretty interesting. The best part about the place was that on that day, Friday, a group of mentally retarded people, were to paint there... I've managed to catch a few glimpses of their artwork and it was magnificent! It looked very very good. These people are really artist. God created such beautiful artistic people you know, so don't look down on them for the gift that God gave them are sometimes more than ours. We were given a tour of the place and it looks nice. Nice to know that there are these kind of places around.



The next place we went was called Matchbox. It's also situated in Yinnar, just a little further up from ARc. Beautiful beautiful place. It really does capture my heart, touching it and melting it. The art shown was really really good. And the place was almost covered with stained glass! Beautiful beautiful stained glass.. havent seen them around except in old churches. Though these ones are simpler, it gives a feeling of gracefulness and beauty. The place was homey and cosy too, with the lady owner giving us a tour. It seems that his husband is the artist and they actually built the place from scratch... Wow... you can actually see the efforts that they've put into it. it's hard to describe it, but I guess you'll be able to feel what i've felt when you are there.



The last place we went was in Cow Weir.. it's sooooo far!!! It's like 27km from Traralgon ya know.. sigh... quite tired when i was driving there, guessed my lack of rest is taking a toll on me lor.... But yet, the place was really nice too... sigh.. the place was so spacious and empty, yet it gives not the feel of emptiness, but of cosiness and loveliness. The art that was on display was like, have a connection about sea, and it's really good lor.... hope that the pictures that I've tooked comes out good. I'm not artist nor anything, jes snapping away coz it looks rili nice... kekek.....really hope it'll turn out fine.



AFter that rite, i was actually rushing home coz there's movie nite organised by the ISA. I was soooo tired!!! But the movie was nice! So sweet you know, to know that the father loved the child so much till he's willing to do anything to get him back safe. Ya know, I guessed my dad was like that.. he's soooo protective of me till sometimes i felt so overwhelmed! Sometimes i cant take it lor.. but i guess coz i'm his only daughter.. and i do know that he loves me lor... aih.. parentslor....



Dunoleh, the movie was nice lor.... so cute!! kekee... reallly had fun tat day even tho i was so tired.

Another Assignment Done!!



Yay!! Happy, coz managed to finish another assignment. No doubt there are more coming up, but least this means that I have less to do liao lor. Not sure if we've managed to do a good job a not.. but it's our effort there lo.

Sleepless nite



I have a sleepless nite last nite, not because I can't sleep, but because I was busy doing my assignment. Actually, i think I could've finished it earlier, but then again, I was kinda blur with what the question wants from me and how to structure the thing, so in the end, it was done quite late (or early in the sense that I've only managed to finished it this morning).



Surprisingly, quite a number of my frens were up at those odd hours. Well, except for those regular people who does not sleep till early in the morning lo. Quite a number of us were up doing assignments.. and I do feel like a cheerleader (which is a bit pathetic) cheering them on in their work. Nevertheless, they are my friends and it's nice to get a good reaction from them :D

Cheers to you guys yar!



It was quite fun these days, having friends crapping and chit chatting with. I find it refreshing, not so like, bored and like, dull and no one to talk to. It's amazing how much crap you can spit out when you're bored and in the mood to disturb your friends.. Feeling happy these days.. duno why, i guess coz i know i have friends whom i can crap with and disturb and that I don't have so much worries and unhappiness or boredom in my life right nowlo.



Sigh, another assignment coming .. due on Monday.. would have sleepless nites again. Do hope I can do well in it as it isn't easylo. Need to analyse the case study of Swatch, and I don't really understand osolar.... cacatlerrrrrr ......



Tired and sleepy now, but yet I still have things to do and places to go...........

Hm, it seems that there is some problem with the tagboard. Well, my tagboard is like totally at the end of the page so scroll down if you wana put some comments or anything there. :D



Went to the SRA ball last nite. Not bad, get to take pictures with friends around, and being able to see them in their best dress and clothes. So many beautiful people came out that nite, wonderful seeing them so beautiful. As for me, I did dress up too. It was fun for me too. For those who don't really know me and as for those who do know me, I don't really like dressing up or dolling up. I'm the kind that prefers to wear clothes that looks simple and also comfortable for me. Meaning, I'm always in my jeans and shirts and sports shoes (those are really comfortable~). So that nite is sort of like a change for me. It's oklar, dressing up and stuff, but I wouldn't want to do that everyday, cant handle the process man! Takes too long and stuff....



Today I woke up with my back aching terribly again. Do wonder if I'll be fine soon. I don't like my achy back! Makes me feel like an old woman, can't bend down, cough oso hurts terribly, sighhh :( Do hope my back would be well soon as I don't want to be caught with a back complication. It does feel as though the area of my spinal cord hurts more. Do pray for me for my health.



i would be so hectic next week. Two assignments duing next week and I have yet to touch any of them, and on top of that I have a test on Monday which I have not revised at all. Shit man. Would be pretty busy starting tomorrow coz planning to at least try to finish an assignment and do revision by this weekend. Do hope that my back won't cause any trouble for me (having difficulty sitting too long, back aches... does rili make me feel like an old aching woman... sigh~~ cacat man). AS for those who are already starting to be busy and for those who already are, GAMBATEH!!!.. Jia you wor....and God bless ya all in all that you do alrite!



How am I feeling these days? Havent asked myself of that question for a while. I guess I'm ok, still quite lazy and in the lazing mode, but would have to change my mode soon to hectic and hardworking and busy (not!!!!!)....kekk....... Am feeling happy and stuff, less things to worry about, making closer friends with people around me (this is good), bonding and stuff. I am not worrying much liao, not like last semester where things were different. Do miss a number of people who have graduated, wondering whether we would be meeting again later on when we've graduated. Do wonder if we will meet up again too. Friends do meet and go, but most importantly, they stay in our hearts... but really really do hope can meet up again to reminisence....

For some reason my blog is having some problem. It kept asking me to debug, and me being me (i'm not good at all in programming) can't be bothered with it. Until the minute I cant stand it, I guess i'll approach my friends to help me out lo. Don't think it's something major... so I'll stick with it for a while.



I wonder how long do I need to be sick. I can't take it anymore lo. Being eating porridge only for days, and noodles too. Sigh, wonder when can I start eating things that I like. Never in my life have I been sick for so long. It seems to be hard to get well here in Australia, might be due to their weather I guess. I do hope that I will get well soon, can't stand it anymore. SIgh. Hm, when I do get well, I'll cook up a feast!!! I can't be bothered what I cook, but I'll just cook whatever I want to eat! Yay!!! But for now, it's porridge and noodle for me, sigh....



Hm, been studying a little, but i cant seem to be able to concentrate today. There's so many things that I do need to do and have yet to do... sighhh. Heaps of readings man, so lazy lar. I got a couple of assignments due next week. Sigh, haven't started on them. Think I'd better do lor. But for tomorrow I'll need to get myself to prepare for class on Wednesday. There's so many tute work that I need to do. Yet to touch any of them. Sigh, what a lazy person I am.



Ya know, really want to thank God for the friends around me. They care so much about me and I know that they are truly my friends. Sometimes, I know i can be a nuisance and silly, yet they still accept me the way that I am. No matter who you are, i really do thank God for you, for being a friend to me, for being there for me and for accepting me as I am. I know sometimes people wear masks and stuff, one that they put on and take off whenever they are in a different situation. No doubt I do that also, but ya know what, sometimes, I feel that you guys just take off your mask when you're with me, allowing me the chance to look at you without your mask on. I don't know whether I do that too, to allow you guys of a glimpse of me, but yet, thanks for giving me the privilege to do so :D



Some I may not know well, but yet, they are still being such a sweet person that they are. Maybe I do look at people naively, but seriously, you guys are such sweet people and really, really, thank you for being in and a part of my life.



Ya know, continue to live the life you're living, continue to be the true person that you are. Don't deny who you are or pretend to be someone you are not. Sometimes, I guess, in my view, being yourself if what makes u happy. I like being myself, I can be silly, be happy, be funny and be courteous, and those are part of me, those are what makes me who I am today. I am not ashame when I act silly :D, so don't you guys be alrite!



All in all, thanks for your friendships again

love and hugs and kisses from your mate here :D

I went to the doctor's today and he didn't say much, just that I need to buy aspirin to gargle. Says that I have got viral infection and that I do not need antibotic, just need to rest more, keep myself warm and gargle my mouth with aspirin water. Hm, it seems a bit weird for us in Malaysia for we are given antibiotics every time we visit the doctor. Ya know, my friend told me that we don't really need antibiotics. This is told by a doctor friend of hers. The reason they gave us antibiotic coz they are making a sale out of it. Surprising eh? A bit for me, for it seems that doctor aren't an ethical as I thought they should be. Antibiotics actually kills the good and the bad bacteria in our body. And when the good bacteria are killed, our body actually becomes weaker, and also, the good bacteria in our bodies are slow in regeneration. So the next time we get sick, we need stronger antibiotics to fight the bad bacteria in our body. At the same time, the stronger antibiotic will actually kill the good bacteria in our bodies again and again, causing our immune system to become even weaker. I can't say that I would not take antibiotics at all, but one thing is,don't take if you can avoid it lor. Just sharing something with you all who are reading :D

Sick Person



Hm, my throat seems to be getting worse, wonder if there's anything that I can take that could cure me of the pain the I'm enduring every time I try to swallow something, even my own saliva. Does panadol help? Am wondering, coz I've taken heaps of soothers for the throat and they don't seem to be working. What's more, I have work to do tonight and things to present tomorrow, do hope that my throat won't get worse. Lucky for me I can still talk, if not... sigh, that would be very bad coz it means that the throat is hurt badly. REally do wonder what caused it to be like this. Do hope that things will be better later on. Don't wana be sick, coz I figured, no one likes to be sick too! So sad, of all the sickness that people can get (well, minor ones), sore throat is my most hatred one, and now I'm suffering from sore throat. Sigh..... sad, sad, sad :(

oh no!! I'm sick man.. sigh, not a good thing. Having a sore throat now, for no reason. My housemate says that those who went down to Melbourne is now currently sick, not sure if this is a logical theory anot, but for now, most of us are sick. I guess we need to drink more water and such lor. Sigh, so scared of water liao, drink until crazy ar me. But then, don't think it's helping much. Sigh, should make those herbs that my mom gave me, but then again, it's bitter and I can't stand it. How i wish got plum so I can put it in and drink it lor. Sigh....

Attended the annual general meeting of the International Student Association (ISA) of Gippsland. Was thinking since I have nothing much to do, why not go and have a look, since they are providing food and what's more, my friend's a president there. Imagine the shock to see that there are some problems with the club internally. But my friend is truthful, he bares his soul about what the association is currently facing, what the true purpose of the association, his heartfelt sadness over what has happen and so on. Truly, he was truthful and even when he seeks for new committee members, he doesn't push but tells us that we will face hardship in the very near future by being one of the committee. Yet, the response was good (though it was a bit lukewarm in the beginning of the selection) and all the post was taken. Though we might think, hey, it's just a club of something, wouldn't matter if people do attend or not, but I find that his ideals, his hope, and his wanting to see that the club do do something for the international students appeal to me. Hey, come on, you do know that the association exists because of us international students, don't you? Why not come and support it? Are you not an internation student? Are you not part of the people who came here to this campus to study? No matter if you're from Malaysia, from Indonesia, from Singapore, from Fiji, Africa, England, America, you're still an international student here. Do hope that people will come to know that this association exists because of us, not the other way round.



Yes, I am in the association, and I do sound as though I am promoting it. But the real reason behind this is because I can see that the president is really there wanting to help us international students. I have to admit that I do not have a good impression on those people when I first came here. But having attended the AGM, I could see that this new president wants something to happen, not just to recruit people to join in (which they don't do anymore for it is not required, all international students are members of it), but he wants to do something for us international students. Do not look down on people whom you do not know very well, do not judge people by what you hear. Go and listen to them yourself, go and see for yourself. Decide yourself, don't let others decide for you. I join because I want to be a part of this change, to lend a helping hand to those who are in need, to be somewhere where someone does need help. Why stay away? Why hide? Why judge? Open your eyes and see for yourself

Another day has passed. Have not accomplished what I've set out to do today. Does it really matter. Sometimes I wonder why I do plan what I'm supposed to do daily as I don't really accomplish all of them. But then again, it does help me to at least do some of them.



Geraldine shifted to Jamie's room already. She said she missed her, eyes misty when she told me that. Well, though I am not close to Jamie, but I do miss her too. Another friend leaving this campus, and more soon. Wonder if I will ever see them again. Friends really do come and go, like seasons, more new ones will come. But never never will the old ones leave our mind and heart and soul, for they've touched us so deeply in friendship.

Another rainy day. I guess it would really be raining quite often these days. Though it rains, it's really different from Malaysia, coz it's really cold here when it rains, and it can be quite a heavy one too.



How's my day? Well, it's pretty good. Though still a bit tired of the ordeal yesterday where I drove down to the Melbourne to fetch Pui Fong from the airport, it was quite alright. Funny thing is that when I went to class today, I was quite tuned out and don't know what the lecturer was talking about. I know that I wasn't concentrating, and I was actually trying my very best to focus. It was till half an hour later that I managed to concentrate a little, and then I went and answer the lecturer's question. For me, I find it quite funny as I've only managed to catch a little bit of the question, and I answered it! Well, that was just a part of me that thinks the situation is funny. I don't think any of my mates in class notices it :D



Went down to Midvalley to buy some stuff. Didn't spend a long time there, just to long enough to grab whatever I need. SAd thing is, I bought one wrong stuff... was actually wanting to buy a conditioner, but then I ended up buying a shampoo. Didn't notice it until I was about to use it. Wouldn't it be funny if I wash my hair twice? Anyway, am wondering if I can go back there to change the product. I think I can, as long as I have not use it. That's something I've studied in marketing law. Can't really remember. Need to try and recall. Well, now I'm wondering when I'll be going down there.



Having a headache now. Pain leh, suspect that my glasses' power ain't compatible anymore. Aiseh, would be a bit of a problem lor. Luckily I don't wear glasses for long. Well, think I better go to bed now, try to get rid of the headache by sleeping.

It's raining heavily again, wonder when it will stop. Quite heavy, don't think that my housemates will be able to come back lor. James didn't bring his umbrella, but then again, he's in south with his buddy playing computer games, so I guess he might not be coming back at all too. Home alone. Am I scared? Nah, what is there to worry when God is here! :D But still I'm bored. Mel says that the sky is scary, all dark and gloomy. Would it continue to be like this all winter?

I'm bored. I know there's so many readings that I should be doing now, but I'm bored. I don't feel like reading them. And though I can force myself to sit and read them, I know that they still wont' enter my brain. What is there to do here? I can't think of anything to do here. The house is currently empty. Nothing for me to do oso here. Cleaned up the kitchen and the common area in the afternoon. Nothing to do. Is there anything that I can do here?



Alone, lonely, bored...

nothing to do, nothing to see,

sitting here, dwelling there,

am I here? or am I there?



Sian, think it's raining again. Weather's pretty cold tonite, about 3 degrees. Don't feel like venturing out to look for friends, don't want to freeze my butt out there :D Safer to be warm and cuddly (tho I don't have anything to cuddle except my pillows, not a dolly person lar me!!!) Should be sleeping at this hour, but then again I've took such a long nap, so I don't think that I would be sleeping any time soon. Bad choice. Sigh. Books, no entertaining books for me to read, except a very big load of texts. Sigh, life can be so boring at times ain't it?



Throat's acting up again, been coughing here and there. Wonder for what reason, no flam or etc. Guessed it's just dry and needing the attention! Been consuming so much water, wonder if it'll be alright soon. Not fun to have to cough during class. Hope it won't go from bad to worse. Wonder if the weather has anything to do with it....

Yesterday night the sky was so dark. Such a contrast to a few days ago, when the sky was full of stars. What a difference a few nights would make here. Yesterday the day was pretty gloomy, raining the whole day non stop till late. Pretty windy and heavy was such.



Guessed it rained off today's weather too. It was quite bright and sunny during the afternoon. Not a bad day :D Seemed that I am quite tired leh. I slept for over 3 hours liao! Goodnesslar me. Don't know how come I can sleep for so lon eh. Guessed I was too tired since last nite. But still, quite a bit of a shock to me. Wonder if I can sleep anymore tonight. Hm....

Was walking to South 1 a few minutes ago, when suddenly I felt prompted to stop and look up. What a beautiful sight! Can't believe that the sky is full of stars again. Such beauty. Ya know, it's hard to see such a beautiful sight back in Malaysia. Really feel like soaking into the sight as much as I can for I do not know for sure when I will have the chance again after graduating. Talking about that, can't believe I have only a few months left of studying before venturing out into the workforce. So fast...Things do happen quite quickly. So young, yet would be graduating soon. Quite unbelieveable.

Just checked out my friend's blog, Elaine, who is back in Malaysia doing the same degree as I am and would be graduating at the same time as me! I didn't know she has a blog until I received an email from her with her blog's address attached to it. Hey Elaine, what you wrote is quite interesting and nice, wouldn't really cure me of insomnia (if i have one, which i don't!) coz I would keep on reading it. kekek... nice blog girl!



WEll, today is the second day of uni and I don't have a class today. But nevertheless, yesterday's first class wasn't so good. I was supposed to have a class at 10am in the morn every Monday, but there would no longer be any classes at that hour. Reason: due to the lack of students in the class, it was found that it would not be economically viable for monash to conduct classes... wah piang!! kinda mad at the reason that they gave us for we have actually paid for the subject and now they say it's not economically viable for them to teach us! Quite unreasonable reason that they gave us. Worse still, we have to print all the notes that we need out as they only chucked a CD rom to us containing all our notes and whatever readings we need. We have to print it out because our exam is open book. When we asked the lecturer whether she could help us print out the study guide as it takes up like over 20 pages every week (and we hafta print them out!!!!), she again answered us that monash thinks that we student should print it out ourselves as it's not economically viable for them to print for us! Goodness!!! We've paid for the subject and yet we have to incur so much expenses! Bloodsuckers lar they all!!!!



Hm... okok.. calm down...*breathing in and out*



It's that time of the year again where heaps of your money would be spent on stocking up the house with food and also with your textbooks and etc. Haven't gotten any textbooks yet, but would soon be in the bookshop stocking up. Hopefully I won't have to buy all the textbooks that I need. Waiting for Nicole (my old housemate, same major as me and also an SLO) to pass me the business marketing text. So sweet of her to offer me even before last semester ended. I dropped by my old house on Sunday nite to get some of the things that i left, and I actually miss them ( my old house mates). I really enjoyed my stay in that house as all my housemates are nice and friendly and fun to be with. Except for some of the occasions where I hua and I have to nag them to clean up, things went smoothly at that house. Will miss them really.



Oh, for all your information (should've mention this earlier) I've shifted to another house for this semester due to some personal and private reasons. Am now staying nearer to Pui Fong and Mel. Yeah!! Now I don't have to trot so much to their houses.. kekek



New week, new semester. Do hope things will run smoothly this semester. Do hope that everyone will have a great time too!

Another Day Gone



Another day has gone by, can't believe that it's already Wednesday, and soon, in less than 20 minutes would be Thursday. Uni life would resume on the coming Monday, which would be about 4 days away. So fast. As every one knows, the result is out and as for me, it's not so good. I won't want to mention what i get for them, but nevertheless, it's not really good. But still, congratulations for all those who did well and passed all their papers :D



Should be blogging about the Sydney trip, but still feeling lazy....



Well, I went down to Melbourne on the 28th with Pui Fong. She was leaving back to Malaysia on the 29th and the girl is still in Malaysia enjoying herself, so nice lar. Anyways, celebrated Mel's birthday on the 1st and 2nd July. Hopefully she'll have a good time and has enjoyed our company.



On the 3rd, we left for Sydney, arriving at Wake Up (the place where we're staying for the duration of our Sydney trip) at 7 something in the evening. Having put down our things and settling down for a little bit, we went out for dinner. Went to a shop selling thai food, and i had a something called three style rice. It actually tastes really nice. Met up with Norman and his friends to chit chat and stuff lor. After dinner we went for a walk around the "neighbourhood". It was quite cool coz the whole place is still alive even though it as late at night. Such a big difference compared to Melbourne city, wouldn't mind living in Sydney :D



on the 4th, we were quite adventurous, walking around the whole of Sydney (almost the whole city). We walked to the Sydney Fish Market and had the freshest seafood. Yum!! IT's been quite a while since I have eaten any seafood, so bear with me for the moment. It was really fresh and juicy, makes me want to eat more! But sad to say, it'll be a while before I can eat such fresh seafood anytime soon. Later on, we walked to QVB. The distance is quite long, but we took breaks in between, taking pictures here and there. It was quite fun walking about as the weather was nice and we don't sweat as we do back in Malaysia.



on saturday, we went to the rocks' flea market. There's so many beautiful things there. Anyone who loves cute and artistic and creative stuff, I'm sure you would want to venture there. There's so many things that I wish to get from that place, but sad to say, I don't have such a big amount of money. Think if i do rite, I'll be getting almost the whole market back here :D We spent quite a long time there, taking our own sweet time enjoying the things there. Later on, we took some pictures along the place, as it was at the Sydney Harbour Bridge, and also near the Sydney Opera House. We took a ferry to Darling Harbour and back during the evening. The night was dark but the scenery was beautiful and breathtaking. REally really had a great time that nite too.



Went up to blue mountain the following day. God has blessed us with a wonderful weather. Even the tour guide said that that day the weather was wonderful. Praise the Lord for it (can't really stand cold ler me). Although it was tiring, I won't regret my time there. Again, the scenery is magnificient and breathtaking. Those there isn't much to see, yet, the nature itself is so beautiful. If one loves nature, it would be good to go there and enjoy it. Really had a wonderful time there. (I have a feeling I'm sounding like a marketer marketing Sydney, goodness gracious!)



Still, I need to continue on with what happen in my trip, ain't i?? On Monday, we went down to Bondi beach and did the funniest things you can think of! Keke, REally really had a good time during the trip. We started snapping away with our cameras. And Geraldine started to take candid of us. It was quite hilarious, coz we were being so silly on the beach. It was the second time I've been to a beach since I was young and it's quite fun. The sand felt so soft under my feet. Still remember my feet sinking into the sand every step that I took on the beach. It's a really nice and wonderful feeling. Well, Mel and Melissa did the funniest things! They actually "acted" out a fighting scene whereby they punched each other, and Geraldine took snapshots of it with her digi cam. Later on, when Chris and Glenn came over, they did the same thing! I was supposed to joined Mel and Melissa for another shot, but I can't make it as i was giggling and laughing too much! kekeke.... wat to do, it was really funny and silly!



Later on, before we proceed to Sydney Olympic Park for the launching of HSC (hillsongs conference), Mel, Glenn, Chris and I went down to the Botanical Garden for a walk. It's really a beautiful garden. Love it there. The trees, the scenes, the setting, breathtaking. Guys, do bring your girls there for walks, I'm sure they'll love it too. It really is a romantic place, with it's beautiful and romantic setting. Dont mind going there again, just to enjoy the beauty of nature :D



The HSC was wonderful, except for a few hiccups here and there. Did enjoyed myself there. Would I attend again? I can't give confirmation on that, but God has blessed me with this chance to attend the conference and I don't regret it.



Ya know, I really do thank God for a lot of things. He has blessed me with so many wonderful things and so many wonderful plans. Although I have to admit that I do have faults and I am not perfect, but I know one thing, I have faith in a wonderful God and I really do thank Him for giving me life, for giving such a wonderful time and such wonderful friends surrounding me. Truly, without Him I don't know if i can do so many things, and experience such purpose to be alive.

Back in Gippsland



I should be blogging more often since I am back, but undeniably I need to catch up on my rest, hence the result might be some delay in updating this blog with all the details and accounts of what i have been doing during the holidays.



Yeap, i'm back in Gippsland again. Will be here for the whole week, doing what, I'm not very very sure yet. Well, am staying with Geraldine at her place for now lor, coz she said it's better than having to pay extra for the week lor.



In another few days time the next semester will start. Can't believe it, it'll be my final semester here and after that I'll be graduating and would then move out to the workforce. Wah lau, so fast. It's like, I'll only be reaching 21 soon and yet, by the end of this year i would be finishing my studies and would move on to lead a working life. Wonder what it will be like. Well, i guess i had better be concentrating on the coming semester instead of floating to the future, though it's near. Why worry about tomorrow when God will take care of it???? Need to continue to keep that in mind. I do know that God is always with me and will always take care of me and He has already plan everything out for me. Need to learn to rely on Him more and rely on myself less. Learn to be odedient to Him and listen to Him and His directions, for I know that they are good for my own sake. :D

Exam's over!!!



Yippee! I am so glad that exam's over. Though i think i did not do well for both the papers today, I am still glad that i do not have to sit for another paper anytime soon! Yeah... now is really the time to party lor! keke..



Tomorrow would be packing day for sure. Hm, seems like there would be heaps of moving things around and putting things here and there. Thank goodness I have packed most of my loads into James' room (my future housemate). With that load off me, I would be able to spend less time packing tomorrow.



Going down city the following day lor. Do what, I'm not sure yet. BUt i would be hanging out with Fong. Would be the last two days hanging out with her as she would be going back to Malaysia for the break, will miss her heaps :( Nevertheless, it would be an exciting and enjoyable break as I would be attending Hillsongs and would be Sydney for a while! Yeah!!!!



Oh, had dinner at Geraldine's place earlier, the food was good! I love the spring roll and the soup. Very tasty! Thanks Din Din for the lovely dinner!



Hm, the semester's finally ended. Wonder how does everyone feels. For me, it made me feel like time does pass by in a faster pace when I'm here. There seems to be things to do and even if there isn't, time still goes by without waiting for us. It does makes u want to grab hold of time and try to make it worthwhile. Would it be much different when I am back home? Would it be even more different if i were to be in another campus and not here? This i am not sure.



I don't really regret coming here to Gippsland, though it's a big change for a city girl like me, this life here in Gippsland makes me very thankful to God, thankful that things are going on so well, that He gave me peace in my heart, the ability to be thankful for this wonderful and lovely place. Sometimes when I walk home at night, I just look at the sky and would be thankful for such wonderful view. Really, the beauty of it is indescribable.



Another semester has passed, another coming soon. Would it pass by so soon again? Would time free itself from my hold and disappear again? No answer to it yet, but one thing for sure, no matter what, time would not stop me from wanting to do the things that i want to :D