Monday, August 21, 2006

Learning to Trust God more

There's a reason why the title is chosen to be as such. As a mere human, there are times we are so overwhelmed with things around us, so busy with things around us that we forget to trust God.

Likewise for me, I am also learning to trust God more. The past few months has been like a typhoon, being swept away by my work and also the happenings in my life. I could barely find time for myself, let alone time for God. Ok, I am guilty of not spending time with God. Come on, let's admit it, each one of us struggle with this too. I don't want to be a Christian who claims perfection, but who is also a mere human, flawed and all, but by the grace of God, learning to stand on her own two feet and places honesty as high as possible in her life.

Neways, what I wanted to share if God's impeccable timing in my life. Many of you know that I am planning to leave my current job and have been actively searching for a while. Yet, I struggle in this aspect of trusting God to, ya know, reveal to me the right time to leave and also for a new job. I have been sending resumes out and to my disappointment and to my security, no one actually called me up for anything at all. I felt so useless and all, all the while questioning myself and God, on my own capabilities.

There was a chance interview which I went to that God affirmed to me on my capabilities, that I am good at (i'm not being boastful k) what I can do. But God also revealed to me at that interview that the timing is not right. The month of September came into my and the sense of peace engulfed me at that time to trust God and wait on in my current job till September.

That is until two months ago, when my streak of panic and worry sets in again, kicking me into once again sending resumes and etc to companies to see if they want to hire this crazy girl to work in their company.

And this time, amazingly... God has been opening so many doors for me to venture in. Companies after companies called me up asking me to go for interviews. And God's timing is so amazing! Should any of these companies would want me, I should get to start in October, after my contract ends. Splendid ain't it?

Now, I am learning to trust God to lead me to the right job.. allow Him to direct my path and etc.

Father God, I am truly thankful to U, for Ur impeccable timing and for Ur amazing assurance in my life. I know that I am still struggling with certain worries and etc. But Lord, I want to commit my worries in Ur hands. I pray for favour as I attend the interviews and I pray that U will direct me to the right job. May U close the ones that is not suitable and grant me peace.

Thank U Lord for granting me assurance. I pray Lord that I would continue to serve U and put U first in my life.

In Jesus' most precious and glorious name I pray, AMEN