Spent the whole day yesterday with Geraldine, it was her birthday. We had fun walking around Melbourne, just doing nothing basically. Later that night we went to a Jap restaurant, Ito. The food there is not bad, the environment is good though, good ambience and etc, good if you want to go and just hang around and spend some quality time with your friends.



I am now back in Churchill, the little small which has been my dwelling place for the past year. Came back here to do my supp paper. Do really hope that I can sit for it, still pending on my results. Scary ler, it'll be coming out on Thursday, and if I do pass, I will be sitting for it in the afternoon on the same day. Quite stressful actually, but oh well, it will truly be my last paper then. Do really hope that I can pass everything, coz I really want to finish everything by this year. Don't think I would want to spend another semester studying liao lor. But yet again, I would truly miss this place. What a fantastic year I have, what fantastic friendships I've made here. Thanks everyone for making my time here so memorable and great.



I am actually feeling quite bored these days. There's nothing much to do lor, except studying, and I tell you, it's absolutely not my favourite past time. Oh well, we don't have much choice when it comes to studying do we. Nevertheless, it would be my very last paper.



Going home soon, miss everyone at home, miss everyone here. Want to see you all soon. Enjoy your holidays ok!!!

Love....life.....

Another friend has left... soon more would leave, one by one, each going back to their own destination, separated by sea, separated by distance, separated by circumstances, by situations...yet once we were joined together, in heart, in spirit, in love and in care for each other.



For those of you who are far away from me,who are home, do know that I love you heaps and that I care for you lots. Don't ever ever think that I don't. It's a great pleasure and honor knowing you and hanging out with you. Thank you so much for willing to be my friend. It's hard to explain or even to put words of how I feel towards you, but the genuity of your friendships truly touched me deeply.

More and more friends are leaving, can I really take these departures? Think I cried for almost all of the departures of my friends.. really do wonder if I would be able to meet up with everyone in near future. Really do hope so.



Just got back from the city today. Quite tiring... a bit pathetic man, today we hafta wait for an hour just for the train! Can't imagine that we wasted an hour!

Another friend left Gippsland today. Really sad......will miss you so much Samson. Thanks for always being there for me and for always caring for me. Love you always my didi. Take good care of yourself ok.

Hit by a realisation...



I fell in love with this place, Gippsland... I fell in love with the people I met here, be it in church, in uni, be it the time met is short or long.....I truly am in love



Heart aches so badly, knowing the fact that so many of my friends are leaving home. Love you all so much...Will I be able to see you again? I really don't know......Miss you all already.....will always love you...

Friends come and go in our lives, leaving a part of them in us and a part of us in them. this is one of the best gifts that a person could give to others. Rather sad to know that I would be leaving this place soon. What's more, a number of my friends would be leaving this place earlier than me. I'm really really going to miss this place man. I know I am getting mushy and stuff, and I can't stop myself from being so lor. There's too many memories for me here, so much that it engulfs every part of my being.



In my entire life, though I have friend surrounding me, I felt empty because I feel that they are befriending me for the sake of something. Yet, coming here, though I still feel that way at times, there are people who really showed me that they are really true in their friendship with me. It's amazing to know that friendships could bloom at such a speed, so unpredictable yet so beautiful. I really thank God for every single person that I met here. I would never never forget anyone of you and I would always cherish the moments we've spent together. Though the year passes us by in a hurry, I do hope that our friendship would continue to blossom and grow further.



Thank you all for the memories that you have given to me. Thank you for the gift of friendship you have extended to me. And thank you most of all for accepting me as I am, flaws and all.



I'm in my final days of my study life, and soon I would move into a transition to working life. I don't know how it will become, how things will be or what I will do. Things are so unpredictable for me as I am not a long term planner. I go with the flow, and this is not really a good thing. Yet I believe that things have already been planned for me and I would make sure I walk the path that He wants me to. Though things might not happen to way I want it to be, yet I am sure He knows what is best for me, and I would want to do what pleases Him. Nevertheless, I would still be the person that you all know, the girl around the corner, the girl who does silly things and the girl who goes hyper at odd hours ;D



Today would be the last day for me to attend the Churchill Christian Fellowship. This church has been a home for me for the past months that I am here. When I first attended the church, it felt weird cause it was so small and things were so different. Things were not as I expected it would be. Yet, one thing that I can sense when I was in that church was the presence of God is that place. It was so strong and so real, capturing my heart and my attention. The people in the church is so generous, so real, so loving and so true. It's really really different from back home. They made me feel loved and cherished. I would really really miss everyone there. Though it's different, yet God placed me in this place and I would accept it. He never did leave me, He knows what I need and gave it to me. He gave me love in my life, people who would accept me as I am and people who truly cares for me. Though time is short for me here, yet it has been a great short time here. Through church and through Shine, God has been pouring out His blessing unto me. I can't stop saying how grateful and thankful for Him for the friends that I met from church and Shine. Truly, these bonds are bonds of a lifetime.



It just crossed my mind that this week would be my final week of being a student. After that I would be home free and graduate. Can't believe it. Still a bit stunning, a girl, on the path to becoming a woman, is graduating from her studies, moving towards working life. Still young, still playful, still a girl, moving on towards the world, to a different kind of life, a different kind of environment. Am I prepared to make this transition? Would things work out fine? Would everything be alright? I really don't know. So not prepared, still so blur, still wanting to be carefree, to look around, to seek something for myself. Yet, it is time for me to be bold and to step out into the world, to face it with all that I have and with all that I am. Yet, I know I would not be doing this alone, He will be with me always and forever, every step that I take He will be with me. Amazing, truly amazing, to know He is just here with me at every moment, waiting, looking, encouraging, embracing, and most of all loving me.



Whatever I do, I trust that things will be alright. Whatever decision, whatever choice that I make, I trust that it will be the right one. As long as we walk with Him, things will be alright. The path my seem cloudy, it might seem as though there's so many things blocking your ways, as though it's not going the direction you want to take, be strong and have faith. Things that happen in your life has a purpose. Yes, every thing that happens has a purpose. It might seem deadening, saddening and heart wrecking, but hold on to your faith, to your trust in Him. He never breaks His promise, and He will be sure to hold you close and show you light. Trust, trust in Him.



Trust in the Lord with all your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding,

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

and He shall direct your path.



Keep your faith and be strong my dear friends. Be strong always in Him.



Truly want to tell you how my heart feels, my dearest friends. You don't know how strongly your friendships have touched me. I can't put to words how my heart feels, needing to part with you guys and leave this place. The memories are so strong, so real and so true. Friends I've made here truly, truly have made my life so good. Every single person whom I met here has touched my heart so deeply. It hurts to know that we would have to part, to move on and to leave behind memories. It hurts to know that I might not see you anymore, not to be able to talk to you anymore and not be able to hug and share my love with you anymore. How I wish I could give you all a gift, a gift that is truly from my heart. Yet, I have nothing to give but for my heart, this small heart of mine. It really do break my heart knowing that I would have to part with you all, to leave behind all the beautiful friends whom have shared so much with me.

Stressed? Not very sure.. don't feel like reading my law stuff just now. Couldn't even concentrate on it. dono why.. oh well.



Don't really want to do a countdown for it. My paper's in the afternoon so I guess it's not so bad... would have at least the whole night to study lor. Erm, well, a few hours lar, coz it's already 3 something here. No worries, will do my best to read up all my things.



Sometimes I wonder why things are the way they are.. Can we change them? I really don't know.. can we do something that will alter our fate and our choices in life? YEt the choice we make would determine the path that we take. Sometimes things look so unclear for me. The choice I make, are they correct? The path that I'm taking, are they the right ones? These are something that I cant answer at all. All I can say is that I've made them and I would stick with them. Trust my instincts? SEriously, I don't dare to for the these instincts of mine can be quite wrong sometimes. ALl I do is trust in God, in seeking Him with the choices that I make, with the paths that I am taking. TRust and faith in Him. As long as I am walking straight with Him i guess things will continue to be alright. Though sometimes trouble and sadness and fear comes, yet i know i will be able to come out of them glad, joyful and even more trusting.

Hm, now waiting for my 2nd paper, IT law... kinda freaky as there's so many things that I need to study for it yet I do not have the heart nor the concentration to do so. Only managed to cover up to two chapters only, and there's five more for me to go. Kinda scary. Not sure if i can finish reading everything by tomorrow anot. The paper's on Friday afternoon. Seriously, I have a feeling that I would sit there until my butt sore as there would be 30 minutes of reading and noting time, and after that another 3 hours of sitting there writing my answers. Wah lau, seriously am going to get some sweet and stuff so that I won't hafta be so sian and stuff lor. Don't even know what stuff am I going to bring in ler. Shit man.



Oh well, will leave it all to God lor. Let Him help me. I will try to do my best to read up everything nonetheless. Guess, come to think of it it's useless to worry so much when you should spend the time worrying to study. OK lar.. will stop worrying so much, pray more and study more!