Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Sue = workaholic

I've been talking and updating a friend of mine about what's going on in my life... and she commented, "eh, you're turning into a workaholic lei. You know arh, your email and your conversations are all about work, so boring lar you.."

And I guess I am as well. What to do, work is playing a major role in my life these days and I seemed to be allowing it to occupy my time too. But I've also been playing hard... is that a balance for me? Sigh... I'm trying to hold on to the thought that it's a learning curve for me right now, a steep one, hence much of my time is taken to do what I'm doing right now.

Even my youth pastor commented on how busy I am these days. Can't help it I guess at the moment. But fleeting thoughts such as quitting if work is taking me and my time away from God does cross my head. And I do think that right now, work does occupy a big chunk of my time. But a friend also shared that maybe it's due to my planning or the lack of it that things seems to be overflowing and all.

Seriously have no idea right now. I can't wait for Thursday to come, so that I can get to rest a bit and all. Presentation is this Thursday and the decks are due tomorrow morning. I'm still a long way from completing it. Guess it'll be a sleepless night for me again.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Passion for singing

I have a passion for singing. I love to sing.. even when I was a little kid I love to sing. I remember when I was in primary school, a group of us would actually cut out the song lyrics from magazine (Galaxie mag is quite the in thing for us then) and paste it into our little "songbook". We'll then always find a spot during recess or break and start reviewing our collection and start singing...quite a number of my friends can really sing, come to think of it. I know one who started jamming sessions with her other friends... she's really into music and creative arts even till today.

My favourite time in church is during the worship session. I love to sing in crowds back then because it doesn't really matter if you go out of tune or whatever, you can just sing and sing and no one cares.

But as I got older, I realise that I really really love to sing. And not just singing any other song that's out that, but rather singing as a manner of worshipping the Almighty one. When I was first recruited to join the youth worship team, I remember how stringent it was. We were questioned as to why we want to be on stage to sing, how serious we are and whether we know what we're committing ourselves to... I remember the first time I was asked to sing solo on stage, to start a song... was so nervous that my voice will fail on me, kept praying that things would be okay... haha... I never had any formal singing lesson... even till now I'm still learning to sing in a proper manner.

My love for singing was further intensified when I was in Australia. Back in Gippy (think that's why I love Gippy heaps as well), a group of us would just get together out of the blue.... one guitar, milo can being the drum, harmonica and we would just start a jamming session there and then... these people (all over Asia) just love worshipping God! It's so exciting hanging out with them because you never know what would happen. Even back then, Mel and I would go to the Rec hall on any ordinary days and she would start playing the piano there and I would start singing there and then. Sometimes we're joined by more and more people along the way. My favourite time would be at the hexagon. I remember the baby grand piano in that place and Chris playing it... sometimes he'll sing too... I remember fondly of that final practice that we had before the little concert we did. We were just praying and seeking God when one song after another started rolling from our mouth. It's really amazing... it hits me with the fact that all of us are from different countries and different places, yet in one unity, we went on our knees and started praising Him there and then.. still amazes me till now... I remember that night where we had our little concert, where we just sang and worship God in front of a number of students... many whom are not christians.

I remember too of the last Shine fellowship gathering, where people continue to sing even though Chris stopped strumming the guitar. Singing for God, hearts in tune to God and in God we unite. Later Chris told me he purposely stopped playing the guitar because he wants to see God's movement in the group...

It was at Gippy too that I've met friends who continue to encourage me and help me grow in my confidence to sing for God. Chris made me realise the songs that I'm singing are not just songs. Time and again he reminded me to look at the lyrics of the songs, and many a times I'm touched by them and fell in love with those songs that he shared with me, because they truly are my heartfelt prayers to God. I'm truly thankful for these friends and these season of friendship that God brought into my life....

Even till now I love to sing for Him. I'm passionate in seeing people worshipping God... I love the gathering of christians, because you can just see them worshipping God there and then. No matter where you're from or what you are doing, you just stop everything and care not about anything but to worship Him at that moment...

Sometimes when I see people who just close themselves up during worship sessions and I would feel like shaking them and say, hey, don't you love worshipping God? Why don't you sing along? Yet, who am I to judge them or question them? I can only pray that God will move in the midst of His people and stir their hearts...

Being human being, I guess pride does get into our way sometimes. I'm fearful of that pride that I know might creep up to me. I want to sing for Him, and I do that in church even right now... but because of my fear, I continue to pray that I will be reminded of my purpose on stage, that is to sing for Him and to, as part of the worship team, lead the church to worship Him. I'm still not that good in singing. There's heaps of improvement to be made. But right now I'm thankful for this gift He has given me and I will continue to use it to serve Him.

I love to sing. I might not be entirely good in it, definitely not a professional, but I'm still burning with desire and passion to sing for Him. And I want to see people passionate in worshipping Him. I'm thankful for this gift, and I will definitely continue to be passionate about it.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Hair length

My mom and a friend has been complaining that my hair's getting shorter and shorter. One thing about me, the minute I feel like my hair's making me feel uncomfortable, I'll go and cut it. But back in Australia, I never bothered cutting it... for the strangest reason (minusing the fact that it's extremely expensive cutting your hair there).... Was looking at some pictures of myself with long hair...

Hm... my hair is LONG! gosh... how did i ever let it grow so long? Wonder if I can do it now....

p/s: feeling crappy, so blogging crappy stuff

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Slow Dance - a wake up call for all workaholics

What a reminder... especially during this period where things are just crazily hectic for me..

Slow Dance


This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital. It was sent by a medical doctor.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done!
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Seberang Perai

It's 5plus and I'm in my hotel room in Seberang Perai. There's seriously nothing much here... probably a small mall and some stores outside. No idea what to eat for dinner... might just settle down at the Old Town Kopitiam that I saw outside. Hopefully I'll get to eat dinner, that is, since would drag on to 9ish and I'll need to do some follow up calls as well.

Must kayao! keke.. not for myself but rather for God! I wana do this well for Him.....

Mind Bogging day to begin with

Woke up at 4am to catch the 655am flight. Reach airport at 5 plus and had to queue for ticket... when I got to the counters ages later, I was told that I cannot board that flight as it's too late. Tried justifying the fact that I've been queuing for ages for it, but failed.

Had to call MAS airlines to check on their flight. Was told that the 915am was fully booked. Can only board the 1045. Proceeded to purchase the ticket and have them put me on standby. Now waiting for the standby to be confirmed. Sigh, what a crazy way to start the day. Almost wanted to cry while in the cab from LCCT to KLIA. Already had a stressful night, and now the day starts stressfully for me.

Father in heaven, please do lend me your strength for the day. I'm already tired enough from all the planning and scheduling that I had to do. Please Father... allow me peace and ease.

Monday, April 9, 2007

My business trip up to North on 7 April 07

Made some jottings while I was at the airport. Enjoy...

Location: Penang Airport
Reason: Waiting for my flight back to Kuala Lumpur
Reason for being in Penang: Work purpose - conducting interviews at Alor Setar and Butterworth
In Penang since: 8am in the morning
Flight back: 1030pm
Time now: 840pm
Time wake up: 4am
Time slept the night before: 2am
Hours of sleep: 2 hours
Winks in between: half an hour in the taxi to Alor Setar, 1 hour in the ride back to Penang Airport

Incidents that's amusing/eye opener:

Incident 1:
it was pouring on the way back to Penang Airport. I saw 3 different accidents within the stretch of 1km (maybe less!).... it's kinda bad, in the sen that it involves 3 cars at the very least, and the front and rear of the cars are pretty smashed up. Yet to see such accidents in a vast of 1km before.... quite stunned

Incident 2:
the taxi to Penang airport was super old. There's a mini fan inside the taxi! How quaint can it be??!! Likewise, the taxi driver is an old man who speaks mandarin to me. At least he understood my feeble attempts of conversation with him (my mandarin sounds funny! haha... I can't really speak it)...haha.. it's porbably the reason why he doesn't seem to want to talk to me much.. oh well... i've tried :P By the way, the journey, which was supposed to be 2 hours or less became more because the taxi uncle was driving very slowly. I felt my butt getting sore from sitting in the car for so long. And nope! Not hoping for F1 speed.. at the very least, not 60km per hour... still thankful I got to the airport in one piece.

Incident 3:
me! why? Coz I'm now sitting outside the office of MAS airlines, and in front of me is the check out counter entrance.....okok.. specifically, i'm sitting on the FLOOR! Reason? My phone's battery's dying and because I still need to make contact with the world down central, I need it alive and well. Oh, did I mention that the power plug is outside the office. Why phone battery is dying? Erm, I'ven been on the phone the whole day coordinating and ensuring that the interview will go smoothly. Been sitting here for probably about half an hour now... people are just staring at me whenever they walk pass and even one lady wanted to approach me to get a credit card.. weird. I guess I am attracting attention as I'm wearing a bright green jacket! A present from Din Din! But it's fun to see people's head turning to see what I'm doing. One MAS guy actually ask me wat's up... i just smiled and say, charging phone! kekek

Incident 4:
My taxi drivers in KL are really nice. The morning guy who fetched me gave me a morning call at 4am in the morning! My alarm rang the same time as the call came in! Literally made me jump out of the bed to answer the call n turn my alarm off... then, half an hour later... the taxi driver was talking non-stop to me in the car. I've made attempts to answer him, but in my half drowsy mode... haha... I guess I dropped off after a while, coz the next thing I know he was like, Sue ah, we've arrived.

He called me a couple of times reminding me to call the other taxi driver who's going to fetch me home! Scared I'll left alone and all I guess. keke... or maybe he think i'm a cute girl and will be kidnapped?!! Keke.... but am thankful for people who takes care of me ;)

The one fetching me home was more happening! He was chatting in cantonese with me. So happily we chatted for over an hour, from the airport all the way home! Haha.. i was already sleepy but it was kinda fun talking to him. Shared so many amusing incidents with me! He's almost turning 60 but yet looking so healthy and hyper... haha... man, as compared to him, I figured I'm pretty much flat that night.

Happenings during the interviews:

Schedule for the day:
4 interviews in Alor Setar
2 interviews in Butterworth
Coordinator: SUE and only SUE
management of the interviews: SUE
interviewers: Sue and another guy (can't split myself into 6 can i!??)

Incident 1:
One of the respondent's dad passed away in the morning! Was quite stunned when she shared it with me....as I called herto confirm on the interview and all... may he rest in peace. Had to call my boss and let him know of the matter.

Incident 2:
Spoke to 2 more respondents from Butterworth. Had to cancel both of them because they never did the work we asked them to prepare properly. Oh well, things can be quite unpredictive. I had to make the decision to cancel it as it's not going to work.

Incident 3:
One respondent simply did the homework and we had to waste money paying for his shoddy work. Lesson learnt. Need to check more thoroughly on the homework that respondents did!

To sum up, it's been a long and hectic day for me, one that started out as being stressful, but ended with peace. I'm thankful to Him who gave me peace! Amen

Friday, April 6, 2007

Captivated by God

Went home late last night... had a hang out session with two friends... not wanting to sleep yet, I decided to read a few pages of the book "Captivating". As I was reading it, things stirred in my heart as never before and I felt engulfed by the Holy Spirit...

This morning, I woke up refreshed and as I was travelling to work, I was captivated, literally by the beauty of my surroundings... wishing my camera was within reach to snap those memorable moments...

moment where... u saw the ground all covered by the yellow flowers that fell from the trees.. creating color and contrast on the ground....allowing beauty to fill your heart

moment where .... u look up the sky and different shades of blue filled it..... filling your heart and mind with peace...

moment where... u look up to the the trees against the blue sky... wonderful contrast filling your heart

moment where... u focus on the trees ... and the breeze that's moving them moves your heart as well...

Thank U Father for such a wonderful start of the day. Thank U for filling my heart once again with peace and joy... Thank U for reminding me that U're everywhere around me... Thank U... for being U....

Floating

As I was walking to my car earlier tonight, I suddenly saw a green plastic floating in the sky... way up high... weird thing was there wasn't any wind and yet it was floating....

But then again, it made me wish I have a camera there and then to snap it (I think it was in my bag... too tired to dig for it though)... it actually gave me peace, seeing that floating plastic... unsure why,... but yea... peace...

Thank U Lord for peace.... for ease.... for relieve.....

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

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I'm updating my blog as I've promised my friend that I'll do it. I never realised that I've not blogged for more than a week now. Well, it's considered to be less as compared to previously, but a promise is a promise :)

What have I been up to? I got trained to conduct interviews last week. My boss has a knack of dropping me a bomb... he flew in on Monday and informed me that he's going to train me for the interviews... once we got start, the bomb came, I have to do the interview that night itself! I got a shock of my life... sigh... I seriously wonder what God has in store for me next.. more bombs? Well, since I gotta do it I gotta do it I guess. But it didn't help that I got stressed out by it. So much so that I started disturbing my colleague and I couldn't sit still! Haha.. it was kinda funny because it's been quite a while since the last time I got so wired up to the extent that I disturb everyone in sight. I saw my boss grinning when I was doing some nonsensical stuff before the interivew. I started listening to worship songs from my laptop (nope, no headset, everyone in the office can hear it), I started reading the interview notes and move a lot, and halfway through I started humming and singing worship songs. I think my boss can see that I'm all wired up.. but what to do, work is work. Sigh.... but praise God, though it isn't perfect, things went on quite alright as well. Am really thankful to that.

The next day client came for one of the interview and my colleague was doing it. However, it's not fun needing to entertain clients. Things can get so complicated, and me, being famous for not a small talk kind of person.. just smiled and left my colleague to entertain him.. haha.. I guess I'm thankful that my colleague is there then. I wouldn't have known what to say and all...

On Friday, I went to a friend's church. ERm, I can't remember the church name now, but it's a Pybesterian church in KL. Mel and I got an invite from this friend who is in the same Headstart and we thought, what the heck, we shall just go an explore. Off we went down to KL, got caught in a jam and got there late. Still, it was quite interesting and it seems to be a weekly thing and people just share their thoughts and all. Not that there's many who voiced out but I guess, with the Pastor around, he does gives us insight and make us see things in a different perspective. I know I've learnt something from it :)

Weekend was a blast! Went for lunch at Country Farm Organics at Bangsar Village. The vegetables are sooo juicy and mouth-watering! Too bad I didn't take a picture of it, else would've posted it online as well. I ordered some Tomyam Bee Hoon, which is without any meat but nonetheless very filling. Then accompany my friend for his supposedly 10 minute haircut, which turns out to be more than 20 minutes. Mind you, his hair was short enough already, still takes the lady to cut for so long. I guess the sad part after that was my friend got rashes all over his neck and forehead from the haircut. Apparently the utensils used were not clean. So ppl out there, do avoid the Bangsar Village cut and go k. We went over to the place where the poetry recital was supposed to be held, stayed there for about 10 minutes and my friend said this, I'm feeling miserable, can I make you feel miserable as well?