THE EMPEROR'S SEEDS
An emperor in the Far East was growing old and it was time to choose his successor.
Instead of choosing one of his assistants or his children, he decided something different.
He called young people in the kingdom together one day.
He said, "It is time for me to step down and choose the next emperor. I have decided to choose one of you."
The kids were shocked!
But the emperor continued.
"I am going to give each one of you a seed today, one very special seed. I want you to plant the seed, water it and come back here one year from today with what you have grown from this one seed. I will then judge the plants that you bring, and the one I choose will be the next emperor!"
One boy name Ling was there that day and he, like the others, received a seed. He went home and excitedly told his mother the story.
She helps him get a pot and planting soil, and he planted the seed and watered it carefully.
Everyday he would water it watches to see if it had grown.
After about three weeks, some of the other youths began to talk about their seeds and the plants that were beginning to grow.
Ling kept checking his seed, but nothing ever grew.
Three weeks, 4 weeks, 5 weeks went by. Still nothing.
By now, others were talking about their plants but Ling didn't have a plant, and he felt like a failure.
Six months went by; still nothing in Ling's pot. He just knew he had killed his seed. Everyone else had trees and tall plants, but he had nothing.
Ling didn't say anything to his friends, however. He just kept waiting for his seed grow.
A year finally went by and all of the youths of the kingdom brought their plants to the emperor for inspection.
Ling told his mother that he wasn't going to take an empty pot but his mother said he must be honest about what happened.
Ling felt sick to his stomach, but he knew his mother was right.
He took his empty pot to the palace.
When Ling arrived, he was amazed at the variety of plants grown by the other youths. They were beautiful -- in all shape and sizes.
Ling put his empty pot on the floor and many of the other kids laughed at him.
A few felt sorry for him and just said, "Hey nice try."
When the emperor arrived, he surveyed the room and greeted the young people.
Ling just tried to hide in the back.
"My, what great plants, trees and flowers you have grown," said the emperor. "Today, one of you will be appointed the next emperor!"
All of the sudden, the emperor spotted Ling at the back of the room with his empty pot. He ordered his guards to bring him to the front.
Ling was terrified.
"The emperor knows I'm a failure! Maybe he will have me killed!"
When Ling got to the front, the emperor asked his name.
"My name is Ling," he replied.
All kids were laughing and making fun of him.
The emperor asked everyone to quiet down.
He looked at Ling, and then announced to the crowd, "Behold your new emperor! His name is Ling!"
Ling couldn't believe it. Ling couldn't even grow his seed. How could he be the new emperor?
Then the emperor said, "One year ago today, I gave everyone here a seed. I told you to take the seed, plant it, water it, and bring it back to me today. But I gave you all boiled seeds, which would not grow. All of you, except Ling, have brought me trees and plants and flowers. When you found that the seed would not grow, you substituted another seed for the one I gave you. Ling was the only one with the courage and honesty to bring me a pot with my seed in it. Therefore, he is the one who will be the new emperor!"
If you plant honesty, you will reap trust.
If you plant goodness, you will reap friends.
If you plant humility, you will reap greatness.
If you plant perseverance, you will reap victory.
If you plant consideration, you will reap harmony.
If you plant hard work, you will reap success.
If you plant forgiveness, you will reap intimacy.
If you plant patience, you will reap inner strength.
If you plant faith, you will reap miracles.
But if you plant dishonesty, you will reap distrust.
If you plant selfishness, you will reap loneliness.
If you plant pride, you will reap destruction.
If you plant envy, you will reap trouble.
If you plant laziness, you will reap stagnation.
If you plant bitterness, you will reap isolation.
If you plant greed, you will reap loss.
If you plant gossip, you will reap enemies.
If you plant worries, you will reap wrinkles.
If you plant sin, you will reap guilt.
So be careful what you plant now, it will determine what you will reap tomorrow.
Friday, December 23, 2005
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
| You Have a Choleric Temperament |
 You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior. |
You are a Carnation:
You are friendly, energetic, cheerful, and bubbly.
You love being around people. Outgoing and
talkative, you rarely meet a stranger. Others
feel at ease around you because of your playful
nature.
Symbolism: In Victorian times carnations were given
to show fascination with another. They also
symbolize friendship and whimsicalness.
Which Flower are You?
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Tuesday, December 6, 2005
This touched me. at the end of it, we're ask to forward it, but I think sharing it on my blog would be good as well. This makes us realise that life can be so precious and we should live it without regrets
BITTER & SWEET OF LIFE
There was once a guy who suffered from cancer... a cancer that can't be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once.
So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat.
She looked up and asked "Can I help you?" She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.
He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.
"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.
He nodded and she went to the back.
She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.
So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...
!!!RRRRRING!!!
The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"
It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't know? He passed away yesterday..."
The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.
Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it.
It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn
The mother opened another CD...
Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn
Love is... when you've had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold hands and say, "I Love You"
BITTER & SWEET OF LIFE
There was once a guy who suffered from cancer... a cancer that can't be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once.
So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat.
She looked up and asked "Can I help you?" She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.
He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.
"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.
He nodded and she went to the back.
She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.
So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...
!!!RRRRRING!!!
The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"
It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't know? He passed away yesterday..."
The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.
Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it.
It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn
The mother opened another CD...
Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn
Love is... when you've had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold hands and say, "I Love You"
Monday, December 5, 2005
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Haha, don't think this is very right, prob a lil
| Your Birthdate: September 21 |
 You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature. Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas. People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life. You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone. Your strength: Your thirst for adventure Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures Your power color: Hot pink Your power symbol: Figure eight Your power month: March |
I noe some of us read this many times, but to tell the truth, it never failed to touched my heart and make me see its point. God is simply just that amazing...
BEAUTIFUL STORY OF DREAMS
Do not miss any line from this...............
Sometimes we get what we need and not what we want..........
Once there were 3 trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the 1st tree said, "Someday, I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems and be decorated with intricate carvings. Everyone would see my beauty."
The 2nd tree said, "Someday, I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of other world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."
Finally, the 3rd tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time, and people will always remember me."
After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. One came to the 1st tree and said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.
At the 2nd tree, one of the other woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The 2nd tree was happy, because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.
When the woodsmen came upon the 3rd tree, the tree was frightened, because it knew that, if it cuts down, its dream would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, so I'll take this one," and he cut it down.
When the 1st tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into a feed box for animals, placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.
The 2nd tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The 3rd tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.
The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then one filtered day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth, and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.
Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose, and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace," and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.
Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets, and the crowd mocked the man who was carrying it. Finally, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.
The moral of this story is that, when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.
We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best Keep it moving...pass it on, so it could inspire more people. Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can't.
GOD BLESS . . . . .
BEAUTIFUL STORY OF DREAMS
Do not miss any line from this...............
Sometimes we get what we need and not what we want..........
Once there were 3 trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the 1st tree said, "Someday, I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems and be decorated with intricate carvings. Everyone would see my beauty."
The 2nd tree said, "Someday, I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of other world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."
Finally, the 3rd tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time, and people will always remember me."
After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. One came to the 1st tree and said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.
At the 2nd tree, one of the other woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The 2nd tree was happy, because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.
When the woodsmen came upon the 3rd tree, the tree was frightened, because it knew that, if it cuts down, its dream would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, so I'll take this one," and he cut it down.
When the 1st tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into a feed box for animals, placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.
The 2nd tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The 3rd tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.
The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams. Then one filtered day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth, and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.
Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose, and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace," and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.
Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets, and the crowd mocked the man who was carrying it. Finally, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.
The moral of this story is that, when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined.
We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best Keep it moving...pass it on, so it could inspire more people. Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can't.
GOD BLESS . . . . .
Thursday, December 1, 2005
Never have I been so upset with any service company. Last night, I've tried connecting to my Broadband service and found that I can't access it. Thinking it might be related to my password, I called them up and enquire on the matter. Of all the things, they said that my account has been suspended due to non-payment! I was so appalled, for I've definitely made a payment back in October 2005. Furthermore, the recent bill that they've sent me indicated that I need only pay by 7 December 2005. Yet, my account was suspended. The lady actually asked me to call them again and select a different dept - billing dept. I asked, "Can't you transfer me over?".. her answer was, we do not have the system to do a call transfer! I went like huh??? What the heck, being one of the main telco in Malaysia, you do not have a simple system called call transfer. I said, fine, I'll call again.
Having connected to a guy - I spoke to him, asking him what has happened to my account. He informed me that they will suspend the account 36 days from the last payment. New system. I said" then y the heck do you state that I can pay by 7 December 2005 in the bill? Don't you think this is ridiculous then? Why weren;t the customers informed? " He apologised and said that they can't do anything, for this is how the system works. He actually have the gall to tell me that he got reports and calls like this previously as well. I told him point blank' "shouldn't ur company then review ur process and strive to serve your customers better???" Being severely upset, I grilled him to no end. He had the gall to tell me to call him back again, I told him, no, you hold on the line. We will settle this once and for all. I had to connect to the dial up connection, go through some hassle of locating my bill online once again, connect to the online banking service to make payment to them.
Not only that, I had to asked him what has happened to the RM50 which they are supposed to rebate it back to me. He again told me, new system, need to go online and request for ther rebate. Totally stunning, because a few months back, I encounter similar situations. I have tried calling them numerous times, and time and again i was asked to leave a voice message and they will call me back. NO ONE CALLED ME BACK. After numerous attempts, I managed to get through and informed them that I was wrongly charged RM50 for the installation when I installed the service myself. The lady who attended to me informed me that I gotta email in!!! No, they cannot log case or etc and escalate it. Appalled, I emailed them my dissatisfaction with the service provided and a guy called me back. He informed that I will be getting my rebate in a few months time.
This new guy kept on asking me to go online to request for the rebate. After a while, I finally dig up the truth. Old system takes about 3 months to process the rebate, and mine should be accorded to me by next month. Even then, he still wants me to go online. I told him "Look here, I do not want to go through such hassle anymore. If it is accorded to me and I should be getting it by next month, then fine. I'll wait another month."
Back to the 36 days automatic suspension. Was thinking through the conversation and found a loophole in their advise to customers. I paid on 28 October 2005. They suspended my line on 30 November 2005. Hello!!! WHERE'S THE EXTRA DAYS COMING FROM????? It's not even 36 days! I tell u, this is the 2nd time they've pissed me off. Too bad, this is the only company that provide broadband service in my area, they i'll be long gone.
Seriously, if they dare to charge me for reactivation, they are so gona get a call from me again. I don't hold it against the guy who served me, I know he tried his best, but I think the company better buck up. It may be that there's not much competition at the moment, but I tell you, customers will definitely leave the moment there's another broadband svc provider that rises from below. I know, this is my field as well...
Having connected to a guy - I spoke to him, asking him what has happened to my account. He informed me that they will suspend the account 36 days from the last payment. New system. I said" then y the heck do you state that I can pay by 7 December 2005 in the bill? Don't you think this is ridiculous then? Why weren;t the customers informed? " He apologised and said that they can't do anything, for this is how the system works. He actually have the gall to tell me that he got reports and calls like this previously as well. I told him point blank' "shouldn't ur company then review ur process and strive to serve your customers better???" Being severely upset, I grilled him to no end. He had the gall to tell me to call him back again, I told him, no, you hold on the line. We will settle this once and for all. I had to connect to the dial up connection, go through some hassle of locating my bill online once again, connect to the online banking service to make payment to them.
Not only that, I had to asked him what has happened to the RM50 which they are supposed to rebate it back to me. He again told me, new system, need to go online and request for ther rebate. Totally stunning, because a few months back, I encounter similar situations. I have tried calling them numerous times, and time and again i was asked to leave a voice message and they will call me back. NO ONE CALLED ME BACK. After numerous attempts, I managed to get through and informed them that I was wrongly charged RM50 for the installation when I installed the service myself. The lady who attended to me informed me that I gotta email in!!! No, they cannot log case or etc and escalate it. Appalled, I emailed them my dissatisfaction with the service provided and a guy called me back. He informed that I will be getting my rebate in a few months time.
This new guy kept on asking me to go online to request for the rebate. After a while, I finally dig up the truth. Old system takes about 3 months to process the rebate, and mine should be accorded to me by next month. Even then, he still wants me to go online. I told him "Look here, I do not want to go through such hassle anymore. If it is accorded to me and I should be getting it by next month, then fine. I'll wait another month."
Back to the 36 days automatic suspension. Was thinking through the conversation and found a loophole in their advise to customers. I paid on 28 October 2005. They suspended my line on 30 November 2005. Hello!!! WHERE'S THE EXTRA DAYS COMING FROM????? It's not even 36 days! I tell u, this is the 2nd time they've pissed me off. Too bad, this is the only company that provide broadband service in my area, they i'll be long gone.
Seriously, if they dare to charge me for reactivation, they are so gona get a call from me again. I don't hold it against the guy who served me, I know he tried his best, but I think the company better buck up. It may be that there's not much competition at the moment, but I tell you, customers will definitely leave the moment there's another broadband svc provider that rises from below. I know, this is my field as well...
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
It's about time for me to update my blog once again. There's just been too many things happening around my life right now that I find it hard to even have time to unwind and relax.
Last Saturday, on my journey to pick up my friend in DJ, a car reverse into mine. I was actually going straight, but somehow or rather, the driver of the other car did not see me and banged into me. The area above the left rear tire dented badly, with scratches and etc. Being stunned, I got off the car and stared on the area banged. The other party turned out to be a 19 year old kid who was so scared and worried that he apologised non stop to me throughout our conversation. At one point, as I was conversing on the phone with my brother on what I should do, he squated, hiding his face in the nooks of his arms. His girlfriend was calling his name but he never answered. At the end of the day, I ended up having to console this poor boy, telling him we'll come up with some arrangement for him to pay me.
Sent my car to fixed on Monday, thankfully, it only costs RM180. The car's looking good now. Thank God it was a minor one. Called the boy on Monday night itself informing him of the costs and we've agreed on installation payment.
It seems that on the same day, a friend of mine also got into an accident. He actually banged a Mercedes Benz, needing to pay a sum of RM1800. Sigh, thankfully other friends were around to assist him on it. THere's a lesson for him to learn from it, but I shall not touch on this matter.
Back to after my accident/incident. Thankfully, the accident did not destroy my mood for the day. I went to watch Snow.Wolf.Lake that night, and it was amazing. I never knew such musical can be so so good! For those who have negative impressions on chinese musical, you may want to change ur thots after watching it. The music, the lighting, all the actors and actresses, they are just that good. Props and all was grand! I never have so much fun sitting down watching a musical as I did that night. It was well worth the sum that I've paid. My friend and I was even wishing that we pay more to sit nearer to watch. Plain good.. Was pleasantly surprised to see YC and YY there as well! Haha, I sat a few rows behind them, and as they were standing up, allowing ppl to pass to their respective seats, I somehow recognised them from their backs. Having decided to see if it's them, I called YC! Haha, he was equally surprised to see me there. Funny part was he was twisting left and right trying to locate me... haha... it was good seeing them.
Went on a shopping spree yesterday. For the first time in my life, I started my Christmas shopping already! Haha... man, there's just too many things that I want to get for the people around me. In less than a month, it'll be Christmas. It will then mark my two years back in Malaysia. How quickly time passes....
Last Saturday, on my journey to pick up my friend in DJ, a car reverse into mine. I was actually going straight, but somehow or rather, the driver of the other car did not see me and banged into me. The area above the left rear tire dented badly, with scratches and etc. Being stunned, I got off the car and stared on the area banged. The other party turned out to be a 19 year old kid who was so scared and worried that he apologised non stop to me throughout our conversation. At one point, as I was conversing on the phone with my brother on what I should do, he squated, hiding his face in the nooks of his arms. His girlfriend was calling his name but he never answered. At the end of the day, I ended up having to console this poor boy, telling him we'll come up with some arrangement for him to pay me.
Sent my car to fixed on Monday, thankfully, it only costs RM180. The car's looking good now. Thank God it was a minor one. Called the boy on Monday night itself informing him of the costs and we've agreed on installation payment.
It seems that on the same day, a friend of mine also got into an accident. He actually banged a Mercedes Benz, needing to pay a sum of RM1800. Sigh, thankfully other friends were around to assist him on it. THere's a lesson for him to learn from it, but I shall not touch on this matter.
Back to after my accident/incident. Thankfully, the accident did not destroy my mood for the day. I went to watch Snow.Wolf.Lake that night, and it was amazing. I never knew such musical can be so so good! For those who have negative impressions on chinese musical, you may want to change ur thots after watching it. The music, the lighting, all the actors and actresses, they are just that good. Props and all was grand! I never have so much fun sitting down watching a musical as I did that night. It was well worth the sum that I've paid. My friend and I was even wishing that we pay more to sit nearer to watch. Plain good.. Was pleasantly surprised to see YC and YY there as well! Haha, I sat a few rows behind them, and as they were standing up, allowing ppl to pass to their respective seats, I somehow recognised them from their backs. Having decided to see if it's them, I called YC! Haha, he was equally surprised to see me there. Funny part was he was twisting left and right trying to locate me... haha... it was good seeing them.
Went on a shopping spree yesterday. For the first time in my life, I started my Christmas shopping already! Haha... man, there's just too many things that I want to get for the people around me. In less than a month, it'll be Christmas. It will then mark my two years back in Malaysia. How quickly time passes....
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Dead tired
Seriously have no idea what I've been up to. Been attending this new system's training for two days and I get to go home early. But nonetheless, I'm tired. Tmw it'll be work and work and work again. I heard from my colleague that there's like 5 ppl down today.. Goodness, that's rili bad, considering that there's like less 15 of us working in that department (not counting our supervisors and assistant managers and all). 15 persons to handles queries from all over Malaysia, that's quite crazy seriously.
Christmas is just around the corner. Time really does fly fast huh... another is gone just like that. Is there anything I've accomplished? I can't say I have tho...
Think I'm heading to bed soon.. gosh, it's not even 11 now, and I'm calling out that I'm heading to bed.. wat a totally different thing..
Seriously have no idea what I've been up to. Been attending this new system's training for two days and I get to go home early. But nonetheless, I'm tired. Tmw it'll be work and work and work again. I heard from my colleague that there's like 5 ppl down today.. Goodness, that's rili bad, considering that there's like less 15 of us working in that department (not counting our supervisors and assistant managers and all). 15 persons to handles queries from all over Malaysia, that's quite crazy seriously.
Christmas is just around the corner. Time really does fly fast huh... another is gone just like that. Is there anything I've accomplished? I can't say I have tho...
Think I'm heading to bed soon.. gosh, it's not even 11 now, and I'm calling out that I'm heading to bed.. wat a totally different thing..
Monday, November 21, 2005
I AM :: sue/sue sue/sue anne
I WANT :: notebook, IPOD, etc (sigh, i noe, materialistic these days)
I HAVE :: a good family
I WISH :: to be closer to God
I HATE :: myself at times
I MISS :: Australia, especially the ppl
I FEAR :: God
I HEAR :: ppl talking (i'm in training lorr)
I WONDER :: about life
I REGRET :: too many atimes to name them
I LOVE :: God, family and friends
I ACHE :: well, my heart does when I'm sad
I ALWAYS :: do a lot of crazy stuff
I AM NOT :: pretty, just ordinary
I SING :: for God from my heart
I WRITE :: from my heart
I CONFUSE :: ppl sometimes
I NEED :: to learn to love God more and walk His way
I SHOULD :: not be so stubborn n logical at times
YES OR NO
You keep a diary :: yes
You have a secret journal :: i guess
You set your watch a few minutes faster? :: no, only the clock in my car
You bite your fingernails :: no!
You believe in love :: of coz, for God is love
PEOPLE
The weirdest person you know :: well, i'm weird
The Loudest Person you Know :: i'm loud as well!
The Person that Knows the Most AboutYou :: mel
Your Crush? :: ?? dun have wor
Most Boring Teacher :: been out of school for too long, cant remember the names, or whether they're boring anot (i cant even remember what i did two days ago!)
Your most overused phrase on I'M :: sleepy
Have a(any) crush(es) :: used to
Think you know you've been in love :: er????
Want to get married :: yea, if it's in God's plan
Have any tattoos/where? nope
Piercings/where? :: ear
Get motion sickness :: don't think so
Think you're a health freak :: no way man
Get along with your parents :: we do ok
Like thunderstorms :: er... oklar.. like it when i'm at home... cool air to sleep! haha
WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF?
Ryan :: loo loo
Rob :: rob thomas
Drew :: drew barrymore
Heather :: heather locklear (no idea who man, but the name pops up)
Will :: will young
Paul :: paul johannsen
Ben :: benji
Josh :: joshua
Lauren :: lauren hill
RANDOM.......
NATURAL HAIR COLOR :: black
CURRENT HAIR COLOR :: highlighted .. rusty colored now (used to be red)
EYE COLOR :: brown
PARENTS :: love them
SIBLINGS :: one brother
LIVE WITH :: my aunt
FAVORITE........
NUMBER :: no fav
COLORs :: anything that suits my mood
DAY :: friday
MONTH :: september, december
SONG :: too many
FOOD :: things that i eat (i'm picky, i noe)
SEASON :: spring and autumn
SPORT :: ice skating, taekwondo
DRINK :: err... depending on the weather
PREFERENCES.....
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?# cuddle i guess
CHOCOLATE MILK OR HOT CHOCOLATE?# hot cocoa
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?# dark chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE?# chocolate
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS...
CRIED? :: nope
HELPED SOMEONE? :: err, don't think so
GOTTEN SICK? :: nope
GONE TO THE MOVIES? :: nope
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? takeaway counts?
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? :: nope
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? :: nope
MISSED AN EX? :: no ex ler
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? :: nope
MISSED SOMEONE? :: no
HUGGED SOMEONE? :: yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? :: nope
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? :: nope
I WANT :: notebook, IPOD, etc (sigh, i noe, materialistic these days)
I HAVE :: a good family
I WISH :: to be closer to God
I HATE :: myself at times
I MISS :: Australia, especially the ppl
I FEAR :: God
I HEAR :: ppl talking (i'm in training lorr)
I WONDER :: about life
I REGRET :: too many atimes to name them
I LOVE :: God, family and friends
I ACHE :: well, my heart does when I'm sad
I ALWAYS :: do a lot of crazy stuff
I AM NOT :: pretty, just ordinary
I SING :: for God from my heart
I WRITE :: from my heart
I CONFUSE :: ppl sometimes
I NEED :: to learn to love God more and walk His way
I SHOULD :: not be so stubborn n logical at times
YES OR NO
You keep a diary :: yes
You have a secret journal :: i guess
You set your watch a few minutes faster? :: no, only the clock in my car
You bite your fingernails :: no!
You believe in love :: of coz, for God is love
PEOPLE
The weirdest person you know :: well, i'm weird
The Loudest Person you Know :: i'm loud as well!
The Person that Knows the Most AboutYou :: mel
Your Crush? :: ?? dun have wor
Most Boring Teacher :: been out of school for too long, cant remember the names, or whether they're boring anot (i cant even remember what i did two days ago!)
Your most overused phrase on I'M :: sleepy
Have a(any) crush(es) :: used to
Think you know you've been in love :: er????
Want to get married :: yea, if it's in God's plan
Have any tattoos/where? nope
Piercings/where? :: ear
Get motion sickness :: don't think so
Think you're a health freak :: no way man
Get along with your parents :: we do ok
Like thunderstorms :: er... oklar.. like it when i'm at home... cool air to sleep! haha
WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF?
Ryan :: loo loo
Rob :: rob thomas
Drew :: drew barrymore
Heather :: heather locklear (no idea who man, but the name pops up)
Will :: will young
Paul :: paul johannsen
Ben :: benji
Josh :: joshua
Lauren :: lauren hill
RANDOM.......
NATURAL HAIR COLOR :: black
CURRENT HAIR COLOR :: highlighted .. rusty colored now (used to be red)
EYE COLOR :: brown
PARENTS :: love them
SIBLINGS :: one brother
LIVE WITH :: my aunt
FAVORITE........
NUMBER :: no fav
COLORs :: anything that suits my mood
DAY :: friday
MONTH :: september, december
SONG :: too many
FOOD :: things that i eat (i'm picky, i noe)
SEASON :: spring and autumn
SPORT :: ice skating, taekwondo
DRINK :: err... depending on the weather
PREFERENCES.....
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?# cuddle i guess
CHOCOLATE MILK OR HOT CHOCOLATE?# hot cocoa
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?# dark chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE?# chocolate
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS...
CRIED? :: nope
HELPED SOMEONE? :: err, don't think so
GOTTEN SICK? :: nope
GONE TO THE MOVIES? :: nope
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? takeaway counts?
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? :: nope
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? :: nope
MISSED AN EX? :: no ex ler
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? :: nope
MISSED SOMEONE? :: no
HUGGED SOMEONE? :: yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? :: nope
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? :: nope
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Do Not Grieve
"We do not want you to...grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope." 1 Thessalonians 4:13
We're not always sure what hope looks like. No hope, however, is easy to spot. Immigrant youth in France see no hope in the future, so they lash out in violence, torching cars and burning buildings. American families, who have maxed out their credit cards and can't figure a way out from under the debt, often have as sense of hopelessness. In instances like these having no hope of a future causes grief to set in.
It doesn't have to be like that. Just when there seems to be no way out, Jesus says, "I am the way" (John 14:6). Just when death seems to have a victory, Christ shows us his empty tomb. Just when your world seems to get worse and worse, Jesus says, "I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am" (John 14:3).Having hope in Jesus shows itself in the most difficult situations. Parents who lost their two-month-old child still battle extended bouts of crying, but they have the peace of knowing she now with Jesus in heaven. A cancer patient struggling for his last breath passes peacefully into death, because he knows death is not the end. Grandchildren sing joyously through sobs, "I know that my Redeemer lives," because they know Grandma knew her Savior Jesus.Knowing Jesus is having hope - for he is our future!
Dear Jesus, give us hope that only you can give: because you conquered death and guarantee a glorious resurrection to all who believe in you, life is not hopeless and death is not final. Amen.
"We do not want you to...grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope." 1 Thessalonians 4:13
We're not always sure what hope looks like. No hope, however, is easy to spot. Immigrant youth in France see no hope in the future, so they lash out in violence, torching cars and burning buildings. American families, who have maxed out their credit cards and can't figure a way out from under the debt, often have as sense of hopelessness. In instances like these having no hope of a future causes grief to set in.
It doesn't have to be like that. Just when there seems to be no way out, Jesus says, "I am the way" (John 14:6). Just when death seems to have a victory, Christ shows us his empty tomb. Just when your world seems to get worse and worse, Jesus says, "I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am" (John 14:3).Having hope in Jesus shows itself in the most difficult situations. Parents who lost their two-month-old child still battle extended bouts of crying, but they have the peace of knowing she now with Jesus in heaven. A cancer patient struggling for his last breath passes peacefully into death, because he knows death is not the end. Grandchildren sing joyously through sobs, "I know that my Redeemer lives," because they know Grandma knew her Savior Jesus.Knowing Jesus is having hope - for he is our future!
Dear Jesus, give us hope that only you can give: because you conquered death and guarantee a glorious resurrection to all who believe in you, life is not hopeless and death is not final. Amen.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Wanted to update my blog with heaps and heaps of things for weeks now, but find that everytime I sit down in front of my notebook, my mind goes blank. What a typical thing for me to do!!
Ok, let's see what has been happening to me
1. Had food poisoning again.. this time round I think it's much worse, given the fact that it happened last Saturday and I was having tummy ache till like two days ago. Besides, my tummy seems to have lots of air in it and it make lots of noise after I eat everytime.
2. Last week was long holiday, with hari raya happening from Wednesday onwards. Let's see, what did I do.
a. hanged out with G from Singapore and E from Hong Kong. They came up for fun. It was a first for E and.. duno how many times for G. it was fun. Got to hang out with a different group of friends from GIppy time.
b. stayed at home for a couple of days during the break, just lazing around and doing nothing. It was good, get to wind down and all. But after that I got too bored, hence the hanging around and calling friends were happening during that time.
c. did not go back to my parents' place during the weekend. Mom and dad weren't too happy about it, but it was due to the fact that friends from overseas are here. So they're still quite ok with it. Did not tell them about the food poisoning, don't want them to worry about it unnecessarily, and also that I don't want them to nag at me for eating out so often.
hm, that pretty much sums up the week. pretty lame week, some might think. But it's ok with me lo.. main thing is that I get to unwind!
Ok, wat about this week. Let's see.. was off on Monday, coz was still puking my guts out. Gotten MC .... gave my supervisor a scare because the Wednesday before I was having diarrhoea (don't ask me why I'm so prone to food poisoning or diarrhoea, I have no idea!!). She must've thought that I was taking fake MC. But for the fact that I am really sick and all, I can't be bothered to explain everything
As usual, working for the rest of the week non stop. Heaps of things to follow up and clear. Oh ya, highlight of the week... i WENT TO THE PLANETSHAKERS CONCERT!!! To tell the truth, I do not know any of the songs that they sang last nite, i.e Thursday, 10 November 2005, but it was still awesome man. This is the first time I went to their concert, did not go last year. THe music is loud, louder than the usual ones that I listen to, but it wasn't really the music that captivated me, it was the lyrics in the song. Just awesome lo. Not only that, I love wat was shared by Ps Russell Evans. Many of us are living in a religious box. But Christianity is not about being religious, it's not a religious, it's a relationship with the Living God!!!! I have to admit that sometimes I fall back into that category and sometimes it's hard to climb back right up... but you know what, as long as we take that step of faith, choose the box breaker (JESUS), we are out of it man. I totally agree with what was shared! Seriously...
Not only that, I saw YF! I never expected to see her there!! Seriously... and it was so funny coz she was just sitting a row in front of me! Man, God must've planned it. I didn't expect to see any of my friends there, given the fact that there's thousands of ppl there (I think)... The minute I walked up to her and call her, she almost wanted to scream! haha.. but she managed to withheld it. But afterwards, we were both so joyous that we kept hugging each other and screaming.. so excited, like two little kids!! haha.. I think ppl around us must be wondering what's going on with the two of us.. she was with her cell group as well.. her young'uns... kekek... she called them her babies.. man, suddenly I felt so old! haha, I think they're just like beginning of high school man. But it was cool. Can't remember all their names, but I remember saying this when I was leaving.. "Bye Kids!!" man.. it came out so automatically.. hahahah
Tonight is the final nite, but I wont be going to the concert, because it's my dad's birthday. There's family dinner tonite, but it's cool, I am glad that I went last night.
Man, there's heaps that I've written. Think that's all for now ya. Time to call it off. Got some stuff to do dee.
Ok, let's see what has been happening to me
1. Had food poisoning again.. this time round I think it's much worse, given the fact that it happened last Saturday and I was having tummy ache till like two days ago. Besides, my tummy seems to have lots of air in it and it make lots of noise after I eat everytime.
2. Last week was long holiday, with hari raya happening from Wednesday onwards. Let's see, what did I do.
a. hanged out with G from Singapore and E from Hong Kong. They came up for fun. It was a first for E and.. duno how many times for G. it was fun. Got to hang out with a different group of friends from GIppy time.
b. stayed at home for a couple of days during the break, just lazing around and doing nothing. It was good, get to wind down and all. But after that I got too bored, hence the hanging around and calling friends were happening during that time.
c. did not go back to my parents' place during the weekend. Mom and dad weren't too happy about it, but it was due to the fact that friends from overseas are here. So they're still quite ok with it. Did not tell them about the food poisoning, don't want them to worry about it unnecessarily, and also that I don't want them to nag at me for eating out so often.
hm, that pretty much sums up the week. pretty lame week, some might think. But it's ok with me lo.. main thing is that I get to unwind!
Ok, wat about this week. Let's see.. was off on Monday, coz was still puking my guts out. Gotten MC .... gave my supervisor a scare because the Wednesday before I was having diarrhoea (don't ask me why I'm so prone to food poisoning or diarrhoea, I have no idea!!). She must've thought that I was taking fake MC. But for the fact that I am really sick and all, I can't be bothered to explain everything
As usual, working for the rest of the week non stop. Heaps of things to follow up and clear. Oh ya, highlight of the week... i WENT TO THE PLANETSHAKERS CONCERT!!! To tell the truth, I do not know any of the songs that they sang last nite, i.e Thursday, 10 November 2005, but it was still awesome man. This is the first time I went to their concert, did not go last year. THe music is loud, louder than the usual ones that I listen to, but it wasn't really the music that captivated me, it was the lyrics in the song. Just awesome lo. Not only that, I love wat was shared by Ps Russell Evans. Many of us are living in a religious box. But Christianity is not about being religious, it's not a religious, it's a relationship with the Living God!!!! I have to admit that sometimes I fall back into that category and sometimes it's hard to climb back right up... but you know what, as long as we take that step of faith, choose the box breaker (JESUS), we are out of it man. I totally agree with what was shared! Seriously...
Not only that, I saw YF! I never expected to see her there!! Seriously... and it was so funny coz she was just sitting a row in front of me! Man, God must've planned it. I didn't expect to see any of my friends there, given the fact that there's thousands of ppl there (I think)... The minute I walked up to her and call her, she almost wanted to scream! haha.. but she managed to withheld it. But afterwards, we were both so joyous that we kept hugging each other and screaming.. so excited, like two little kids!! haha.. I think ppl around us must be wondering what's going on with the two of us.. she was with her cell group as well.. her young'uns... kekek... she called them her babies.. man, suddenly I felt so old! haha, I think they're just like beginning of high school man. But it was cool. Can't remember all their names, but I remember saying this when I was leaving.. "Bye Kids!!" man.. it came out so automatically.. hahahah
Tonight is the final nite, but I wont be going to the concert, because it's my dad's birthday. There's family dinner tonite, but it's cool, I am glad that I went last night.
Man, there's heaps that I've written. Think that's all for now ya. Time to call it off. Got some stuff to do dee.
Sunday, November 6, 2005
Holiday ended
Wat a way to end the week of holiday. Suspiscious of some kind of food that I've taken, tummy ain't feeling all too well. Sensing the symptoms of food poisoning (tummy ache to the extent of cramp, the need to go toilet). But thankfully, am feeling better now. Took some of my previous medication.
Realised that I have been having quite a few incidents of food poisoning since I came back from Australia. Weird, but then again, my tummy have not been quite agreeable through out my life.
Tomorrow is back to work again. Wondered if things will be as hectic or not. Know that today, the road would be jam again. Gotta wake up earlier tomorrow morning if I wana survive the jam... sigh... think of it makes me tired...
But then again, thinking of the past few days has been enjoyable. Friends from singapore and hong kong came over for a visit! Went to places that I seldom go, tried some good food, met up with some friends that have not met for quite a while.. things were good.
Wat a way to end the week of holiday. Suspiscious of some kind of food that I've taken, tummy ain't feeling all too well. Sensing the symptoms of food poisoning (tummy ache to the extent of cramp, the need to go toilet). But thankfully, am feeling better now. Took some of my previous medication.
Realised that I have been having quite a few incidents of food poisoning since I came back from Australia. Weird, but then again, my tummy have not been quite agreeable through out my life.
Tomorrow is back to work again. Wondered if things will be as hectic or not. Know that today, the road would be jam again. Gotta wake up earlier tomorrow morning if I wana survive the jam... sigh... think of it makes me tired...
But then again, thinking of the past few days has been enjoyable. Friends from singapore and hong kong came over for a visit! Went to places that I seldom go, tried some good food, met up with some friends that have not met for quite a while.. things were good.
Friday, October 28, 2005
Thank God it's Friday!
Been working hard, trying to do as much as I could, to do up my work and all. Praise the Lord, things has been going ok. There's heaps of cases that seems to be so tough and all, but my supervisor has been very helpful. Am thankful that she's around to help me.
Tomorrow's Saturday... Guy Sebastian and his church's worship team is gracing Malaysia.. I'll be going to the evening service and concert at FGA KL. Hope it'll be cool. Hm... btw, I'm going not because of Him ler.. I just want to go to the concert. The next one would be Planetshakers in November... sounds cool man.. can't wait for a chance to sing worship songs and praise the Lord with other Christians around Klang Valley!!! woo HOOO
Hm... find that time does pass us by very fast. It's been almost two years since I'm working and there's not much changes happening in my life. WEird, to think that you're getting older by the year, and not feeling the time passing you by.
Been working hard, trying to do as much as I could, to do up my work and all. Praise the Lord, things has been going ok. There's heaps of cases that seems to be so tough and all, but my supervisor has been very helpful. Am thankful that she's around to help me.
Tomorrow's Saturday... Guy Sebastian and his church's worship team is gracing Malaysia.. I'll be going to the evening service and concert at FGA KL. Hope it'll be cool. Hm... btw, I'm going not because of Him ler.. I just want to go to the concert. The next one would be Planetshakers in November... sounds cool man.. can't wait for a chance to sing worship songs and praise the Lord with other Christians around Klang Valley!!! woo HOOO
Hm... find that time does pass us by very fast. It's been almost two years since I'm working and there's not much changes happening in my life. WEird, to think that you're getting older by the year, and not feeling the time passing you by.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Maybe it's just myself. Or maybe it's something else. Work ain't becoming easy at all. Sometimes find that things are so tough to overcome at work. Work is like slaving at the moment. This is not good, I do know it. Work is not sustained through prayer. Everyday, pray for God's strength and peace when I go to work.
In honesty, I am grateful to have a job that provides for me financially. But maybe... this is not all that there is in life. I don't want to just work for money, but I want to feel passionate about what I'm doing.
Lord, I'm going leave this into Your hands. Let me know if this is where You want me to be at the moment. Grant me peace at heart if it is so. If not, Lord, I pray that You'll open the doors for me to move on.
In honesty, I am grateful to have a job that provides for me financially. But maybe... this is not all that there is in life. I don't want to just work for money, but I want to feel passionate about what I'm doing.
Lord, I'm going leave this into Your hands. Let me know if this is where You want me to be at the moment. Grant me peace at heart if it is so. If not, Lord, I pray that You'll open the doors for me to move on.
Wednesday, October 5, 2005
Yet to really start work although it's already past 1030am. Am so tired, I think partly due to my lack of sleep last night. For some strange reasons, I haven't been able to sleep much for the past few days, since Monday to be exact. Have no idea why, but I do know that I needed the rest. Have been trying to sleep at around 11 plus, but doesn't seem to work, coz I am such a late sleeper! What a bad habit, sigh.. gotta change but.. hard man. haha, oh well... will try nonetheless...
Job seems to be getting suckier. Sigh, shitty things happening in the office and all. Always getting bad news. Although I like to help people, but this is not giving me the kick, but rather, I feel that I'm always stressed out due to the things I have to handle. Contemplating on changing my job, and have been looking around a little. But then again, it boils down to these few questions.
1. Is it time to move on (a question I ask God)?
2. Where does he want me to move on to?
3. What kind of job should I be looking for?
Sigh, hard to answer these questions.
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Why are some people the way they are? Am so upset with a friend's (let's call her A) boyfriend (he's B).. found that from another girlfriend (she'll b C) of mine that he is actually seeing another girl behind A. A doesn't know it and thinks that things are alright between the two of them. Sigh, I really don't know what to do. Is it wrong to confront her? Was talking to a friend about gossips and my view on it... didn't realise that it would hit so close to home. Not the gossip part, but my view on the matter. If you know something for a fact, then it's alright to tell someone (not everyone, mind you) of the truth. If you think that a lie is spreading, we should step up and confront and find out the truth.
In this matter, it's confirmed that he's seeing another girl, coz C's boyfriend saw him face to face during the daytime holding another girl's hand. C's boyfriend met B once before, hence I do not doubt the truth from both of them. C and I are so worried for A. We came to a conclusion to let her know of this, because we don't want her to get hurt in the end. It is probably for the best, because we suspect this is not the first time it has happened, but just that he was not caught before. It may seem like we're picking on him... but I just don't want to see A hurt so badly again. Sigh... sometimes do find that ppl can be plain cruel
Job seems to be getting suckier. Sigh, shitty things happening in the office and all. Always getting bad news. Although I like to help people, but this is not giving me the kick, but rather, I feel that I'm always stressed out due to the things I have to handle. Contemplating on changing my job, and have been looking around a little. But then again, it boils down to these few questions.
1. Is it time to move on (a question I ask God)?
2. Where does he want me to move on to?
3. What kind of job should I be looking for?
Sigh, hard to answer these questions.
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Why are some people the way they are? Am so upset with a friend's (let's call her A) boyfriend (he's B).. found that from another girlfriend (she'll b C) of mine that he is actually seeing another girl behind A. A doesn't know it and thinks that things are alright between the two of them. Sigh, I really don't know what to do. Is it wrong to confront her? Was talking to a friend about gossips and my view on it... didn't realise that it would hit so close to home. Not the gossip part, but my view on the matter. If you know something for a fact, then it's alright to tell someone (not everyone, mind you) of the truth. If you think that a lie is spreading, we should step up and confront and find out the truth.
In this matter, it's confirmed that he's seeing another girl, coz C's boyfriend saw him face to face during the daytime holding another girl's hand. C's boyfriend met B once before, hence I do not doubt the truth from both of them. C and I are so worried for A. We came to a conclusion to let her know of this, because we don't want her to get hurt in the end. It is probably for the best, because we suspect this is not the first time it has happened, but just that he was not caught before. It may seem like we're picking on him... but I just don't want to see A hurt so badly again. Sigh... sometimes do find that ppl can be plain cruel
Saturday, October 1, 2005
So many postings, so many blogs around, ppl do get addicted to blogging ya.
Was reading some other fellow brothers n sisters' blog.. thinking about them a lil.. makes me wonder about a lot of things.
Ppl, I hope you'll learn to continue to grow in the Lord, dun let anyone put you down and tell u otherwise. Be strong, be faithful, you can do IT!!!
hm.. prob jes crapping ere, oh well
Was reading some other fellow brothers n sisters' blog.. thinking about them a lil.. makes me wonder about a lot of things.
Ppl, I hope you'll learn to continue to grow in the Lord, dun let anyone put you down and tell u otherwise. Be strong, be faithful, you can do IT!!!
hm.. prob jes crapping ere, oh well
Friday, September 30, 2005
SHOWN COMPASSION TO SHOW COMPASSION
"Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd." Matthew 9:35, 36
Compassion. There often isn't much of it in our dog eat dog world. Survival of the fittest. Win at all costs. Look out only for yourself. Climb the corporate ladder no matter who you have to step on. Show compassion? Ha! That's for the weak to do. Jesus had compassion on people when he lived in this compassionless world. He healed the sick and injured. Most compassionately of all, he preached and taught the good news of free forgiveness and eternal life to souls burdened by guilt and sin. You are on the receiving end of God's compassion. Before the world began, God knew your name and had chosen you to belong to him eternally. In compassion God sent his Son in the flesh to save you from the guilt and punishment of your sins. In compassion God brought you into his family through his Holy Spirit who brought you to faith. In compassion God daily protects you with his angels and provides for all your needs. In compassion God hears all your prayers and is preparing a room for you in heaven. In compassion God is working out everything that happens to you (even the bad and sad) for your eternal good. God has shown you compassion. With an appreciative heart, go and show others compassion with your words and actions. You can't heal the sick like Jesus did. But you can help ease someone's pain. Above all, you can tell a burdened soul about a compassionate and forgiving God. God, thank you for treating me daily with compassion. Help me to share your compassionate love with others. May they see your compassion and love through me. Amen.
"Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd." Matthew 9:35, 36
Compassion. There often isn't much of it in our dog eat dog world. Survival of the fittest. Win at all costs. Look out only for yourself. Climb the corporate ladder no matter who you have to step on. Show compassion? Ha! That's for the weak to do. Jesus had compassion on people when he lived in this compassionless world. He healed the sick and injured. Most compassionately of all, he preached and taught the good news of free forgiveness and eternal life to souls burdened by guilt and sin. You are on the receiving end of God's compassion. Before the world began, God knew your name and had chosen you to belong to him eternally. In compassion God sent his Son in the flesh to save you from the guilt and punishment of your sins. In compassion God brought you into his family through his Holy Spirit who brought you to faith. In compassion God daily protects you with his angels and provides for all your needs. In compassion God hears all your prayers and is preparing a room for you in heaven. In compassion God is working out everything that happens to you (even the bad and sad) for your eternal good. God has shown you compassion. With an appreciative heart, go and show others compassion with your words and actions. You can't heal the sick like Jesus did. But you can help ease someone's pain. Above all, you can tell a burdened soul about a compassionate and forgiving God. God, thank you for treating me daily with compassion. Help me to share your compassionate love with others. May they see your compassion and love through me. Amen.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Birthday Wish
Thank you everyone for wishing me on my birthday. You may not know it, but this simple gesture of yours touches my heart deeply and I am very very thankful that I have friends like you all. Thank you for the wonderful memories you have given to me on this joyous occasion. I pray too, that the good Lord will bless you abundantly.
Thank you everyone for wishing me on my birthday. You may not know it, but this simple gesture of yours touches my heart deeply and I am very very thankful that I have friends like you all. Thank you for the wonderful memories you have given to me on this joyous occasion. I pray too, that the good Lord will bless you abundantly.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
I'm so glad that she's happy again, but yet, at the same time I'm worried for her. I'm glad that she's together again, but I'm worried of how things will go. Lord, I pray that you'll continue to bless her and take care of her, no matter what. I love her heaps, and I don't want to see her hurt again, but Lord, I trust in you. I trust that you will continue to watch over her, as you did over me. Take good care of her Lord.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
at 2 something today, we received a call from a neighbour informing us that a thief got into our house. at that time, my parents n i were in langkawi, waiting for 5 plus to come so that we may fly home... my brother were not around that time, for there was a company's family day...
Really praise GOd, for a neighbour saw the thieft climbing into our house, and thus, alerted all the neighbours n the guards downstairs. The thief was so frightened that he did not dare to climb out. Later on, a guard climbed in and caught him. I heard that the neighbours beat him badly...
Although the ppl say nothing was stolen (they checked on him), but we found out that two mobile phones were lost, one that belonged to my mom and another is my dad's spare phone. Oh well, I still praise God that nothing else was stolen..
wat an exciting day... tired from the trip, tired from the travelling as well..... wat a day man
Really praise GOd, for a neighbour saw the thieft climbing into our house, and thus, alerted all the neighbours n the guards downstairs. The thief was so frightened that he did not dare to climb out. Later on, a guard climbed in and caught him. I heard that the neighbours beat him badly...
Although the ppl say nothing was stolen (they checked on him), but we found out that two mobile phones were lost, one that belonged to my mom and another is my dad's spare phone. Oh well, I still praise God that nothing else was stolen..
wat an exciting day... tired from the trip, tired from the travelling as well..... wat a day man
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Realised one thing that's happening in the churches in Malaysia, well, at least in Klang Valley to be exact. There's so many youth out there who are hungry and seeking God, even youth in churches. But what's happening to the churches around? It's not the first time that I'm hearing people complaining about their own church, even for me, I do that as well. God, I'm not forsaking You, I need You more than ever, but I also need support from others to help me grow. Lord, hear the cry of the youth in this nation Lord, I pray that You'll bring revival, sweep through this land and awaken Your people Lord. We need You, we desperately need You.
Churches, rise up, look at the youth in your church, don't just wait and see.. but be ready to strive and intercede for them.. even the government claims that the youth will rise up to be the emerging leaders of this nation. Come then, pray and intercede for the youth of this nation, that they will rise up and take on the world, in God's way.
Wake up and realise, we're young, we're kinda lost, and we need guidance. We don't need everyday high, but we need everyday God. We don't really know what to do and who to turn to when we face problems, God you say. We do that, but God never says to stay away from the elders of the church. Stop rebuking our ways of praising God, but understand, this is how we release, how we say we love God, how we say we hunger for Him.
Youth of this nation, do you hunger? Then turn and look to God. Lord, hear the cry of the youth, come then and move... come then and move this nation.
Churches, rise up, look at the youth in your church, don't just wait and see.. but be ready to strive and intercede for them.. even the government claims that the youth will rise up to be the emerging leaders of this nation. Come then, pray and intercede for the youth of this nation, that they will rise up and take on the world, in God's way.
Wake up and realise, we're young, we're kinda lost, and we need guidance. We don't need everyday high, but we need everyday God. We don't really know what to do and who to turn to when we face problems, God you say. We do that, but God never says to stay away from the elders of the church. Stop rebuking our ways of praising God, but understand, this is how we release, how we say we love God, how we say we hunger for Him.
Youth of this nation, do you hunger? Then turn and look to God. Lord, hear the cry of the youth, come then and move... come then and move this nation.
Tuesday, August 9, 2005
Realised that in this world, there's so many heart wrenching love stories. Stories of love that never took place, stories that ends in hurt and anger, stories that ends in loss and ache.
For those who are now with the one that you know you want to spend the rest of your life with, be thankful for this gift of love. It is truly hard to be able to find someone who loves you as much as you do him/her.
For those who are still searching, be patience, for God already have someone in mind for you. He's just waiting for the right time to present him/her to you. Who knows, that person might be the one next to you.
For those who have been hurt, who have been angered, who's aching, it's time to let go. Let God take this hurt with Him and let Him fill you with love. When you decided to let go, that's when you truly move on and enjoy life.
Learn to be thankful for the little things in life.. be thankful for the fact that you can still walk and talk and filled with emotion. Think of those, who wished that they can walk and talk like you. Be thankful that you are alive, for to live is a gift in itself. Be thankful that you can see the changes that is happening, for only then you may change yourself.
But most of all, be thankful that we all can love, for the greatest gift of all is love.
For those who are now with the one that you know you want to spend the rest of your life with, be thankful for this gift of love. It is truly hard to be able to find someone who loves you as much as you do him/her.
For those who are still searching, be patience, for God already have someone in mind for you. He's just waiting for the right time to present him/her to you. Who knows, that person might be the one next to you.
For those who have been hurt, who have been angered, who's aching, it's time to let go. Let God take this hurt with Him and let Him fill you with love. When you decided to let go, that's when you truly move on and enjoy life.
Learn to be thankful for the little things in life.. be thankful for the fact that you can still walk and talk and filled with emotion. Think of those, who wished that they can walk and talk like you. Be thankful that you are alive, for to live is a gift in itself. Be thankful that you can see the changes that is happening, for only then you may change yourself.
But most of all, be thankful that we all can love, for the greatest gift of all is love.
Saturday, August 6, 2005
Why do ppl run away from the things in their life? This is one question that came into my mind today. Seriously, I wonder... is it natural to run.
I used to face changed without even caring about would happen... but now, for every step that I take towards the future, there is this nagging fear that grows bit by bit in me? What happened to the old me, whom, though carrying fear inside of her, continue to strive on and face those fears? I truly wonder... have I changed that much? Who am I now? Do i really know myself? I wonder at times...
The power of the mind... can make u think clearly and also confuse at the same time... Dear Lord, I'll leave it into your hands....
I used to face changed without even caring about would happen... but now, for every step that I take towards the future, there is this nagging fear that grows bit by bit in me? What happened to the old me, whom, though carrying fear inside of her, continue to strive on and face those fears? I truly wonder... have I changed that much? Who am I now? Do i really know myself? I wonder at times...
The power of the mind... can make u think clearly and also confuse at the same time... Dear Lord, I'll leave it into your hands....
Thursday, August 4, 2005
A BABY'S HUG
We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik ina high chair and noticed everyone was quietly eating and talking. Suddenly Erik squealed with glee and said, " Hi there." He pounded hisfat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes were crinkled in laughterand his mouth was bared in a toothless grin, as he wriggled and giggledwith merriment. I looked around for the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pantswere baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-beshoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed.His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was sovaricose it looked like a round map. We were too far from him to smell, but I wassure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. "Hi there, baby, Hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster" the man said to Erik. My husband and I exchanged looks. "What do we do?" Erik continued tolaugh at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisancewith my beautiful baby. Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, "Do ya patty cak? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look he knowspeek-a-boo." Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husbandand I were embarrassed. We ate in silence, all except for Erik, who wasrunning through his repertoire for the admiring skid row bum, who in turn,reciprocated with his cute comments. We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband wentto pay and check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old mansat poised between me and the door. "Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik," I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him andavoid air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm,reaching with both arms in a baby's "pick-me-up" position. Before I couldstop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man's. Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their loverelationship.Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head uponthe man's ragged shoulder. The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneathhis eye lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled mybaby's bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeplyfor so short a time. I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erikin his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, " You take care of this baby."Somehow I managed, "I will," from a throat that contained a stone.He pried Erik from his chest unwillingly, longingly, as though he were inpain. I received my baby, and the man said, "God bless you, ma'am, you've givenme my Christmas gift." I said nothing more than a muttered thanks. With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I wascrying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, "My God, my God, forgiveme."I had witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment, a child who saw a soul, and a motherwho saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child whowas not. I felt it was God asking, "Are you willing to share your son for a moment?"when He shared His for all eternity. The ragged old man, unwittingly, hadreminded me, "To enter the Kingdom of God, we must become as little children."
We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik ina high chair and noticed everyone was quietly eating and talking. Suddenly Erik squealed with glee and said, " Hi there." He pounded hisfat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes were crinkled in laughterand his mouth was bared in a toothless grin, as he wriggled and giggledwith merriment. I looked around for the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pantswere baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-beshoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed.His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was sovaricose it looked like a round map. We were too far from him to smell, but I wassure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. "Hi there, baby, Hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster" the man said to Erik. My husband and I exchanged looks. "What do we do?" Erik continued tolaugh at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisancewith my beautiful baby. Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, "Do ya patty cak? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look he knowspeek-a-boo." Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husbandand I were embarrassed. We ate in silence, all except for Erik, who wasrunning through his repertoire for the admiring skid row bum, who in turn,reciprocated with his cute comments. We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband wentto pay and check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old mansat poised between me and the door. "Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik," I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him andavoid air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm,reaching with both arms in a baby's "pick-me-up" position. Before I couldstop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man's. Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their loverelationship.Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head uponthe man's ragged shoulder. The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneathhis eye lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled mybaby's bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeplyfor so short a time. I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erikin his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, " You take care of this baby."Somehow I managed, "I will," from a throat that contained a stone.He pried Erik from his chest unwillingly, longingly, as though he were inpain. I received my baby, and the man said, "God bless you, ma'am, you've givenme my Christmas gift." I said nothing more than a muttered thanks. With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I wascrying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, "My God, my God, forgiveme."I had witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment, a child who saw a soul, and a motherwho saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child whowas not. I felt it was God asking, "Are you willing to share your son for a moment?"when He shared His for all eternity. The ragged old man, unwittingly, hadreminded me, "To enter the Kingdom of God, we must become as little children."
there seemed to be some conflict amongst the closest ppl in the department. Wondered if it'll affect me... I have no idea what has happened, but I do hope that things will be better for them soon. It's sad to know that minor things can be blown to this extent. There seemed to be some tension in the air the whole day. Truly, it's affecting my attention. Finding it a little hard to concentrate on my work... sighh...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
I'm not trying to brag or anything, but I've finished work for the week. Now am feeling a little tired. Probably because I haven't been sleeping well for the past few nights.
The skies for the past few days was quite polluted.. it seems that it's due to smog from the burning of the forest in Indonesia and also for the fire at Cyberjaya reserved park. Visibility was so low and the air was so thick with burning smell that I almost ran to my car after work on Monday. But thankfully, it's been raining in the morning for the past few days, so it has helped cleared the air a little.
Went for this charity dinner last night at Tropicana Golf Club. Not too bad, did not expect such a big crowd though. Everything's kinda cool... was feeling a little awkward though, coz I only found out when I reach there that I'll be sitting with my friend's family... but it's cool, they all seemed like very nice ppl. The sister's kinda sweet as well :D
There heaps of music going on.. still find it amazing to see so many talented people in a place. There's just groups and groups of ppl walking up to the stage to perform, and performing for the Lord they are. Had a great time there.
Yesterday was also Swee Wei's birthday.. did something that I took for granted for her and got a surprise. Called her and sang happy birthday to her.. she went "OMG" lots of times, then finally mentioned that she's gona cry. I was kinda dumbfounded to get confirmation from G that she was about to burst into tears... really the things that we do may seem to be of nothing to us, but to the ppl who hears it or receives it... was joy/sorrow it might bring to them. Makes me realise that I should be careful of the things that I do or say, because it does affect the other parties
The skies for the past few days was quite polluted.. it seems that it's due to smog from the burning of the forest in Indonesia and also for the fire at Cyberjaya reserved park. Visibility was so low and the air was so thick with burning smell that I almost ran to my car after work on Monday. But thankfully, it's been raining in the morning for the past few days, so it has helped cleared the air a little.
Went for this charity dinner last night at Tropicana Golf Club. Not too bad, did not expect such a big crowd though. Everything's kinda cool... was feeling a little awkward though, coz I only found out when I reach there that I'll be sitting with my friend's family... but it's cool, they all seemed like very nice ppl. The sister's kinda sweet as well :D
There heaps of music going on.. still find it amazing to see so many talented people in a place. There's just groups and groups of ppl walking up to the stage to perform, and performing for the Lord they are. Had a great time there.
Yesterday was also Swee Wei's birthday.. did something that I took for granted for her and got a surprise. Called her and sang happy birthday to her.. she went "OMG" lots of times, then finally mentioned that she's gona cry. I was kinda dumbfounded to get confirmation from G that she was about to burst into tears... really the things that we do may seem to be of nothing to us, but to the ppl who hears it or receives it... was joy/sorrow it might bring to them. Makes me realise that I should be careful of the things that I do or say, because it does affect the other parties
Wednesday, August 3, 2005
there seemed to be some conflict amongst the closest ppl in the department. Wondered if it'll affect me... I have no idea what has happened, but I do hope that things will be better for them soon. It's sad to know that minor things can be blown to this extent. There seemed to be some tension in the air the whole day. Truly, it's affecting my attention. Finding it a little hard to concentrate on my work... sighh...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
Monday, August 1, 2005
time of blogging
It's been quite a while since I've blogged. i've been busy? I have no idea, really.. there are times when I seemed to be so overwhelmed by everything that I've lost touch of ... everything... weird ain't it. Well, decided to write a little of wat i've been doing in my life besides work.
1. Going out for dinner every week with friends
2. Movie's the second of the list
3. Stay at home watching anime
4. Doing nothing but hiding in my room
5. ...
Rather unproductive I would say, but oh well... have no idea how to spend the times that I have... most of the time i'm so tired after work that I'd not do anything but just hide in my room, wishing for peace and comfort to envelope me. Rather looking forward to the weekends, where I get to stay at home the whole day! Haha.. but not entirely true as I have been hanging out with my friend some of these weekends as well.
It's been a while since I was out with my taekwondo gang, it feels different, but still nice. Crap like mad, joking, teasing, whatever we could think of... rather fun I would say. I guess sometimes it's tough, the way things are in my life right now..
At the moment, I just wish that my brother will get a house so that we can really stay as one family once again, but then again, I might not be able to enjoy the freedom that I have now, coz staying with my family means more responsibility on my part. Maybe it's a good thing too, since I've kinda been running away from responsibilities that I need to bear... weird.. sighh.. things are going awkward for me at church... the teens are disappearing, even I am disappearing.. commitment.. wat is that? Oh dear Lord, just hope that You will bring a good shepard to lead your people once again...
It's been quite a while since I've blogged. i've been busy? I have no idea, really.. there are times when I seemed to be so overwhelmed by everything that I've lost touch of ... everything... weird ain't it. Well, decided to write a little of wat i've been doing in my life besides work.
1. Going out for dinner every week with friends
2. Movie's the second of the list
3. Stay at home watching anime
4. Doing nothing but hiding in my room
5. ...
Rather unproductive I would say, but oh well... have no idea how to spend the times that I have... most of the time i'm so tired after work that I'd not do anything but just hide in my room, wishing for peace and comfort to envelope me. Rather looking forward to the weekends, where I get to stay at home the whole day! Haha.. but not entirely true as I have been hanging out with my friend some of these weekends as well.
It's been a while since I was out with my taekwondo gang, it feels different, but still nice. Crap like mad, joking, teasing, whatever we could think of... rather fun I would say. I guess sometimes it's tough, the way things are in my life right now..
At the moment, I just wish that my brother will get a house so that we can really stay as one family once again, but then again, I might not be able to enjoy the freedom that I have now, coz staying with my family means more responsibility on my part. Maybe it's a good thing too, since I've kinda been running away from responsibilities that I need to bear... weird.. sighh.. things are going awkward for me at church... the teens are disappearing, even I am disappearing.. commitment.. wat is that? Oh dear Lord, just hope that You will bring a good shepard to lead your people once again...
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Underlying things has been happening in my life at the moment. Sometimes I find that things ain't right, yet there are times where I get so tired trying to figure things out that I ended up not doing anything at all.
Work work work... that's the main spotlight in my life at the moment. I guess lots of us are facing the same thing as well. So called work is from 9am to 5.30pm, but time and again I only find myself travelling home after 8.30pm... but compared to a friend of mine, I should be thankful that I am actually going home before 12am. Is this the life that I want to live, not really.. but I guess sometimes the society would shape our lives.. maybe this is one of the matter. Though we desire and want something different, but reality hits you and you just can't run away.
Dilemma is another spotlight in my life.. so many decisions to make, so many things that's holding us down and such. So tired of lots of things. I'm definitely different from last time, can my silly side continue to live in this world? Truly wonder at times.. miss the time where I don't have to worry so much and just do what I'm doing. Yet, now that I'm older, there are things that I want and yet, I can't reach for them. I guess I would have to wait on God for His timing of the things that He would want to give to me. I pray that I would have the patience...
Emotions that can't be describe continue to swirl in my heart... Longing continue to grow immensely... sometimes, I wonder why I'm feeling lonely.. I pray that I'll be able to fight off the feeling and not let it sink me... I pray... I pray with all my heart, that you'll grant me the desires of my heart.
Awake oh thee, hear the cry of my heart
Reach out and touch, the soul that is dormant
Let not the heart quiet down
But let it beat steadily with thee
Work work work... that's the main spotlight in my life at the moment. I guess lots of us are facing the same thing as well. So called work is from 9am to 5.30pm, but time and again I only find myself travelling home after 8.30pm... but compared to a friend of mine, I should be thankful that I am actually going home before 12am. Is this the life that I want to live, not really.. but I guess sometimes the society would shape our lives.. maybe this is one of the matter. Though we desire and want something different, but reality hits you and you just can't run away.
Dilemma is another spotlight in my life.. so many decisions to make, so many things that's holding us down and such. So tired of lots of things. I'm definitely different from last time, can my silly side continue to live in this world? Truly wonder at times.. miss the time where I don't have to worry so much and just do what I'm doing. Yet, now that I'm older, there are things that I want and yet, I can't reach for them. I guess I would have to wait on God for His timing of the things that He would want to give to me. I pray that I would have the patience...
Emotions that can't be describe continue to swirl in my heart... Longing continue to grow immensely... sometimes, I wonder why I'm feeling lonely.. I pray that I'll be able to fight off the feeling and not let it sink me... I pray... I pray with all my heart, that you'll grant me the desires of my heart.
Awake oh thee, hear the cry of my heart
Reach out and touch, the soul that is dormant
Let not the heart quiet down
But let it beat steadily with thee
Sunday, July 3, 2005
When I Pray for You
A note for someone who has been going through a pretty difficult time
I wish I knew all the right words to say...
to let you know how much you're thought of ~ and
how sincerely I believe that everything's going to be okay...
When I pray for you, I think of...
what a specia.l person you are. One of the
very best. I think of what a big heart you have, of how glad I
am to now you, and of how much your happiness means to me.
When I pray for you, I think of all the wonderful
qualities within you. And every thankful thought helps to
reaffirm what I already knew:
within the circle of your life ~ near enough to be
warmed by your spirit and by your sharing ~
are very lucky people.
When i pray for you, it's because I dearly care, and because
I know that you've been going through a difficult time. If
I have any guardian angels, I'd like to share each ne with
you, to make all your smiles shine.
When I pray for you, it's because I've got a million wishes
to say. May each moment gets better, and may you
always remember...
My prayers are with you every day
A note for someone who has been going through a pretty difficult time
I wish I knew all the right words to say...
to let you know how much you're thought of ~ and
how sincerely I believe that everything's going to be okay...
When I pray for you, I think of...
what a specia.l person you are. One of the
very best. I think of what a big heart you have, of how glad I
am to now you, and of how much your happiness means to me.
When I pray for you, I think of all the wonderful
qualities within you. And every thankful thought helps to
reaffirm what I already knew:
within the circle of your life ~ near enough to be
warmed by your spirit and by your sharing ~
are very lucky people.
When i pray for you, it's because I dearly care, and because
I know that you've been going through a difficult time. If
I have any guardian angels, I'd like to share each ne with
you, to make all your smiles shine.
When I pray for you, it's because I've got a million wishes
to say. May each moment gets better, and may you
always remember...
My prayers are with you every day
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Got this a while back by a friend, been meaning to post it here, but kept on forgetting :D
Before Starting Work
My Heavenly Father, as I enter this work place,
I bring Your presence with me.
I speak Your peace, Your grace, Your mercy,
and Your perfexct order into this office.
I acknowledge Your power over all that will be spoken,
thought, decided and done within these walls.
Lord, I thank You for the gifts You have blessed me with.
I commit to using them responsibly in Your honour.
Give me a fresh supplu pf strength to do my job.
Anoint my projects, ideas, and energy;
So that even my smallest accomplishment may bring You glory.
Lord, when I am confused, guide me.
When I am weary, energize me.
When I am burned out, infuse me with the light of the Holy Spirit.
May the work that I do and the way I do it bring faith, joy and
a smile to all that I come in contact with today.
And oh Lord, when I leave this place, give me travelling mecy.
Bless my family and home to be in order as I left it.
Lord, I thank you for everything You've done, everything You're doing,
and everything You're going to do.
In the Name of Jesus I pray, with much love and thanksgiving,
Amen
Before Starting Work
My Heavenly Father, as I enter this work place,
I bring Your presence with me.
I speak Your peace, Your grace, Your mercy,
and Your perfexct order into this office.
I acknowledge Your power over all that will be spoken,
thought, decided and done within these walls.
Lord, I thank You for the gifts You have blessed me with.
I commit to using them responsibly in Your honour.
Give me a fresh supplu pf strength to do my job.
Anoint my projects, ideas, and energy;
So that even my smallest accomplishment may bring You glory.
Lord, when I am confused, guide me.
When I am weary, energize me.
When I am burned out, infuse me with the light of the Holy Spirit.
May the work that I do and the way I do it bring faith, joy and
a smile to all that I come in contact with today.
And oh Lord, when I leave this place, give me travelling mecy.
Bless my family and home to be in order as I left it.
Lord, I thank you for everything You've done, everything You're doing,
and everything You're going to do.
In the Name of Jesus I pray, with much love and thanksgiving,
Amen
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Cafe Flam
Let me intro this place to you. Cafe Flam (pronounced as flame) is located in Sunway Pyramid - Oasis Boulevard area, roughly next to Kim Gary. At a first glance, this place is plainly a place to hang out, a place with good food and good ambience. One might be fooled by it. At night, this wonderful ambience place turns into a nightclub, whereby people of all kinds would come to drink, to dance and basically to enjoy themselves.
Last night, I dressed myself up as to go to a drink with friends (something casual and comfy - i.e white top). After fetching Mel, we proceeded to Cafe Flam. We were totally stunned when we saw the place, it was happening and crazy at the same time. It's been a while since I've gone to places like this (like since I came back from Aust I've only been once) and having to work today, it felt that it wasn't such a good idea to hang out. Nonetheless, friends are already in there, so I figured, what the heck, we'll leave at one something. Gotta pay for cover charge (dengz) and took a beer. Yucks! Don't think I'll ever like beer... having finish the whole bottle as well. The music sucks in the beginning tho, techno I think. But later it changed to R & B and things went from dull to fun. Had fun dancing and hanging out with Joanna, Ying Chao, Yen Fen, Zheat, Ooi and Mel.. Mel and I tried to leave the place at 2am - but then some songs came up and we weren't allow to go until those songs ended. Gosh - had to hang out for another half an hour there.
It was fun though.. but wasn't fun drinking on an empty stomach. And Mel and I could feel that we're a little off coz we've not been drinking for so so long... nonetheless, fun's the word.
Can't believe I could wake up (I only arrived home at 3 plus in the morning and slept at nearly 4am) and come to work. Now it's 1pm and I'm off home - my sweet sweet bed....
Let me intro this place to you. Cafe Flam (pronounced as flame) is located in Sunway Pyramid - Oasis Boulevard area, roughly next to Kim Gary. At a first glance, this place is plainly a place to hang out, a place with good food and good ambience. One might be fooled by it. At night, this wonderful ambience place turns into a nightclub, whereby people of all kinds would come to drink, to dance and basically to enjoy themselves.
Last night, I dressed myself up as to go to a drink with friends (something casual and comfy - i.e white top). After fetching Mel, we proceeded to Cafe Flam. We were totally stunned when we saw the place, it was happening and crazy at the same time. It's been a while since I've gone to places like this (like since I came back from Aust I've only been once) and having to work today, it felt that it wasn't such a good idea to hang out. Nonetheless, friends are already in there, so I figured, what the heck, we'll leave at one something. Gotta pay for cover charge (dengz) and took a beer. Yucks! Don't think I'll ever like beer... having finish the whole bottle as well. The music sucks in the beginning tho, techno I think. But later it changed to R & B and things went from dull to fun. Had fun dancing and hanging out with Joanna, Ying Chao, Yen Fen, Zheat, Ooi and Mel.. Mel and I tried to leave the place at 2am - but then some songs came up and we weren't allow to go until those songs ended. Gosh - had to hang out for another half an hour there.
It was fun though.. but wasn't fun drinking on an empty stomach. And Mel and I could feel that we're a little off coz we've not been drinking for so so long... nonetheless, fun's the word.
Can't believe I could wake up (I only arrived home at 3 plus in the morning and slept at nearly 4am) and come to work. Now it's 1pm and I'm off home - my sweet sweet bed....
Friday, May 13, 2005
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.In this moment, you think of love as commitment.
Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
What Are the Keys to Your Heart?
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.In this moment, you think of love as commitment.
Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
What Are the Keys to Your Heart?
Monday, April 25, 2005
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
A friend in church told us that he would be going back to his hometown and most probably won't be coming back here anytime soon. Am really stunned and sad to hear of it. Guessed should've known, because he is only here for his studies. Gona miss him tho. Been a fun person to hang out with, always crapping and making me laugh at church. Sigh.. friendship always does come and go. Guess this is part of life. Don't think I'll ever get used to it.. life is sometimes so hard, especially when it comes to this. Seriously gona miss you Joshua. You take care now, and may the Good Lord bless you always in everything that you do. Do remember me ya, for I wil definitely remember you.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Earthquake in Malaysia
An earthquake hits Malaysia early this morning a little later after 12 am. It was so bad that everyone in the condo where I am staying evacuated. It lasted for quite a while, for after a few minutes after I came down, people were still running down. It was really scary to feel things around you shaking, and it's not those minor shaking. It's a shake that will not allow you to stand still. A colleague of mine couldn't even stand when the earthquake hits. It was that disorienting.
Malaysia was said to be one of the safest area when it comes to earthquake, because we weren't supposed to get earthquake. But reality hits, nature is changing its course and habit. People of the world, I think it's time we wake up from our slumber.
It seems that the second one hit at around 2 something.
Today, at around 2.30pm another bout of tremor was felt by the people in Malaysia. Am still in the office, we weren't called to evacuate even though the building next to us was called to. I have to say this, I'm scared...
Father Lord, please calm me down, I'm scared, I'm truly scared. But I don't want to panic, because I know it's not going to help. Please of Prince of Peace, let me feel peace in my heart. Don't let fear take hold of me.
Matthew 24: 3-8
3As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, “when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?”
4Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. 5For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Christ,[a]’ and will deceive many. 6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.
This are all just the beginning of birth pains... it is just the beginning...
An earthquake hits Malaysia early this morning a little later after 12 am. It was so bad that everyone in the condo where I am staying evacuated. It lasted for quite a while, for after a few minutes after I came down, people were still running down. It was really scary to feel things around you shaking, and it's not those minor shaking. It's a shake that will not allow you to stand still. A colleague of mine couldn't even stand when the earthquake hits. It was that disorienting.
Malaysia was said to be one of the safest area when it comes to earthquake, because we weren't supposed to get earthquake. But reality hits, nature is changing its course and habit. People of the world, I think it's time we wake up from our slumber.
It seems that the second one hit at around 2 something.
Today, at around 2.30pm another bout of tremor was felt by the people in Malaysia. Am still in the office, we weren't called to evacuate even though the building next to us was called to. I have to say this, I'm scared...
Father Lord, please calm me down, I'm scared, I'm truly scared. But I don't want to panic, because I know it's not going to help. Please of Prince of Peace, let me feel peace in my heart. Don't let fear take hold of me.
Matthew 24: 3-8
3As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, “when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?”
4Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. 5For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Christ,[a]’ and will deceive many. 6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.
This are all just the beginning of birth pains... it is just the beginning...
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
TotaLLy INSANE!
My goodness, this is like totally insane! Guess what time I reached the office today.. 735AM!!!! ARgggghhhhhhh....Last night, I've decided to car pool with my aunt cause I don't intend to work OT today... kinda tired and all.. so I ended waking up at 6 something (i have a feeling I woke UP at 630am!) Usually (the last time round when I was still carpooling with her), I'll arrive at the office roughly at 8 plus. But today is insane!!! Argghh... I think my lacking of half an hour's sleep will cause havoc in the office!! Let's hope I don't go extremely siao todayyy...NUTSSSSSS.. I still can't believe it!
Sweet Sweet bed... *sob sob*
My goodness, this is like totally insane! Guess what time I reached the office today.. 735AM!!!! ARgggghhhhhhh....Last night, I've decided to car pool with my aunt cause I don't intend to work OT today... kinda tired and all.. so I ended waking up at 6 something (i have a feeling I woke UP at 630am!) Usually (the last time round when I was still carpooling with her), I'll arrive at the office roughly at 8 plus. But today is insane!!! Argghh... I think my lacking of half an hour's sleep will cause havoc in the office!! Let's hope I don't go extremely siao todayyy...NUTSSSSSS.. I still can't believe it!
Sweet Sweet bed... *sob sob*
Saturday, March 19, 2005
You're Most Like The Season Spring ...
Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you
smile at the world and expect it to smile back
at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent
person. Described as cute possibly. However,
you're a little naive about things and tend to
be a little too trustworthy.
As the first season, It Makes you the youngest -
and so most immature - but people are inclined
to look out for and protect you.
Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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gosh... am i rili spring?? hahah
Monday, March 14, 2005
God is great, He is awesome! I'm speechless when I come before Him, before His majesty and glory, magnificence and splendour. Amazing, amazing!
Am very thankful that Edward invited for the Freedom programme. It made me realise a lot of things that in my life. It made me realise what's withholding me from growing with God, it makes me realise the pain, the hurt that's buried so deep inside of me is affecting my life, my growth.
It feels great letting them out. It hurts, it hurts so much when the pain, the pain that's buried deep, deep in your heart starts coming out. But God is amazing, He know just the right word, just the right time to say them out. Thank you Lord, for telling me that I am worthy, for telling me that I am loved, always, always loved, and that I am a beautiful creation of yours. It meant so much, have heard so much hurtful words.. and now, to hear such beautiful words from you, makes me crumble at Your sight. So hard to believe them, but yet Lord, so wonderful and amazing to know that You care, that You care so so much for me. I really can't express how I truly feel in me. But Lord, thank you so so much for bringing me to that place, to that place where I know I can let You take hold of me, to grasp me, to hug me, to love me, to heal me.. my heart may be small, but You brought it to blossom. Thank you Lord, for your amazing love..
Amazing love, how sweet the sound
Amazing love, now flowing down
From hands and feet, that were nailed to the tree
His grace flows down it covers me
It covers me
It covers me
It covers me
And it covers me
O God, the things that he says, it hurts so badly. Doesn't he understand, doesn't he realise that he's hurting me? It hurts so much.. everytime I tell him to stop it, he thinks that I am joking. Can't for once, listen to what I'm saying. I'm telling you not to hurt me, yet you take it lightly. I told her as well, all she said was he's like that. It's shit to say that he's like that. It doesn't mean anything, stop making excuses will ya.. stop covering for him as well. Wana know why I sometimes don't care? Coz you've hurt me enough, so much that I can't care anymore. I don't have the heart to care anymore.
Lord, I pray that you'll take away this hurt and this pain that I am feeling. Thank you Lord, thank You Lord...
Am very thankful that Edward invited for the Freedom programme. It made me realise a lot of things that in my life. It made me realise what's withholding me from growing with God, it makes me realise the pain, the hurt that's buried so deep inside of me is affecting my life, my growth.
It feels great letting them out. It hurts, it hurts so much when the pain, the pain that's buried deep, deep in your heart starts coming out. But God is amazing, He know just the right word, just the right time to say them out. Thank you Lord, for telling me that I am worthy, for telling me that I am loved, always, always loved, and that I am a beautiful creation of yours. It meant so much, have heard so much hurtful words.. and now, to hear such beautiful words from you, makes me crumble at Your sight. So hard to believe them, but yet Lord, so wonderful and amazing to know that You care, that You care so so much for me. I really can't express how I truly feel in me. But Lord, thank you so so much for bringing me to that place, to that place where I know I can let You take hold of me, to grasp me, to hug me, to love me, to heal me.. my heart may be small, but You brought it to blossom. Thank you Lord, for your amazing love..
Amazing love, how sweet the sound
Amazing love, now flowing down
From hands and feet, that were nailed to the tree
His grace flows down it covers me
It covers me
It covers me
It covers me
And it covers me
O God, the things that he says, it hurts so badly. Doesn't he understand, doesn't he realise that he's hurting me? It hurts so much.. everytime I tell him to stop it, he thinks that I am joking. Can't for once, listen to what I'm saying. I'm telling you not to hurt me, yet you take it lightly. I told her as well, all she said was he's like that. It's shit to say that he's like that. It doesn't mean anything, stop making excuses will ya.. stop covering for him as well. Wana know why I sometimes don't care? Coz you've hurt me enough, so much that I can't care anymore. I don't have the heart to care anymore.
Lord, I pray that you'll take away this hurt and this pain that I am feeling. Thank you Lord, thank You Lord...
Sunday, March 6, 2005
Sometimes some things just makes a big difference in your life. Absence truly makes your heart fond as well... sometimes there's just too many things that I'm struggling with. There's just things in my life that's pretty messed up at the moment. Sometimes I wonder, am I doing what is right? Should I continue to do what I'm doing, even though I don't really like it? Sometimes I wish that God can just tell me straight in my face.. maybe He did, but I was just not listening.
Too many things are the moment.. overwhelmed by feelings that I know I should not keep... too many things that I'm wondering at the moment. I guess ppl go through the same thing as well, especially when you take the time to slow down and think of the happenings in your life.
As I sat and reflect the past year, I realised that it was a waste, I've wasted my time on a whole heaps of things - but yet, from there too, I learn something.. I learnt that I'm never alone, that God is always with me. No matter what I was going through, no matter how hard things seem to be, how cold this world could be, all I just need is to look at Him and things would be different. Thank you Lord, for carrying me when I can't walk anymore, thank you Lord, for supporting me and most of all, for loving me even when I doubt of your existence in my life. Even at this moment, I am truly amaze that He was truly there for me for the past year, the tough year that I've faced, not on my own, but with Him!
It's already March.. time really does fly. Was very glad of the times that I was able to spend with frens whom I've not met for the past year. Makes me realise that I truly do have friends who are caring and loving... maybe this world is cruel and cold.. but with them with me, I have nothing to fear.. and most of all, there's nothing to fear because Jesus is with me as well..
There's some things that's in my heart for a long time, but I find it hard to share it out, especially here.. maybe.. in future.., but for now...adios frens
Too many things are the moment.. overwhelmed by feelings that I know I should not keep... too many things that I'm wondering at the moment. I guess ppl go through the same thing as well, especially when you take the time to slow down and think of the happenings in your life.
As I sat and reflect the past year, I realised that it was a waste, I've wasted my time on a whole heaps of things - but yet, from there too, I learn something.. I learnt that I'm never alone, that God is always with me. No matter what I was going through, no matter how hard things seem to be, how cold this world could be, all I just need is to look at Him and things would be different. Thank you Lord, for carrying me when I can't walk anymore, thank you Lord, for supporting me and most of all, for loving me even when I doubt of your existence in my life. Even at this moment, I am truly amaze that He was truly there for me for the past year, the tough year that I've faced, not on my own, but with Him!
It's already March.. time really does fly. Was very glad of the times that I was able to spend with frens whom I've not met for the past year. Makes me realise that I truly do have friends who are caring and loving... maybe this world is cruel and cold.. but with them with me, I have nothing to fear.. and most of all, there's nothing to fear because Jesus is with me as well..
There's some things that's in my heart for a long time, but I find it hard to share it out, especially here.. maybe.. in future.., but for now...adios frens
Saturday, February 26, 2005
She messaged me today, asking if I'm free to meet up. Was thrilled over what she did, but then, I wasn't free, thus didn't meet up. I called her as well.. wanted to chit chat with her, but I guessed it's been too long since we've talked or chat over something, thus there wasn't anything that was conversational between us. So sad ain't it, to be so close in the past and now..it's like we're strangers.. what's more, it seems that I'm closer to our friends from afar than with her, who's close to home ....
I'm Not Underpaid
Hm, got this from friend http://yoyo.cc.monash.edu.au/~edward/MalaysiaSalaryGuide2004.pdf. Well, I don't think I'm underpaid, but hey! I should be an Executive, not Consultant! Kekek...
Today's sky very hazy - makes me think of my life, which is also hazy at the moment, blocking me from seeing what's there for my future at the moment... wonder when's it's gona fade
Hm, got this from friend http://yoyo.cc.monash.edu.au/~edward/MalaysiaSalaryGuide2004.pdf. Well, I don't think I'm underpaid, but hey! I should be an Executive, not Consultant! Kekek...
Today's sky very hazy - makes me think of my life, which is also hazy at the moment, blocking me from seeing what's there for my future at the moment... wonder when's it's gona fade
Thursday, February 17, 2005
After Effects of Pai Tin Kong
Didn't manage to get good sleep last nite coz it was the celebration time for Hokkiens! Massive fireworks was launched at midnite sharp, and it lasted very long.. tried ignoring the noises but the launching was too near for me to have the peace to sleep. Some of the fireworks actually sounded like gunshots, was quite stunned.. sigh... twas a bad nite man...
This morning I woke up to a hazy surroundings.. the aftereffects of the fireworks last nite. Believe that the whole of klang valley was clouded by haze.. the sun, which one could see was burning brightly.. dimmed in comparison to the haze - imagine the greenhouse effects that was taking place then - scary
Today met up with Fong, Zyan, Samson, Yan and also Shelvin. Had a great time catching up and teasing and joking with them. Though it was the first time I met Shelvin, but I find that it was very enjoyable chatting with her and all. Everyone's as usual, being so silly and teasing at the same time. Zyan - for instance, is still so animated.. and I believe I laughed a lot as well.. haha.. reminded me of the good ole' days - was really fun.. didn't do much except to hang out. But the downside was I had a pretty disgusting dinner - wasting money - please dun have the don set in Oh Sushi - it's like the salt is free - food's super salty - especially miso soup - super disgusting - miss the nice ones in melbourne cbd - arghh. idiotic cooks in malaysia! Well, i won't say all though - sigh...
Was hugging everyone before we left today - was cool, seriously, u don't see it happening often in Malaysia.. ppl's like so anti hugging here..
Another day has passed me by - tmw's a new day - FRIDAY!! yay! end of the week dee.. shiok!
Didn't manage to get good sleep last nite coz it was the celebration time for Hokkiens! Massive fireworks was launched at midnite sharp, and it lasted very long.. tried ignoring the noises but the launching was too near for me to have the peace to sleep. Some of the fireworks actually sounded like gunshots, was quite stunned.. sigh... twas a bad nite man...
This morning I woke up to a hazy surroundings.. the aftereffects of the fireworks last nite. Believe that the whole of klang valley was clouded by haze.. the sun, which one could see was burning brightly.. dimmed in comparison to the haze - imagine the greenhouse effects that was taking place then - scary
Today met up with Fong, Zyan, Samson, Yan and also Shelvin. Had a great time catching up and teasing and joking with them. Though it was the first time I met Shelvin, but I find that it was very enjoyable chatting with her and all. Everyone's as usual, being so silly and teasing at the same time. Zyan - for instance, is still so animated.. and I believe I laughed a lot as well.. haha.. reminded me of the good ole' days - was really fun.. didn't do much except to hang out. But the downside was I had a pretty disgusting dinner - wasting money - please dun have the don set in Oh Sushi - it's like the salt is free - food's super salty - especially miso soup - super disgusting - miss the nice ones in melbourne cbd - arghh. idiotic cooks in malaysia! Well, i won't say all though - sigh...
Was hugging everyone before we left today - was cool, seriously, u don't see it happening often in Malaysia.. ppl's like so anti hugging here..
Another day has passed me by - tmw's a new day - FRIDAY!! yay! end of the week dee.. shiok!
Monday, February 14, 2005
Another day has gone by. Officially back to work. Quite lazy, thus was hanging around at my friend's seat today and was chatting with two of my colleagues for well over half an hour. When I finally sat down to work, a friend called.. and I ended up chatting again!! HAhah.. quite fun, thank goodness my big boss still on leave, so my supervisor's cool.
It's valentines - office quite quiet as there are quite a few that's on leave... find it quite nice to work as well. Managed to leave a number of my work. It's gona be back to usual soon I guess.....
Hey, Happy Valentines everyone!
It's valentines - office quite quiet as there are quite a few that's on leave... find it quite nice to work as well. Managed to leave a number of my work. It's gona be back to usual soon I guess.....
Hey, Happy Valentines everyone!
Friday, February 11, 2005
Disappointment clouds my heart at the moment, knowing for the fact that changes are happening to us, and neither of us are doing anything doing to stop those changes. Would it help, if I do something, like I did in the past? It's repeating again, you're choosing to neglect me. Maybe our lives are different now, with you doing your own things, and me here waiting... Is my waiting useless? Should I communicate my waiting to you? Would it help? I've tried, but you still choose to ignore me. Maybe it's time for me to move on...
Remember the times we've shared together, hanging out, chatting, doing nothing, doing everything together? Remember the fun teasing others together? Remember the times when we walked together... not doing anything but just walking next to each other, being silly, laughing joyously?
Remember the things we've talked about? The future, the things we want to do together and etc?? The dreaded feeling of it not happening is looming in my mind. It's saddening, knowing for the fact that you've moved on and chose to let go of our friendship. Ya know, I really do miss the times we've shared, though it was short, I still thank God for someone like you in my life.
Do you still keep me in your memories? Do you still think of me at times? Does your heart ache, like mine does when I think about the changes that's happening?
I know I can wish and hope that things will be the same again, but yet, I do doubt that happening.. life is truly a mystery that we cannot comprehend.. but friendship, to me, is a miracle.. for people to get together so well is truly a gift from God. Nevertheless, thank you for the times we've shared, for the memories we've created ... I'll cherish them forever and ever..
And now, maybe it's time to move on...
Remember the times we've shared together, hanging out, chatting, doing nothing, doing everything together? Remember the fun teasing others together? Remember the times when we walked together... not doing anything but just walking next to each other, being silly, laughing joyously?
Remember the things we've talked about? The future, the things we want to do together and etc?? The dreaded feeling of it not happening is looming in my mind. It's saddening, knowing for the fact that you've moved on and chose to let go of our friendship. Ya know, I really do miss the times we've shared, though it was short, I still thank God for someone like you in my life.
Do you still keep me in your memories? Do you still think of me at times? Does your heart ache, like mine does when I think about the changes that's happening?
I know I can wish and hope that things will be the same again, but yet, I do doubt that happening.. life is truly a mystery that we cannot comprehend.. but friendship, to me, is a miracle.. for people to get together so well is truly a gift from God. Nevertheless, thank you for the times we've shared, for the memories we've created ... I'll cherish them forever and ever..
And now, maybe it's time to move on...
Wednesday, February 9, 2005
Hey everyone....
it's Chinese New Year. Those who are celebrating - Gong Hei Gong Hei - May the year ahead be a blessing to ya all and ya family -
chinese New Year - marks the 2nd year home from Australia -
Is there any changes? Well, I would say I'm working harder, achieving more in my job
Personal life is still the same.. everything's the same, but I believe that things will change slowly - we'll just wait and c
it's Chinese New Year. Those who are celebrating - Gong Hei Gong Hei - May the year ahead be a blessing to ya all and ya family -
chinese New Year - marks the 2nd year home from Australia -
Is there any changes? Well, I would say I'm working harder, achieving more in my job
Personal life is still the same.. everything's the same, but I believe that things will change slowly - we'll just wait and c
Sunday, January 30, 2005
For Fun -
1.are u serious when it comes to relationships?
Yes.
2. are you afraid of commitments?
Depending.. at the moment, a little
3. are u a risK taKer?
Risk taker, depending on the circumstances and situations
4. wat can u say abt. long distance relationships?
If both parties want it to work, the distance won't b a barrier
5. Can u love a person who doesn't love u?
yea, I can... and I always wish them happiness, that the will find the one that they love too
6. do actions speak louder than words?
yeah...
7. hav u felt/found true love?
erm... not sure
8. how can u say that a person luvs you?
I can't say how a person love me, because I'm not sure. But sometimes, I guess you can feel the person's love
9. are you good in handling relationships?
it's something that ppl will learn
10. willing to give everything?
why not?
11. the best thing u've learned from loving?
I've learnt to trust, to care, to be real, to be true and to be there for those who needs u
12. do u demand ur luv1 to change into someone?
not really, one should learn to appreciate and accept the others as they are - we may voice out our dislike and all, but it all depends on the other party as well rite?
13. wud u let go of some1 u love??
I will.. if the need arises. My heart will hurt for sure, but if there's a need to do so, I will
14. are u a one guy gal & vice versa type of person?
If you mean being faithful, then I am
15. is sex important in a relationship?
Sex is part of relationship within marriage - God's gift as well
16. how do u express ur luv to someone?
err... I don't know... haha, yet to eva try - well, I do tell my close frens that I love them... by words and by actions I guess
17. wat is the major reason for a breaK up?
er... neva have a relationship b4, so neva experience break up as well
18. most important ingredient in a relationship?
love, trust and care
20. one thing u hate about love?
There's nothing to hate about love
21. one thing u like about love?
The joy it brings along
22. worst thing u did to a love one?
er....
23. are you in love?
sort of
24. with whom?
God lor
25. do u have a bf/gf?
neva
26. why?
because ... too many reasons to list down - let Him decide when lor
27. are you a hopelessly romantic?
I might be one..
28. do you get tired of loving ?
sometimes it gets very tiring loving someone u love but that person don't love u, but.. I've learnt to leave it to God to help me
29. who has changed your view about loving?
God and friends
30. message to your loved one?
friends: thank you for loving me as well
1.are u serious when it comes to relationships?
Yes.
2. are you afraid of commitments?
Depending.. at the moment, a little
3. are u a risK taKer?
Risk taker, depending on the circumstances and situations
4. wat can u say abt. long distance relationships?
If both parties want it to work, the distance won't b a barrier
5. Can u love a person who doesn't love u?
yea, I can... and I always wish them happiness, that the will find the one that they love too
6. do actions speak louder than words?
yeah...
7. hav u felt/found true love?
erm... not sure
8. how can u say that a person luvs you?
I can't say how a person love me, because I'm not sure. But sometimes, I guess you can feel the person's love
9. are you good in handling relationships?
it's something that ppl will learn
10. willing to give everything?
why not?
11. the best thing u've learned from loving?
I've learnt to trust, to care, to be real, to be true and to be there for those who needs u
12. do u demand ur luv1 to change into someone?
not really, one should learn to appreciate and accept the others as they are - we may voice out our dislike and all, but it all depends on the other party as well rite?
13. wud u let go of some1 u love??
I will.. if the need arises. My heart will hurt for sure, but if there's a need to do so, I will
14. are u a one guy gal & vice versa type of person?
If you mean being faithful, then I am
15. is sex important in a relationship?
Sex is part of relationship within marriage - God's gift as well
16. how do u express ur luv to someone?
err... I don't know... haha, yet to eva try - well, I do tell my close frens that I love them... by words and by actions I guess
17. wat is the major reason for a breaK up?
er... neva have a relationship b4, so neva experience break up as well
18. most important ingredient in a relationship?
love, trust and care
20. one thing u hate about love?
There's nothing to hate about love
21. one thing u like about love?
The joy it brings along
22. worst thing u did to a love one?
er....
23. are you in love?
sort of
24. with whom?
God lor
25. do u have a bf/gf?
neva
26. why?
because ... too many reasons to list down - let Him decide when lor
27. are you a hopelessly romantic?
I might be one..
28. do you get tired of loving ?
sometimes it gets very tiring loving someone u love but that person don't love u, but.. I've learnt to leave it to God to help me
29. who has changed your view about loving?
God and friends
30. message to your loved one?
friends: thank you for loving me as well
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Testimonials
Was reading the testimonials posted by my friends whom I've met when I was in Australia. Amazes me to know that a person can change so much. Was very touched by what they wrote, for to a person who is insecure, it serves as a great encouragement.
Major changes happening in the office:
1. A group of colleagues got transferrred recently to another dept
2. Another group of colleagues leaving to another dept as well - to be based in KL
3. My cool supervisor is also leaving to another dept
3. A sucky lady might become my supervisor - total dislike - because she's the type that looks down on ppl... suck man
Sigh, am anticipating the massive changes that's going to happen. Am wondering if i'll be staying here for long. When I was about to come into this company, my friend was telling me that a lot of ppl fighting to enter and take up the positions offered - but when you're in, I don't think it's that cool either. Oh well, whatever that comes will come. Will b praying about whether to move on or to stay - God's will
Was reading the testimonials posted by my friends whom I've met when I was in Australia. Amazes me to know that a person can change so much. Was very touched by what they wrote, for to a person who is insecure, it serves as a great encouragement.
Major changes happening in the office:
1. A group of colleagues got transferrred recently to another dept
2. Another group of colleagues leaving to another dept as well - to be based in KL
3. My cool supervisor is also leaving to another dept
3. A sucky lady might become my supervisor - total dislike - because she's the type that looks down on ppl... suck man
Sigh, am anticipating the massive changes that's going to happen. Am wondering if i'll be staying here for long. When I was about to come into this company, my friend was telling me that a lot of ppl fighting to enter and take up the positions offered - but when you're in, I don't think it's that cool either. Oh well, whatever that comes will come. Will b praying about whether to move on or to stay - God's will
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Wonderful Gathering
A friend of mine came up from Singapore recently for a visit and we had a gathering last nite. Met a few friends whom I have not met for a while. It was quite a cool gathering, for we have a good laugh when Yen Fen came and started talking. She's definitely the cutest girl/woman around who could talk non-stop. So animated and cute. Haha, and her constant talk about her b**s was quite farnee. Really had a wonderful time hanging out with them. Indescribable man the feeling. Really reminds me of the wonderful time that we have when we were in Gippsland. We might not be staying near the rest of them who are in south, but it was cool being "PR".. haha...
Things are really different now. Out of the number of us who are out, Chris was the only one who's studying. Sigh, all of us are working and there's like heaps of stories to tell man... too many, too tiring I guess at times.
The few days Chris was around was cool, hanged out and gotta relaxed. Though I din rest much but it was cool still..
Tmw's back to work man
A friend of mine came up from Singapore recently for a visit and we had a gathering last nite. Met a few friends whom I have not met for a while. It was quite a cool gathering, for we have a good laugh when Yen Fen came and started talking. She's definitely the cutest girl/woman around who could talk non-stop. So animated and cute. Haha, and her constant talk about her b**s was quite farnee. Really had a wonderful time hanging out with them. Indescribable man the feeling. Really reminds me of the wonderful time that we have when we were in Gippsland. We might not be staying near the rest of them who are in south, but it was cool being "PR".. haha...
Things are really different now. Out of the number of us who are out, Chris was the only one who's studying. Sigh, all of us are working and there's like heaps of stories to tell man... too many, too tiring I guess at times.
The few days Chris was around was cool, hanged out and gotta relaxed. Though I din rest much but it was cool still..
Tmw's back to work man
Monday, January 17, 2005
Am reading someone's blog, was so amazed by his faith. He went through
quite a lot, and I envy him and his faith in God. Maybe he has a good
upbringing in that sense, but I also believe that God work him well.
Praise Him for that as well. To know that someone out there is walking
closely to God makes me yearn even more. Makes me want to reach out to
this person and say, hey, can you tell me how can you be so close to
God?
Lord, like the song I am listening to now (and yearning to sing it out
loud to you) I want yearn to reach out to you and be drawn closer to
you. I want to reach out higher and higher, to soar like the eagles, to
be close to you once again Lord.
Sometimes I wonder, what am I doing here? Why isn't there anyone who
would really love me and show that love to me. I now realise why I love
being around them. It's because they show that they love me and that
they care for me. A lot of people doesn't realise that if you tell me
that you love me, it means a lot to me. It might just be words for you,
but to me, it meant a lifetime to me. Because to know that I am being
loved, to know that someone out there is loving me for me, I feel
cherished and touched. I could never ever reject one's love of that
sort, because to me, love is equal to life as well. For God so loved
the world, that he gave His only son to die for us! Because God loves
us so much, He is willing to give His son's life for us.. for me. He
gave His son's life for me! Wow... it's amazing what love can do...
truly truly amazing.
It's amazing what other people's thoughts and emotions propel and
interest me. I find it interesting reading what Mark Nam writes in his
blog. There's so much emotion in the things that he writes. Seldom see
or even meet a guy who is so emotionally intuned to himself. Does find
him interesting. Sometimes it hits us that someone so different is
living somewhere around this world and to read and to feel the truth and
the reality of it makes you think about your own life. Does it interest
other people? Will I be able to capture the heart and attention of
others. Sometimes, as I think back of what I've written, it seems like
I'm pulling for other people's pity. Sad isn't it, to come to that
state where you need other people's pity. Well, I seriously don't want
other people's pity. Maybe sometimes I just need someone to listen to
me, but that's really hard. Because in life, everyone wants everyone
else to listen to what they have to say and all. Yet, I know of one
person who would always listen to what we have to say. God is always
here, waiting for us to talk to Him, to tell Him about our stuff and
all. I know, I truly know that sometimes we tend to ignore Him with the
fact that He's not visible in our eyes. Yet, in our heart, He can be so
visible and so true. If only we take the initiative to try to see and
reach out to him from our hearts. For as we draw closer to Him, we will
be able to see the changes that can take place in our lives. I yearn
for the changes to take place in my life. It's hard, and it takes a lot
of effort trying to be close to Him once again, but yet, I believe if we
try, taking that small little baby step, He'll be so happy, grinning and
say, atta girl.. come on, I'm here to help you too. I want that,
seriously....
quite a lot, and I envy him and his faith in God. Maybe he has a good
upbringing in that sense, but I also believe that God work him well.
Praise Him for that as well. To know that someone out there is walking
closely to God makes me yearn even more. Makes me want to reach out to
this person and say, hey, can you tell me how can you be so close to
God?
Lord, like the song I am listening to now (and yearning to sing it out
loud to you) I want yearn to reach out to you and be drawn closer to
you. I want to reach out higher and higher, to soar like the eagles, to
be close to you once again Lord.
Sometimes I wonder, what am I doing here? Why isn't there anyone who
would really love me and show that love to me. I now realise why I love
being around them. It's because they show that they love me and that
they care for me. A lot of people doesn't realise that if you tell me
that you love me, it means a lot to me. It might just be words for you,
but to me, it meant a lifetime to me. Because to know that I am being
loved, to know that someone out there is loving me for me, I feel
cherished and touched. I could never ever reject one's love of that
sort, because to me, love is equal to life as well. For God so loved
the world, that he gave His only son to die for us! Because God loves
us so much, He is willing to give His son's life for us.. for me. He
gave His son's life for me! Wow... it's amazing what love can do...
truly truly amazing.
It's amazing what other people's thoughts and emotions propel and
interest me. I find it interesting reading what Mark Nam writes in his
blog. There's so much emotion in the things that he writes. Seldom see
or even meet a guy who is so emotionally intuned to himself. Does find
him interesting. Sometimes it hits us that someone so different is
living somewhere around this world and to read and to feel the truth and
the reality of it makes you think about your own life. Does it interest
other people? Will I be able to capture the heart and attention of
others. Sometimes, as I think back of what I've written, it seems like
I'm pulling for other people's pity. Sad isn't it, to come to that
state where you need other people's pity. Well, I seriously don't want
other people's pity. Maybe sometimes I just need someone to listen to
me, but that's really hard. Because in life, everyone wants everyone
else to listen to what they have to say and all. Yet, I know of one
person who would always listen to what we have to say. God is always
here, waiting for us to talk to Him, to tell Him about our stuff and
all. I know, I truly know that sometimes we tend to ignore Him with the
fact that He's not visible in our eyes. Yet, in our heart, He can be so
visible and so true. If only we take the initiative to try to see and
reach out to him from our hearts. For as we draw closer to Him, we will
be able to see the changes that can take place in our lives. I yearn
for the changes to take place in my life. It's hard, and it takes a lot
of effort trying to be close to Him once again, but yet, I believe if we
try, taking that small little baby step, He'll be so happy, grinning and
say, atta girl.. come on, I'm here to help you too. I want that,
seriously....
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