Underlying things has been happening in my life at the moment. Sometimes I find that things ain't right, yet there are times where I get so tired trying to figure things out that I ended up not doing anything at all.

Work work work... that's the main spotlight in my life at the moment. I guess lots of us are facing the same thing as well. So called work is from 9am to 5.30pm, but time and again I only find myself travelling home after 8.30pm... but compared to a friend of mine, I should be thankful that I am actually going home before 12am. Is this the life that I want to live, not really.. but I guess sometimes the society would shape our lives.. maybe this is one of the matter. Though we desire and want something different, but reality hits you and you just can't run away.

Dilemma is another spotlight in my life.. so many decisions to make, so many things that's holding us down and such. So tired of lots of things. I'm definitely different from last time, can my silly side continue to live in this world? Truly wonder at times.. miss the time where I don't have to worry so much and just do what I'm doing. Yet, now that I'm older, there are things that I want and yet, I can't reach for them. I guess I would have to wait on God for His timing of the things that He would want to give to me. I pray that I would have the patience...

Emotions that can't be describe continue to swirl in my heart... Longing continue to grow immensely... sometimes, I wonder why I'm feeling lonely.. I pray that I'll be able to fight off the feeling and not let it sink me... I pray... I pray with all my heart, that you'll grant me the desires of my heart.

Awake oh thee, hear the cry of my heart
Reach out and touch, the soul that is dormant
Let not the heart quiet down
But let it beat steadily with thee