The Sleeping Dictionary

I was just lazing around on Saturday night when the movie "The Sleeping Dictionary" came onscreen. I have read some reviews on it previously on the newspaper and found it interesting, but being the forgetful me, did not pursue to watch it. Nonetheless, with my initial interest in it, I've decided to watch it. And truly, it is quite interesting. I sat there watching it till past 1 at night with my mom, so there you go (plus my mom seldom watch english movies). Whether it's fictional or not, it does open up my eyes to see the beauty of Sarawak.

I'm not good at writing review and thus I will not pursue it here. But here's the sypnosis that I've managed to find:



Sypnosis:

In the 1920's, a young British officer journeys to a remote jungle outpost, where he encounters some unusual local customs: a beautiful young woman is assigned to ostensibly tutor him in the native language, but it becomes clear that she is some kind of army-allotted concubine. When the officer falls in love with the woman, both the military and the local tribe are thrown into turmoil.

The Greatest Advice

THE GREATEST ADVICE
- Rick Warren, the Purpose Driven Life

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate!

Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Ms./ Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Ms. /Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.

No one completes you - except YOU.
It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.

Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.
Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.

God is good all the time!

The Purpose Driven Life - Rick Warren
(Over 10 million copies sold, # 1 BEST- SELLER
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Malaysia bites back and industriously trades the insults
by Michael Backman
The Age
November 29, 2006

MY LAST column on wasteful government spending in Malaysia (Business, 15/11) generated a furore. I received more than 600 emails from readers, mostlyMalaysians (both expatriate and in Malaysia) and nearly all supportive.

The column was the most emailed item on The Age's website for six days straight and it was replicated in dozens of blogs worldwide.

My personal website received more than 50,000 hits. AMalaysian Government minister criticised thecolumn publicly. And the Malaysian Opposition Leader issued a news release in its support.

The minister, Rafidah Aziz, Malaysia's Minister for Trade and Industry, declared somewhat imperiouslythat she didn't care what I said because I am a foreigner and I probably don't know much about Malaysia anyway.

Rafidah knows her trade brief like few others. Her knowledge of the complex rules of the international trading system, with its many trade barriers, is remarkable. In meetings with other trade ministers, she rarely needs assistance from minders. Hard working and tenacious, I once thought she might make areasonable prime minister.

But her technical abilities are marred by her mishandling of other issues, most recently her ministry's allocation of much coveted car import permits. Most went to a handful of well-connected businessmen, including her own relatives.

The issue exploded in Malaysia late last year and she was lucky to keep her job.

And then there are the corruption allegations. In 1995, in are port to the attorney-general, the public prosecutor said there was a prima facie basis for Rafidah'sarrest and prosecution on five counts of corruption.

An opposition activist later acquired official documentsthat appeared to confirm this. He was jailed for two years under the Official Secrets Act simply for possessing them. Rafidah, on the other hand, was not even charged.

Rafidah added to her remarks about my column that no Malaysian should say such things. It's little wonder that she doesn't welcome scrutiny from her own people. But then the idea that Malaysians cannot comment publicly about how their country is run but a non-Malaysian can, is disgraceful.

Perhaps Rafidah needs to be reminded who pays her salary.

And as if to underscore my points about waste, on the day that my column was published, an assistant minister told the Malaysian Parliament that Malaysia's first astronaut to be sent into space next year aboard a Russian space mission will be tasked to play batu seremban, a traditional Malay children'sgame played with pebbles, will do some batik painting and will make teh tarik, a type of Malaysian milky tea, all to see how these things can be done without gravity.

The day before, the Government announced that a new RM400million ($A142 million) palace will be built for Malaysia's king, a position that is almost entirely ceremonial.

And the week before a groundbreaking ceremony was held for a second bridge between Penang and the Malaysian peninsular costing RM3 billion, a bridge thatmany consider unnecessary.

Where would the money be better spent?

Education is the obvious answer. But not on school buildings , for it matters less in what children areeducated than how. And how children are educated in Malaysiais a national disaster.

Learning is largely by rote. In an email to me last week, one Malaysian recalled her schooling as being in a system "all about spoon-feeding, memory work and regurgitation. Students are not encouraged to think for themselves and they become adults who swallow everything they're told."

Even the existing system fails many. It has just emerged that in Sabah state, only 46 per cent of thestudents who had sat the UPSR - the exam that students sit before going to secondary school - had passed. One small school actually had a 100 per cent failurerate.

But does the Malaysian Government want creative, critical thinkers? Prime Minister Abdullah Badawi saidto the ruling party's recent general assembly Malaysia needed to make students creative. But that means they must be questioning and thus critical; what hope is there of that when one of Abdullah's own ministers tells Malaysians that they cannot say the things that I can and hundreds of them write to me to complain because they don't feel that they can complain to their own Government?

Malaysia needs to do something. Its oil will run out soon and it has lost much of its appeal to foreign investors - recent UN figures show that from 2004 to 2005, foreign investment in Malaysia fell by 14 percent, when the world economy was enjoying one of its longest periods of growth. One might wonder what the Trade and Industry Minister has actually been doing.

But, while politicians from the ruling party preach aboutMalay nationalism, there are at least some who quietly go about the business of trying to secure the country's future. Not all of them are Chinese.

Two weeks ago, Malaysia's MMC Corporation, together with a local partner, won a $US30 billion infrastructure deal in Saudi Arabia. That's a huge undertaking for any company, let alone a Malaysian one, and just as well too - someone has to pay the bills.

Tired

Two months into work and I'm already tired. Do think that my current work is not for me. Guess I still need to do my best as it is my work at the moment.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
Lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him
and He shall direct your path

tough week

this week has proven to be tough for me at work, similar to the night where i went to watch the play. need to think about certain things right now and to make some decision in my life.

i've hurt my friend's feelings again this week. twice in a roll. how cruel can i be? yet how can i remember everything? sometimes i wonder if i am to take this blame, yet, i do play a part in this and thus, i will bear the blame still.

don't know what to say, don't know how to apologise, don't know what to do..

sigh, God, thank U still that I can rejoice even though things are tough, coz I know U are with me still. Do pull me through this trying times I plead...

Last Monday, 6th Nov 06

Okay, I havent been bloggin for a while. Those who saw me last week would be able to see how stressed out I was at work! Rest assured, I am fine now and things are going on a slow pace (until the next wave of work pile up on me again). Okay, I think I need to justify why I was stressed given that this is a new job and all. Basically, I am required to present my project to our sales general manager and it was quite intense scrutiny as they need to ensure that the event would work and thus, I must be super confident during the presentation (which I’m afraid offffffff) and be able to handle their shots (questions by definition). I was stressed as I was not fully prepared (I feel that I am not) and it’s been quite a while since I need to do such presentation. Sigh, but God is great. As I prayed for peace, it was granted to me and I was quite myself during the presentation. Truly, I thank God for being with me at all times, even though sometimes my little mind cannot comprehend Him.

This week is a little slower after Monday. I’ve done up most of the things that I need to do and I’m actually quite free, come to think of it. I can’t wait for Friday to come, so that I can hang out at my friend’s place for board games and such. But first, there’s this month end session at a bar nearby organised by my office. Since I am new, I gotta give face, so I would definitely be late to my friend’s place. Sigh, it’s gona be crazy, for the fact that the place is at the jammest area eva! Oh well, we are to take things in stride aren’t we JRight now I’m feeling bored and sleepy, counting the time to go home, in 17 minutes! Yay!!

Test Blog

Test Test

Shifted my blog to the beta version, so this is a test :)

Living Bible

His name is Bill. He has wild hair, wears a T-shirt with holes in it, jeans
and no shoes. This was literally his wardrobe for his entire four years of
college. He is brilliant, kind of profound and very, very bright. He became
a Christian while attending college.

Across the street from the campus is a well-dressed, very conservative
church. They want to develop a ministry to the students but are not sure
how to go about it.

One day Bill decides to go there. He walks in with no shoes, wearing his
jeans, his T-shirt, and wild hair. The service has already started
and so Bill starts down the aisle looking for a seat. The church is
completely packed and he can't find a seat. By now, people are really
looking a bit uncomfortable, but no one says anything.

Bill gets closer and closer and closer to the pulpit, and when he realizes
there are no seats, he just squats down right on the carpet. By now the
people are really uptight, and the tension in the air is thick. About this
time, the minister realizes that from way at the back of the church, a
deacon is slowly making his way toward Bill.

Now the deacon is in his eighties, has silver-gray hair, and a three-piece
suit. He is a godly man, very elegant, very dignified and very courtly. He
walks with a cane and, as he starts walking toward this boy, everyone is
saying to themselves that you can't blame him for what he's going to do.

How can you expect a man of his age and of his background to understand
some college kid on the floor? It takes a long time for the man to reach
the boy.

The church is utterly silent except for the clicking of the man's cane. All
eyes are focused on him. You can't even hear anyone breathing. The minister
can't even preach the sermon until the deacon does what he has to do.

And now they see this elderly man drop his cane on the floor. With great
difficulty, he lowers himself and sits down next to Bill and worships with
him so he won't be alone.

Everyone chokes up with emotion. When the minister gains control, he says,
"What I'm about to preach, you will never remember. What you have just
seen, you will never forget."

"Be careful how you live. You may be the only Bible some people will ever read!"

I asked the Lord to bless you as I prayed for you today.
To guide you and protect you as you go along your way.
His love is always with you,
His promises are true,
And when we give Him all our cares,
You know He will see us through.

Prophecy of Jesus being the Messiah

Realization hits me! The old testament prophesy of Jesus' coming years before He was born and us, being around.. read of it, heard of it. But I come to understand this, that Jesus came and fulfilled the prophesy of His death, so that we may LIVE

Old testament:
So they weighed out for my wages thirty pieces of silver... throw it to the potter-that princely price they set on me

new testament:
For 30 shekles, Judas sold Jesus to the Pharisees and such, sealing and fulfilling the prophesy

Old testament:
He was oppressed and He was afflicted, yet He opened not His mouth; He was led as a lamb to the slaughter

new testament:
Jesus was whipped, tortured and was led by the Roman soldiers up to the calvary, but He did not complain nor lament..... He accepted the affliction caused

Old testament:
And they made His grave with the wicked-but with the rich at His death

new testament:
He was crucified with the robbers/thief- and buried by Nicoedemus at the cave

Old testament:
He poured out His soul unto death, and He was numbered with the transgressors, and He bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors

new testament:
Jesus prayed and said, Forgive them Father, for they know not what they are doing

Old testament:
He was bruised for our iniquities; the chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed, All we like sheep have gone astray

new testament:
Did not Jesus suffered the afflictions by the ROman torturous methods? By His stripes, WE ARE HEALED

Dear Father in heaven,
Ya know, Following U is something that I want to do, and it hits me when I realise what great sacrifice U've done so that we may come before U once again. Father, I ask for Ur forgiveness, for I've done a great lot of things that is not right by Ur sight. Forgive me Father. I come before U today Lord.. not asking for anything, but wanting to be in Ur presence...

Ponderings of a girl

26 Oct 2006

Don’t feel like writing, so I’m typing instead. It’s hard for a girl/woman when it comes to the emotional side of things. It’s even harder when it comes to the matter of the opposite gender, where our hearts turned frail and mushy and desolation sets in when there is nothing happening in that aspect.

Being a girl myself, it’s typical that I do feel that too. Sometimes things can be such a downturn that you wonder whether God really have someone in store for you in your life so that you can spend the rest of your life with him (or if you’re a guy reading this, her). You see people being so lovey dovey and you ask God, will I get someone who would love me for who I am, for the person You’ve created me to be? Then again, there are days when you find, hey! FREEDOM! You can just do whatever you want when you’re single and not worry about anything. You can go and serve God wherever He wants you to go, you don’t have to worry about things that may bog you down (of coz, work is one and your immediate family is one, but we shall put that aside for another day J) You don’t have to worry like your friend does, aiya, I need to check with my boyfriend first to see if it’s ok if I join you guys (come one mate, you’re not married to him .. YET).

Hey, I’m not criticizing those that are attached and all, just seeing things from a different viewpoint that’s all. Haha, who knows in the near future I might end up being like that too, calling and checking with my boyfriend (whoever that is) to let him know that I’m meeting who and who and where and when.

Being a girl, I do wish to be on the other side of the picture. Ya know, human sometimes do think that the grass is greener on the other side (well, it does, doesn’t it, to have someone to love and to care for you and to be assured when you need assurance. Of coz, what I meant is a deeper level of love and caring and support). Ya know, to be able to find someone who truly loves you, and all. Sometimes, we also wonder whether we’re destined to be single as well. I know of friends who prayed that God would not let them be single for the rest of their lives, friends who came to accept their singlehood and friends who desperately seeking for that one partner in their lives (ok, I’ve learnt of something during the camp that we ought not to think of it this way, but I betcha there’s heaps who are thinking this way, probably due to the fact that this is what the TV and movies portray, meet your prince charming, he’s the only one and you live happily ever after. Better not go this direction else it’ll be a big diversion).

Being 24 and haven’t even dated before, it’s hardly always positive for me. I’ve dealt with self esteem, self worth and there are still things that I need to deal with. I think anyone would, when people around you asked you the following questions:

- do you have a boyfriend? (when you answer no, series of questions shot out from their mouth)
- have you paktoh before?
- How come never?
- But…

That’s when I look at them in wonderment and ask, I also wish to know why I’ve never paktoh (dated) before. Maybe coz I was never asked by anyone to be their girlfriend? (ok, NO, I will NOT simple say YES just because someone comes up to me and ask me that question). To be honest, I think these kind of questions, although meant well at times, is not that appropriate. Do you know that you will end up hurting the person you’re asking. I know I did during the first few times people asked me that question. During those times I think of questions like:

- Am I not that attractive?
- Am I really that plain?
- Do guys really think of pretty girls (this one I duno ok!) and go for them?
- Does God really want me to be single for my whole life (gotta admit that I’m scared to know the answer to this question)
- Are guys repelled by me?
And a whole list of questions more. I guess the struggles I went through made me strong as well, for I know I am beautiful, for all of God’s creation is beautiful. Beauty should be seen from God’s eyes and not men. Sometimes these questions do creep into my life time and again, but I’ve learnt and am still learning to continue to trust God’s plan for my life. I figured, heck, I’m only 24, who knows, I might meet a guy later and get married right away after that (haha, my friends would probably freak out). Only God have the masterplan in my life and thus, it’s alright.

Ya know, I’ve friends who said this to me, why not just try out with whoever? Who knows, he might be the right one. I know this works for someone, but for my personality and character, I guess this style of try first and see how doesn’t really work for me? The try that I meant here is the kind where you’re a little teeny weeny attracted to a guy and he comes after you and you just say ok without really thinking through. There’s bound to be some criteria (physical criterias aside) that you would want the other party to fulfill. I’m not the kind that want a person to change himself to suit me… but yet, there are things that I do hope that my partner would have. I just want someone who loves God, who would put God even before me, who would love me for who I am and is genuine with himself and with others. I can’t just try with any other guys who come into the picture (haha, it sounds like there’s a lot, but there isn’t any for a while). I guess that’s just me and who I am.

Ya know, it’s tough at times, being single, hanging out with your friends and their boyfriends. I mean, it’s great that you know, they are together and all, but it’s just that sometimes it makes me think about my singleness a bit more than usual. Things such as self-worth, beauty in the eyes of the beholder, self-esteem does crop into your mind and it’s hard to control the self-pity that seems to be screaming to be let out.

A girlfriend of mine is going through this at the moment. And being through it myself, I still can’t find the words to console her and help her pull through it. I don’t know what I can say to her to make her feel better, to help her feel God’s love in her life (she knows that God does love her, but sometimes things just don’t seem to be as positive as you want it to be eh). There are a lot of other factors that comes into to play, but as a respect to her, I will not reveal too much. I can only pray that God will continue to touch her, for I know He is by her side at all times, and He knows of her tiredness, her weariness and also her desire and feelings. Being her friend, even right now, I guess all I can do is just to lend an ear and a shoulder for her to cry/lean on. Even so, I do pray that the Lord will grant me wisdom to be sensitive to her needs and feelings and to help her through this. And I also pray that ya know, she will lay her burden, her tiredness and her despair before God and allow Him to hold her once again.

Ok, I know I’ve rattled quite a bit and I should stop now. Girls out there who are seeking and even guys, I really do trust that God knows what is best for us and maybe, at the moment, He’s using our singlehood to mold us to be the person that He wants us to be and at the same time doing the same for our life partner as well. I do trust that He will bring that person into my life and at the moment, I do pray that God will continue to take good care of him until the time comes for us to meet and be together.

So at the moment, DO ENJOY your singlehood and use it to do wonders for GOD!

God's Glorious Creation

Today I'm reminded of God's glorious creation. It's a wonder, with the sky's clear, rays of sun breaking through the clouds, bringing light to the earth. Really, the song, I stand in awe comes to mind right now as I write these words. His beautiful creation never cease to amaze and make me in awe.. I truly do thank God for the wonders of the world, be it the small one or the great ones, as they represent His love for us.

Just Want to share something I've read with you

The Sovereign LORD has given me an instructed tongue,
to know the word that sustains the weary.
He wakens me morning by morning,
wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. (Isaiah 50:4 NIV)

BE A BOAR!

A wild boar was busily sharpening his tusks against a tree in the forest when a fox came by. “Why are you wasting your time in this manner?” asked the fox. “Neither a hunter nor a hound is in sight, and no danger is at hand.” “True enough,” replied the boar, “but when the danger does arise, I will have something else to do than sharpen my weapons.”

It is not time to prepare our defense when the enemy is on the horizon. That is why boarding an airplane may be more inconvenient these days because it is better to find a weapon on the ground than having it brandished while in the air.

Do I sharpen my spiritual defenses on a regular basis or is my thinking more in line with the fox’s “late is great” mentality? Do I awake each day zealously looking for time to listen to what God has to say to me in his Word and then to follow it? Are my ears truly open or do I have an earful already? Am I prepared to be bombarded with desires to live in a way that satisfies a sinful urge for pleasure? Has God instructed me for times of spiritual weariness when disease rages through me? Am I spiritually equipped to live in a world where evil regularly smirks in apparent victory? Is my tongue ready to encourage and sustain the weary with something more than homespun philosophy or wishful thinking?

Be a boar. Be proactive. Take up God’s Word, the Bible. Learn how to use it. Use it regularly. Open your ears to God’s calling. Keep Satan away. Be sustained. After all, what is amazing about Isaiah 50:4 is that it is foremost a prophecy about what Jesus would do when he walked upon the earth. Although Jesus was true God, as a true human being he would be instructed by God the Father and use the words of the Father to sustain us, the weary.

Challenge of Faith for the day.

I was very challenged and encouraged by certain statements made in my devotional book today and I would like to share with everyone:

"If we are in Christ, we are in the ministry"

"God calls us to be faithful wherever He puts us"

WE are to be faithful: "To be as serious as a heart attack about God and to encourage others to be as well"

"God calls us to be ministers everyday, everywhere"

"God doesn't call the qualified. He qualifies the CALLED"

Ya know, I was talking to a friend and we came to conclusions that there are Christians out there doing ratings about our faith. I remember a conversation (my friend as well) whereby my Christian friend told me this, "you're different ma, your level is different, so expectation in faith also different. "

I was quite stunned! I was like, hello? What you mean level is different? Fine, I do understand that certain people understand certain things at certain age, whereby your maturity comes into play. But don't you think we ought to strive to draw closer to God and come to realise that this world we're living is temporary? Why do you rate and grade people's faith? I do understand that there are certain people around who's faith is still wavering, who is still seeking, so just found the truth and all. But we are called to be ministers! Ya know, new believers challenges our faith! They ask questions that sometimes we never ask ourselves. I know I was very challenged by my friends' faith! They really believe like kids and it amazes me that certain things that they take into account is so ...accepting. I was ashamed of myself and that helped me to buck up!

No, I was not challenged in the way that I must force myself to know more than them, but rather, to build up my own faith as well! It challenged me in asking more in church, during classes and also to read more of the bible.

Hence, brothers and sisters in Christ, be encouraged and challenged by what I've written and let us continue to build our faith and walk on with Him, the one that has given us LIFE and LIFE abundantly!

Today marks the first day I start work at my new office. This company is called ME (best not write it out J ). My manager is nice, she informed me I only need come in to the office at 1030am, two hours later than usual. So I took my time, preparing myself both mentally and physically for the day.

But my eyes were giving me some problem throughout the day, where it was blurry and was causing my eyes to tear a little. Sad to say, I had to endure it throughout the day, as I did not bring my glasses with me.

On thing sad though, it’s that there is no more season parking left. I had to find other alternatives as parking within the building costs like RM20 per day, which is extremely costly and killing.

There’s a lot of readings and information being chucked to me the first day. And I am briefly informed of certain things that I need to do. I was also brought to meet everyone on the floor, that’s like 80 over people and me, being sooo wonderful with names, forgot them, the minute it’s mentioned. But everyone was fine and was telling me that I will DEFINITELY forget the names and hence, would forgive me for it J

That was the wrap for the day, where readings was what I did for the day.

Testimony on New Job

God has been truly good to me, really leading me in many of my decision making opportunities. This is one of them which I want to share with all.

Beginning of year 2006, I’ve thought of changing job. I’ve planned to change around after March, after I get my bonus. Well, my plan is just.. Well, my plan. But God showed me that He has other plans for me. I’ve sent out my resume during the start of the year, on and off, waiting for news to come in for an opening. But it was not so. My waiting continues to be, just that, waiting. It went on for so long that during the month of May, I actually asked God this: Am I such a useless person that no one wants to hire me? Is my resume so bad? Am I deemed to be working in the company for a longer period? I truly did feel that I’m not good enough. But you know, God is truly amazing, and He truly hears my prayer and my questions. And He has his own way of answering my question. A friend called up to inform me that there is an opening in her company, this is an international company by the way; and I casually asked her if the position is alright. Well, I met up with my friend and she informed me of the challenges and the on-goings and etc and so, I’ve passed my resume over to be submitted. Amazingly, the manager for that position informed my friend that he is impressed by my resume and wants to meet up. Even in the email that he sent to me states that. You know, I truly know that it is God’s way of telling me that I am good enough, that I am worthy enough, and I truly am thankful for that.

Well, I went for the interview and I realised one thing after that, that God wants me to wait, I don’t have the peace in my heart to take up the job even if it’s offered to me. And clearly, I know in my heart that God says “September” to me. So I told God this, Lord God, if You want me to wait till September, then fine, I shall wait as You’ve asked me to.

So after that, I continue to focus my attention to my work and occasionally send out my resumes. I started sending them more frequently during the month of June and July.. Definitely so cause September is just around the corner. Still, there is no news and I started to get a little worried. But my heart still continues to pray and uphold this to Jesus.

Miraculously, the last week of July marks the change in my life. Calls from companies started to come in, asking me try out certain positions and to attend interviews. I truly thank God for the chances He’s given me, to meet with the different persons and the different companies.

Even during this time, I was still seeking God for the right job. I’m not very sure what I want to do, still seeking and still learning. But one thing for sure is that I don’t want to work in a place where God does not approve. Hence, I continue to pray and commit this search into His hands. Finally, it was narrowed down to two, and it was probably like one of two weeks before September comes. And furthermore, I would need to give an answer to my then current job by first week of September on whether I am to renew my contract or not. One of the jobs that I interviewed would only give me an answer two weeks later as they regional manager would only be back then. So, on Tuesday on the last week of August, which coincides with the revival night meetings, I went for an interview in the morning. Before I enter the place, I prayed and told God this, God I know that there would be two companies who may be offering me a position. But God, I am not looking at the money, but rather, Your approval. I pray that the right job would be the job that offers me a position first. You decide which one is going to offer to me first and I will follow it through. Once again, I cannot emphasize enough on how miraculous God works. ON that day of interview, the manager offered me the position on the spot! I was so thankful and so utterly speechless after that. God is really amazing when it comes to answering prayer.

From this too, I’ve learnt not one, but two lesson. The first is that God really does answer our prayers. Sometimes we feel that He doesn’t, but He does. It’s just that His answer for me from the beginning was to wait. And when we obey, we will be able to see God’s handiwork in our lives.

Another one is what Proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” You see, I can make whatever plans that I want and decide on when to execute it, but at the end of the day, it is our Lord Father who decides for us.

So, praise God for His works in my life and I pray too, that everyone would be able to see God’s work in your lives and you continue to walk with God.

Update 2: Worship Conference

My church organised a Worship Conference from 31 August up till 2 Sept (yes yes, I know.. late entry..) and it was definitely magnificent! I can't believe that it was so amazing. Actually it started with a revival meeting from MOnday to Wednesday... I went on Tuesday, thinking that I would go one day and then only go for the conference on Thursday. Happily I went, thinking of nothing, just bringing my colleague with me. But woah, I was so blown away by Pastor Timothy Yeung who was sharing. Granted, I may not understand fully some of the things that he said as he is from Hong Kong and his cantonese is kinda deep, but I do manage to get a gist of things :)

Pastor Timothy Yeung and Pastor Stella Yeung (husband and wife)

Seriously was so blown away by Pastor and God's presence in that place. It was such a refreshing experience to be so filled by God's presence, to be with Him and to worship Him so deeply.

This worship conference is really mind blowing! Why do I say that? Have you ever experience being with God so much, so much that you can't do anything but worship Him? Have you experience .. by closing your eyes, God's presence fill your heart immediately? Have you ever, by stepping into the place of worship, you feel the need to worship Him immediately? This is the first time I've felt such feelings coming up from the very depth of my heart.

Thank you Father for allowing me to know that the many things that I'm doing now is pleasing to You. I also know that there are so many things that I still need to learn and also to be changed by you.. I pray that I would be able to do so. Thank you Father for allowing me to experience you and to be in your presence. Thank you for allowing me to touch you, to reach out to you and to be loved by you.

It's hard to desribe my feelings and the amazement of being in God's presence.. but here's some pictures for your perusal.

people were so touched by God that they were either crying or laughing and just worshipping Him from their hearts.

UPDATESSSSS

As promised.. here's the update from me!

New Job
To those who does not know (which I think most would be anticipating this, since I mentioned it earlier), I would be starting my new job next Wednesday, 4 Oct. Would be working in a company called M.E. (ask me if u wana know), a event management company, more towards seminars and conferences. I dare not say that this is my dream job whatsoever, but it would definitely be a new exposure for me. Having worked in M. for the past two years (can you imagine!! two years mate!), I would say that I've learnt quite a lot, from both personal aspect and also professional aspect. But I find that there is not much that I can learn from the professional aspect and things are not going fast enough to support me.. hence the decision to move into something else. Besides that, truly, customer service is not my cup of tea. I guess I've had enough of that...

I noe, there are friends who says that customer service is what you do in every job at the end of the day.. I'd agree with that, but there are different kind of customer service that's involved. Being in one of the most demanding ones have kept me on my toes for the past two years, with late nights at the office almost everyday and not having enough sleep nor changes happening in the company could keep me here again.

OK, back to the new job.. as mentioned, I would be starting work next Wednesday and would be working in KL... downtown KL. The dreadful thing about this is the traffic!! argh!!! it would definitely be bad working in the jammest area in KL.. haha.. God, I truly pray for patience on the road everyday. I need to change my sleeping habit as well.. gotta sleep wayyyyy earlier than usual as I would need to wake up like 6am!! My goodness, I havent done that since high school ok... and besides that, food's gona be expensive too... sigh... there goes the money!

okok.. it's not that bad, at least i get to park inside the building at RM120 per month, which is quite a bargain in itself.. at least to me.. i don't have to worry about the rain and all and I betcha my heels won't spoil so easily.. hahaha..another one is that I would have a friend working the same place as me! For once.. well, we're definitely not that close, but I guess I get along with her :)

Will leave everything in God's hands :)

Oh.. since this is quite long.. will update the rest again later on.. gotta share about how I got this job too.. God really is amazing .. AGAIN!!! He's always shocking me.. hahaha... but I love every suprise that He gives me... am thankful too... Will let u noe later k

Jotters

There's so many things that's happened since last month but I've yet to make any updates. Gosh... okay guys, here are some of the things that I will update by next week, for now, topics:

1. New Job
2. Worship Conference
3. Holiday in Spore
4. Work
5. Friend's shop closed
6. Dinner with high school mates
7. Birthday celebration
8. Break before new job

and more to come. Gosh, that's a lot of updates.. so.. hope that ya all would be patient with me :)

Learning to Trust God more

There's a reason why the title is chosen to be as such. As a mere human, there are times we are so overwhelmed with things around us, so busy with things around us that we forget to trust God.

Likewise for me, I am also learning to trust God more. The past few months has been like a typhoon, being swept away by my work and also the happenings in my life. I could barely find time for myself, let alone time for God. Ok, I am guilty of not spending time with God. Come on, let's admit it, each one of us struggle with this too. I don't want to be a Christian who claims perfection, but who is also a mere human, flawed and all, but by the grace of God, learning to stand on her own two feet and places honesty as high as possible in her life.

Neways, what I wanted to share if God's impeccable timing in my life. Many of you know that I am planning to leave my current job and have been actively searching for a while. Yet, I struggle in this aspect of trusting God to, ya know, reveal to me the right time to leave and also for a new job. I have been sending resumes out and to my disappointment and to my security, no one actually called me up for anything at all. I felt so useless and all, all the while questioning myself and God, on my own capabilities.

There was a chance interview which I went to that God affirmed to me on my capabilities, that I am good at (i'm not being boastful k) what I can do. But God also revealed to me at that interview that the timing is not right. The month of September came into my and the sense of peace engulfed me at that time to trust God and wait on in my current job till September.

That is until two months ago, when my streak of panic and worry sets in again, kicking me into once again sending resumes and etc to companies to see if they want to hire this crazy girl to work in their company.

And this time, amazingly... God has been opening so many doors for me to venture in. Companies after companies called me up asking me to go for interviews. And God's timing is so amazing! Should any of these companies would want me, I should get to start in October, after my contract ends. Splendid ain't it?

Now, I am learning to trust God to lead me to the right job.. allow Him to direct my path and etc.

Father God, I am truly thankful to U, for Ur impeccable timing and for Ur amazing assurance in my life. I know that I am still struggling with certain worries and etc. But Lord, I want to commit my worries in Ur hands. I pray for favour as I attend the interviews and I pray that U will direct me to the right job. May U close the ones that is not suitable and grant me peace.

Thank U Lord for granting me assurance. I pray Lord that I would continue to serve U and put U first in my life.

In Jesus' most precious and glorious name I pray, AMEN

Sucks

Living in a country where ppl try to show off but are too dumb to do it well and ended being looked down upon

Living in a country where ppl are just plain lazy - so much so that their asses are kicked and didn't know it

Living in a country where ppl are just being a pain in the ass and doesn't realise it

Living in a country where it makes me vomit blood interacting with these ppl

What a life - God, I beg u, pls open a door for me to leave this sickening office so that I don't have to deal with such sickening ppl and customers.

Sigh, honestly, i'd rather they be a show off and be a blardy good one instead of doing it half way and showing me how dumb you are. Man.. I have nothing to say to such ppl..

Love

Loving someone and being in love is not easy... saw this in many of my friends' lives. People whom I thought is so blessed to find someone they love, suddenly turned around tells me, ya know, we broke up over this and that, and now.. we're once again giving each other a chance.. I'm at lost at what to say.. all I can do is just be around to listen to them and ya noe, offer comfort God's way.

It's scary knowing things like these would happen very so often.. but to face it myself, I fear I do not have such courage. I guess what they say is true, being in love is so easy, but when it comes to really loving someone, it requires so much courage and self sacrifice from both sides that .. ya know.. that's really hard.

Lord, I pray for my friends Lord, who are currently in such dilemma. We know that You are God over these relationships and I pray that You will continue to show them what You desire them to have in relationships. May You bless them and lead them, guide them and may You be Lord over them.

A week filled with cough

What a week this has been. Was kinda sick last Thursday, and thinking that it was a mild thing, I did not go to see doctor. What a bad choice, I was coughing so badly come Monday that my supervisor actually asked me to go home early. Went to see a doctor then and was told I have infection. Put on medication for a few days.

The next day, after taking the prescribed medicine the night before, I woke up feeling extremely dizzy and disoriented. After getting my bearings a little, I thought I could go to work... wrong thought, after washing up my face and coming out of the toilet, I once again feeling disoriented. Feeling that something is not right, I called up the clinic that I went to (thank GOd it was a 24 hours clinic) and spoke to the doctor. He said that it's due to the medication and thus, reduced my dosage on the phone...Gave me MC for the day (which I went to take at 4 something in the evening) and proceeded to sleep! This sleep is not the normal sleep, but rather, drug induced sleep... sigh...

Nonetheless, I have a good rest on Tuesday... thinking that things would be better as the week goes on... wrong again. I was coughing the minute I stepped into the office! The ironic thing is, I'm NOT coughing when I'm at home! Must be due to the ventilation (or lack of it) in the office.. sigh.. been having serious coughing fit... bad bad... my colleague actually asked me to get MC for a few more days to recuperate.. but the thoughts of taking MC and having the need to come back and close the cases enough to cover it gives me the shivers.

One thing though, I thank God that my aunt work place is not so far from mine, hence I've been getting free rides from her. Am able to rest some to and fro work.. really thank God for that. Getting free rides means coming home early too.. and have been resting and not doing much stuff....

Tomorrow's SAturday, but am due to some training required at work. Sigh, gone is the idea that I can at least rest at home on weekends. Sunday would again be another long day for me... with class in the morning and church service later of the day. Gotta pray hard that I will get well soon.

3 Years of Blogging

Today marks the third year of me blogging. I know I've been doing so sporadically for probably the past couple of years, but this blog contains the many memories and incidents that has happened in my life. I would that if not for this blog, I would've forgotten the many things that has happened in my life given the fact that my memory sucks.

I never realised that time could past so fast. I could still remember the first time I blogged, having no idea what to write to still, because everyone is blogging, i followed along. Through the many ups and downs that has happened during the last three years, I am truly thankful that I am still alive and well, that I've grown to be stronger and different.

Three years is neither short nor long.. would I still be blogging 3 years down the road? I truly have no idea... but I guess at the moment, I will continue to maybe blog sporadically, whenever I feel like blogging or whenever I want to share something with everyone.

Thank you, ya all for reading my nonsensical stuff all these while and bearing with my craps and stuff...


Love ya all!

Temporary Removal of Tag-board

Dear all,

Due to some unsolicitated postings on my tagboard, I have decided to remove it temporarily.

Hopefully it will stop with the removal and I will get it up in a few weeks/months time.

Life revolves around work

My current life is so revolved around work that I felt like I shouldn't need to go home. Due to some changes in the office, we need to clear everything by this week and thus, I've been working OT every night for the past 3 days. No exception for today as well. Been working up to 930pm at times.. yday was the earliest that I left office, at 830pm. By the time I get home (an hour later) I was so exhausted that I can barely anything else. My night time is pretty much a touch and go, a quick shower, a quick drying of hair, and CRASH onto me bed. Thus the circle starts again.

Tonight I want to go home early though, for I would need to wake up extremely early tomorrow to get to work. We get to leave early tomorrow as there isn't much that we can do after 4pm.

Sometimes I really think that I cannot take this kind of exhaustion, but I truly thank God for being such a support for me during these times. Truly, without Him, I would've broke down and cried my heart out.

Was talking to a friend about our inner self and exterior self. This is something we've known for very long, but human being human, we're so caught up with exteriority of things that we neglect the inner persons.

One may seemed to be tough on the outside, but they may be fragile inside. Thus, never judge a book by its cover, for as you flipped through the pages of a person's life, you may uncover the many brokenness and reasons of its exterior.

Need to find time to get away from everything that is surrounding me at the moment. Need to break free from this, God help me... I want to spend more time with U.

Life revolves around work

My current life is so revolved around work that I felt like I shouldn't need to go home. Due to some changes in the office, we need to clear everything by this week and thus, I've been working OT every night for the past 3 days. No exception for today as well. Been working up to 930pm at times.. yday was the earliest that I left office, at 830pm. By the time I get home (an hour later) I was so exhausted that I can barely anything else. My night time is pretty much a touch and go, a quick shower, a quick drying of hair, and CRASH onto me bed. Thus the circle starts again.

Tonight I want to go home early though, for I would need to wake up extremely early tomorrow to get to work. We get to leave early tomorrow as there isn't much that we can do after 4pm.

Sometimes I really think that I cannot take this kind of exhaustion, but I truly thank God for being such a support for me during these times. Truly, without Him, I would've broke down and cried my heart out.


Was talking to a friend about our inner self and exterior self. This is something we've known for very long, but human being human, we're so caught up with exteriority of things that we neglect the inner persons.

One may seemed to be tough on the outside, but they may be fragile inside. Thus, never judge a book by its cover, for as you flipped through the pages of a person's life, you may uncover the many brokenness and reasons of its exterior.

Need to find time to get away from everything that is surrounding me at the moment. Need to break free from this, God help me... I want to spend more time with U.

Too fast and overwhelming

Things have been happening too fast in my life.. so much so that I don't seem to be able to find the time to catch my breath.

Sometimes I feel like crying, sometimes I feel numb.. very hard to be stable and all at times as well.

OH Father God Almighty, I pray for Ur stability in me. U're my anchor, U're my hope. No matter what I am feeling, no matter what I am going through, I can only rely on U. Who can I look up to but U? Who can I seek but U in time of need?

Father Lord God, thank U for being so real in my life. Thank U for being faithful and patient with me, the stubborn person that I am. Forgive me Lord, for the wrongs I've done, forgive me for the sins I've committed. U are God, U are Holy, U are great and strong, yet, U are gentle, U are loving, U are caring and most of all, U are forgiving.

We've always beat ourselves when we did something wrong and things didn't work the way that we want it to be. Ya know, no matter what, at the end of the day, God still loves u all the same. Like the parable of the prodigal son, He awaits anxiously for us to return to Him, and when we do, He is so happy that the whole heaven are throwing a feast for US! Can u believe, one that is so unworthy to even be a servant in the house of the Father, yet, He still treats us and cares for us like the doting Father that He is.

Father God, forgive me for my sins I seek. Thank U for loving me all the same, thank U for being the loving and most caring Father that one could have in their lives. Thank U Jesus, my dearest brother and SAviour, for the gift of life U have given to me. I don't know what I can say or do that could show U how grateful that I am for this gift.. given to us without seeking any return from us, so that we may once again be loved by our Father.. I truly am eternally grateful to U.

Lord God almighty

Oh Lord my God, the King of kings and Lord of lords.

Father in heaven, I seek for more of You in my life Lord. Fill my very being with Your presence Lord. I surrender, and I don't care what others may say. I need You, without You I would've died and not have life, without You I would've been the worst person ever on earth and know no goodness, without You I would not have known such great love, with You I will be condemned!

But with You, I have found life, with You I have found love, with You I am alive, with You I have my identity, with You I have a purpose in life, with You I am forgiven, with You I am in amazed..

Thank You for life, thank You for love, thank You for the purpose, thank You for the amazement...

Director

Erm, this personality test is kinda dodgy.. i feel lar

Free-Wheeling Director

Personality - Director

This personality test is kinda dodgy... but .. hmm... not entirely true lar.. but for fun.. kekeke

A lil bored

Haih haih, I'm actually a little bored these days. I have no idea what did I do with my time and why it flies so fast nowadays. My day usually consist of
1. working
2. going to gym (which I have not been doing for two weeks)/ church (if needed)
3. bed

Wat a way to let my days pass by. Yet everyday I'm home I'm feeling dead tired... whatever am I gona do with myself man... haihh...

PPL... ENTERTAIN ME!!!

siao liao...

What is Love

What is Love if you do not know the ultimate Love?
What is Love if you cannot comprehend His Love?
What is Love if you are filled with hatred?
What is Love if you are filled with jealousy?

What is Love truly?
Can we love fully without knowing the truth about Love?
Can we love unconditionally on our own?
Can we say, I love You and then turn away?
Can we say I love You and then walk away?

What is Love truly?
I wish I know the answer
I wish I can love the way He does
I wish I can love with all my might
Can I? I wonder...

One thing I know, GOd is love. I can never love unconditionally like Him.. so unconditional that He rather let His Son die on our behalf than to see us perish for eternity.

What is the truth? The truth is GOd is love. He loves us and will never forsake us. He loves us and will always wait patiently at the door of our hearts. He loves us and am willing to be hurt time and again by us, so that for once, we will be willing to let Him into our hearts. He loves us and is willing to heal the wounds in our hearts. He loves us and is willing to show us His love.
He loves us.......

When You're Bogged down with Things

Realised that when you are bogged down with things, you can only rely on His strength to help You carry on.

Dear Lord,

I pray for Your strength Lord to overcome the difficulties that I am facing right now. Direct my path that I may walk in accordance to Your ways. Things may be tough right now, but Lord, I trust You to help me get through this, becuase You say that Your grace is sufficient. Thank You Lord for the promises You have given us that we may hold on in life.

Love You always and forever.

Things that never fails to amaze me everytime i read them

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.

They talked about so many things and various subjects.When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."

"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.

"Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?

Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.
I can't imagine a loving a God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt.

The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and hesaid to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist."

"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"

"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! What happens is that people do not come to me.""Exactly!"- affirmed the customer.

"That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens is that people don't go to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

BE BLESSED & BE A BLESSING

"Faith is a journey, not a destination."

Job Offer

This I gotta share with ya all... I find it so farnee!

I spoke to this person, asking for a customer.. I think all I said to him was, "Good evening, am I speaking to ....?" He answered no, and passed the phone over to the customer. After checking with customer on something, the phone was abruptly passed to the initial person...

He went on and said' "Hello? If you're looking for a receptionist job, call back this number ok?" I went blur, hahaha.. I actually said, eh... oh okies... and hanged up...

I find it quite funny, as there wasn't even a minute of conversation with him and he offered a job to me. I told this to my aunt who said, "you should tell him, can you pay a big sum for a graduate to be a receptionist??" haha.. i would imagine how blur the customer could be.. hahah..

OK, if you dun find it farnee it's ok...

Attended a wedding today.. the bridegroom and bride looks wonderful together. While on stage doing a presentation with my fellow church mates, I could see the joy in the bride's eyes and smile.. but what's amazing is that, on that wonderful day, the bridegroom is still very much praising God during the celebration praise. Praise God for this wonderful union. I would think the dinner is on right now... On this occasion I would think of Eadwine and his wonderful photos. I am always amazed to see the feelings in his photos, one that you could not see in many others. I've actually checked out other websites before, but I would still think that his is great. Maybe people may think me as partial... but oh well.. he is a fren of mine nonetheless... May God continue to bless him and may his photos continue to bless the couples.

That reminds me, I think the photographer took quite a number of our pictures on stage, as we were practising earlier and all... hmm.. must ask the bride for some pictures.... keke..

God bless them...

Job Offer

This I gotta share with ya all... I find it so farnee!

I spoke to this person, asking for a customer.. I think all I said to him was, "Good evening, am I speaking to ....?" He answered no, and passed the phone over to the customer. After checking with customer on something, the phone was abruptly passed to the initial person...

He went on and said' "Hello? If you're looking for a receptionist job, call back this number ok?" I went blur, hahaha.. I actually said, eh... oh okies... and hanged up...

I find it quite funny, as there wasn't even a minute of conversation with him and he offered a job to me. I told this to my aunt who said, "you should tell him, can you pay a big sum for a graduate to be a receptionist??" haha.. i would imagine how blur the customer could be.. hahah..

OK, if you dun find it farnee it's ok...

Attended a wedding today.. the bridegroom and bride looks wonderful together. While on stage doing a presentation with my fellow church mates, I could see the joy in the bride's eyes and smile.. but what's amazing is that, on that wonderful day, the bridegroom is still very much praising God during the celebration praise. Praise God for this wonderful union. I would think the dinner is on right now... On this occasion I would think of Eadwine and his wonderful photos. I am always amazed to see the feelings in his photos, one that you could not see in many others. I've actually checked out other websites before, but I would still think that his is great. Maybe people may think me as partial... but oh well.. he is a fren of mine nonetheless... May God continue to bless him and may his photos continue to bless the couples.

That reminds me, I think the photographer took quite a number of our pictures on stage, as we were practising earlier and all... hmm.. must ask the bride for some pictures.... keke..

God bless them...

my name is always spelt wrongly

For the darnest reasons unknown to me, my name is always spelt without the "E" at the back. To be honest, I am quite annoyed at times by it.. it's understatement if ppl don't get it the first few times, but after bringing it up time and again and they still spelt my name likewise.

What's worse, at my workplace, my designated folder in our email web bin - which bears our name, guess how my name is spelt... sigh...

quite sad to know that ppl dun try to correct it eventho I've mentioned it for like a million times.. hence, I'd rather go with the name Sue rather than my full name at times...

To Singapore and back

First and foremost want to thank you those who have taken their time to meet up with mel and I during the weekend in Singapore, and also for those who wanted but was unable to make it due to circumstances....

Still feel a little tired from the trip, mainly coz the bus ride home was too long.. gosh.. but praise God as we are able to make it home by the time. Spend some time to unwind and all.. so it's pretty cool.

Was just thingking about things and found that there are so many things that we are missing out in life. I guess at this age, all of us are too busy with work, trying to earn money to support ourselves, trying to find things to occupy our time and etc. Once again, I reminisce the time in Gippy, where I can just walk out and enjoy the peace in my heart. It's hard now, so hard to find that spot to just slow down and take things as it is. Even meeting friends who stays around the corner requires appointment...

I figured that life is moving so fast that people are finding it hard to catch even a breath. God, this is not what I want in life Lord... I know one requires money to a certain extent, but I pray Lord that I will be able to slow down and really look around the things that's surrounding me, the people in my life and the amazing love of Urs Lord.

Father Lord, I thank U that in the midst of everything, U would slow me down and let me think of the things that's important in my life, that it does not only revolves around work, that there is always something more than the things that's occupying me right now. Things may be tough at times, but thank U that I am able to trust in Ur promises to give me strength and refresh me during the times I needed them.

I praise and thank God for the passion He has inputted into my life. I thank God that He is moving me closer to my heart's desire. Things may be too sudden, but it's still amazing to see that He moves things within months ... within months from the time I've dedicated my passion and desire to Him. I thank God that I am able to do what I love most. I pray that the youth in church will be able to release their passion in life to God and let Him take charge, because when we do, He can be so amazing.

Ya know, people say that life can be so complicated, but in reality, we are the ones who made it complicated... I guess we do it unconsciously.. I guess tat's y it is easier for a camel to walk through the needle than us walking on the right path... there's just too many junctures in life that diverts us... yet I also see these diversions as chances to grow... to grow and be rid of our old selves, to be renewed into our new body.

Father Lord, I know I've diverted heaps in the past, and I also know that U've been amazing, bringing me back to the main path time and again. Lord, I want to be the momentum U want me to be.. I duno how it's going to work, and I duno how things will be, but Lord.. I have faith, and that is the most amazing that one can have in life...

I guess when one reflects about their lives, they seemed to find so many things to talk and share about... as I reflect through my life for the past few years and especially past few months, I truly thank God for everything that He's done and everything that He's doing right now...

You are Lord

Artist: Australia Hillsongs
Song: You are/you are lord
Album: [" " CD] Copyright 2003 Darlene Zschech/Hillsong PublishingHope

You are my light and salvation,
whom shall I fear?
You are the strength of all my days,
of whom shall I be afraid?
Though war may rise against me,
of this will I be sure.

Chorus:
That I will bless the Lord forever,
I'll bless Your holy Name.
Yes I will bless the Lord forever,
I'll bless Your holy Name.

Lord it is you I desire,
it's You that I seek.
To live with You in Your house forever,
beholding Your beauty.
And In the time of trouble,
of this I will be sure.

You ask me who do I,
say that You are and I,
say that you are the Christ,
Son of the living God.

So tired

I'm so tired Lord. Can I just go home and cry to release my tension? Can You show me a job that I can be passionate in doing and be joyful always.

I understanding that You are putting me in different situations so that I can learn to handle them, but Lord,.. it's getting too much Lord. Is it not time to move on? Do U want me to stay put at where I am? Is the timing not right? I noe I shouldn't question U on Ur timing, but I'm tired Lord... I rili am...

Work Sucks

Well, what else is new, work gets suckier by day. Totally drains you off every energy that u have. I thank God that I have frens who would unwind with me, thank Him for giving me strength daily. Else, seriously have no idea how I'm going to live through it.

Company froze my leave from end of this month till beginning of June. Due to this, can't go to church camps, can't take impulsive leave, nor take MC. If i wana take MC, gotta work and cover up the productivity i'm called forward to hit everyday ... sickening.. tiring, oh Lord, pls do grant me a new and better job that this....

The Plain Truth

By setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God." 2 Corinthians 4:2

Which person do you trust more? There's the one who will go through all sorts of verbal acrobatics to avoid telling you what you need to hear. Then there's the one who will tell you what you need to hear whether you want to hear it or not. It's more pleasant in the short term to listen to the first person. But at the end of the day you know you'd better go with the one who'll give you the plain truth.

But oh, can the truth ever hurt sometimes. It punctures your ego. It strips down your false illusions. It takes the pages of fiction you've written about yourself and runs them through the shredder. It even has the nerve to take your excuses and actually label them, "excuses."

There's one good thing about the truth, however. Once the dust has settled, whatever is left is real.

That's what God's Word does. It gives you the plain truth. It speaks frankly about your failures. It blows away all your smoke screens and calls you to repentance. Above all, it gives you the One who has washed your every sin away. It gives you Jesus.

Job Seeking moments

I hate to apply jobs.. it can be so cumbersome at times. but then again, one does not really have a choice as it is part and parcel of life.. sigh

This is just amazing. It may b stated as a Valentine's Day Prayer, but I believe more so it should be part of our daily prayer

A Valentine’s Day Prayer

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” – I CORINTHIANS 13:4-7 NIV

Lord,Because love is patient…
Help me to be slow to judge, but quick to listen. Hesitant to criticize, but eager to encourage,remembering your endless patience with me.

Because love is kind…
Help my words to be gentle and my actions to be thoughtful. Remind me to smile and to say “Please” and “Thank You” because those little things still mean so much.

Because love does not envy or boast, and it is not proud…
Help me have a heart that is humble and sees the good in others. May I celebrate and appreciate all that I have and all that I am, as well as doing the same for those around me.

Because love is not rude or self-seeking…
Help me to speak words that are easy on the ear and on the heart. When I’m tempted to get wrapped up in my own little world, remind me there’s a great big world out there full of needs and hurts.

Because love is not easily angered and keeps no record of wrongs…
Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me. When I want to hold onto a grudge, gently help me release it so I can reach out with a hand of love instead.

Because love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth…
Help me stand up for what is right and good. May I defend the defenseless, and help the helpless. Show me how I can make a difference.

Because love always protects and always trusts…
Help me to be a refuge for those around me. When the world outside is harsh and cold, may my heart be a place of acceptance and warmth.

Finally, because love always perseveres…
Help my heart continually beat with love for You and others. Thank you for this day when we celebrate love, and for showing us what that word really means. Amen.

Holley Gerth
Writer/Creative Manager

Valentine Ball

There's some of the pictures from the Valentine event.....


Felicia n Erick... she's one of my closest friend in church.. and no, they r not a couple.. haha.. can see from the shyness of Erick!

This pretty lad is from the chinese congregation.... one of the attractive ones around

These two reminds me of Mel n me back in Gippy

She lost her voice that day, but still manage to sound sexy throughout the ordeal

Destiny's her name. She's from Australia.. followed her parents here... who are currently pastoring our church for six months

That's Timothy, one of the young talented youth in church

The ladies from English congre.. stil a lot more around!

Daily Devo

Was doing my devo today and can't help but share this message across.


For the Sake of the Gospel

"I do all this for the sake of the Gospel." 1 Corinthians 9:23

Imagine a sadistic killer in control of an entire superpower. That's how an amoral monster by the name of Nero behaved as the head of the Roman Empire. Needless to say, he was willing to do anything to retain his power. Anything. Therefore, when he found he could improve his sagging popularity by portraying some obscure religious group as a threat to Rome, he pushed it to the hilt. He arrested them. He tortured them. He put them to death in the city arena to amuse the crowds. He even used their bodies as human torches to provide light for his evening dinner parties.

As he did, however, an amazing thing happened. As the citizens of Rome watched these people die, many could not get over how these people met their deaths. They died so bravely. They even sang, praising the One who had died for their sins, who had risen from death, and who would soon take them home to be with Him. As a result, it was during this horrific persecution that many citizens of Rome began learning about the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

Before a man, who was willing to do anything for the sake of power, these Christians were willing to endure anything for the sake of the Gospel.

If you're a Christian, perhaps it's time to rediscover why the Gospel is worth dying for. If you're not a Christian, perhaps it's time to learn about it yourself.

End of Break

Hm, so fast. My break ends by tomorrow. How I wish I do not have to go back to work. Maybe I should find a rich husband and get married. Haha.... but then again, they usually go for those sexy looking babes.. oh well.. kekek

Currently sick, started with sore throat yesterday and then it's flu. Sianz, but things are better now coz my throat ain't sore anymore... just flu. Phew, thank God. I hate it when my throat is sore, because then you'll feel pain when you drink water and eat.. thank God. Another thing to thank God is that I don't have a fever. Usually when I get sore throat, the whole package will come i.e sore throat, flu, fever and etc. Ergh, that is equivalent to major sickness to me..

Hm there's this ballroom dancing class that's organised in church for the youth to learn for the upcoming valentine ball. Haha, i think heaps of them are excited... man, I feel excited seeing them so exhuberant. Keke... The event would be in a week's time. Man, this is fast! As mentioned, I've yet to get a skirt and a top for the event. Haha.. I can imagine next week to be hectic for me... sigh.. oh well... it should be fun as well! After that would be tiring ... nemind, it's worth it to serve God!!

Chinese New Year

It's Chinese New Year and things started off quite blandly I would think. Seems that the CNY seems to be duller...

MONDAY HAFTA START WORK!!! arghh!!!

next SAT is the valentine ball!! arghh!!! no clothes yet!!! siaozzzzz!!!!

haahah.. pls.. ignore me.. my siao mood is triggered!
hahahhahaaha

It's a non working Sat n I'm up at 930!

What the!??!! I can't believe that I woke up so early! I've been craving for sleep for the past two weeks, and the mere thought of sleeping late was such a consolation to me last night. Nonetheless, it seems that my body disagree with me, waking me up so early when I went to bed last night at 2 plus in the morn... GOsh! How havoc can I be...

Been madly busy since the start of the new year. Work has been overloading.. which is pretty normal. Although it is kinda miserable, with your life working around your work (those working would surely know what I mean) God has been good to me, sustaining me in my work and keep me up and all.

Been busy at church too, with the organising of Valentine's event and the rescheduling of the worship and multimedia and resources team. Have to pull out from ushering though, due to the schedules and all. The mere thought that I have to dress formally to church for two weekends is quite sad enough, but for every Sunday (shudder!!).. don't think I can take it. Would rather start things slow and move up a notch. But praise God, He's been truly good..

Next week would be quite busy, with the CNY around the corner and the fact that I'll be on a week's break during that festive season. Gotta clear my work and also to be around house to help my mom as well with the lil things and all... Hm.. come to think of it, there isn't much feel of CNY nowadays. I still remember the time when I was young, all the neighbours house would be hanging a long .. what you call it, the firework stuff right smack in front of the house and will light it at the same time. The explosive sound is so great and so exciting. But now, with public safety banning of the fireworks and drown some of the cultural practice. Not that it's not good, just find it different from last time.

Hm.. WW would be here too! Gosh, am expecting an extremely hectic time man.. Dear Lord, I pray You'll continue to give me strength. Amen.

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http://www.andiesisle.com/icanonlyimagine.html

Tired

I am so tired at work. Was reading this article about burnt out at work, and it sort of fits me! gosh, i think another friend of mine is much worse. both of us are so tired and stressed out.

Today was kinda nuts, am feeling totally unwell in the body. I guess I was strung up with the amount of work that I have to do, plus the fact that I haven't gotten proper sleep the night before... I was only able to settle down after everyone left the department.

Sigh.. tmw's another working day, am really wishing for weekend to come soonest possible.. but then again... sigh

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

I pray that ya all will have full blessings from GOd this year in whatever you're doing. I am looking forward to this year, with new experiences and new adventures in store!