Jehovah Shalom, God is peace. God does amazing and wonderful things. Every once in a while He'll let a song touch my heart, giving me profound insight of His love, His grace and His mercy. He lets me know that He will give me peace in my heart and mind and soul, just as long as I ask for it. Sometimes we as human being worry too much, some things are meant not to affect us, but yet we still worry about it... minor things, major things, all worries we make them big deal. We forgot that we can actually lay our burdens, our worries to God. We forgot that He made the promise to carry us and to walk with us at all times, yes, AT ALL TIMES, through joy and happiness, through pain and suffering, through times of trouble and sadness. He is there with us. Even now as you read this blog, of what I'm writing, He is right there next to you, wanting to reach out to You and help You. Why don't you reach out at this instant, say it, just tell him, "I need You"? I'm sure He's just there waiting.



Do you know that God is waiting for you to tell HIm your troubles? You don't have to do all things by your own strength and power. You just need to call on Him and He will provide for you.



He is amazing. Little things He did for me, miraculous things He provide and help me. He gave me friends when I needed them, He gave me love when I needed it, He gave me companions and also company when I needed to be with someone. Amazing God. He's so powerful you know.. it's rili amazing to know that He's so powerful, so much so that He could just destroy this world in an instant, but yet He's so gentle with us, so loving and gentle and kind and sweet. So amazing, can't describe what I'm feeling now, except that I am really amazed by Him.

So many things running up and down these days for me, so much so that I'm overwhelmed by it.



One thing I am really happy and thank God is to know that I have so many friends that care for me, that are willing to spend time with me, to know that they are willing to do to make me happy and such. Really really thank God for it lor... thanks everyone for making this year's birthday such good memory for me.



God does amazing things in people's lives. He showed me love when I needed the assurance, He gave me peace when I needed it, He gave me friends when I felt like I have none. Really do thank Him for being such a good God to me, such a loving God to me and such a caring God to me.



Feelings and emotions can be so overwhelming at times, hard to predict why am I feeling the way that I am feeling now. Too overwhelm... y these tots? y these things? y these issues? hm.... duno what to say already regarding... leave it be for now

Somehow during this time of year, things are beginning to struck me that people arent the same as I've met them earlier. Things do change a lot in a short time yar. Somehow things are just different. Am I different? I wont deny that I am, I'm no longer just the Sue Anne who first came here, but a different Sue Anne altogether. Living on my own, without my family makes me mature and grows. Sometimes I do wonder if I've grown to be different or am I still the same old gal.



Life is funny sometimes, things happen unexpectedly. No one could guess when or how it happen, it just did! Life is really really unpredictable. But one thing I'm really thankful, I don't have to go through this life on my own. I have God and friends and family to support me at all times. Makes a lot of things worth it. I wont deny that I've through phases in life feeling left out, unwanted, unloved and unsupported, but yet, thanks to God, I am able to go through those phases and come out and stand up to say that I am here! I'm alive, it's ok if people ignore me, I'm still me, I'm still loved by God, always and forever.



The heart of worship, isit about singing and praising? It's more than that, worship comes from the heart of us, from the deepest part of us. We worship Him not only through songs but through how we live our lives. Sing, and be thankful, live and be grateful.

Things running through me head again, unable to stop them, unable to pursue them. CAn i stop them? think not, think so??? Duno lehhh.... so many things, unaccountable, unwanted.... yet my feelings and emotions continue to maintain the same! Praise the Lord, this is wat I wana do!!! Lift my voice and praise Him with all that I am and I that I can!

Another session of singing and music! Wow! It's so fun ya know... I think I don't mind doing this often. Mel is getting better on piano again liao! So nice, would have a partner to sing with and stuff.... yeap, I guess my favourite past time is to sing lo.. I guess all music lovers would know the joy of singing... and for me, not to just sing, but singing is truly a meaning of life!



God is here for me! Wow! It still amazes me when I hear that God is here with me... something I wonder, am I good Lord? Do you still love me Lord? Am I worthy Lord? But you know, I do know that He does love me, so much so that he willed His Son to die on my behalf. Yet, sometimes I guess the mind takes over, making us think things in a square box. CAnt put God in a square box can i? But yet, sometimes I felt so not worthy... I love Him, I really really do.. and I miss spending time with him, singing to him and worshipping him... I miss you Lord... miss you so much



Really thank Him for being with me at all times, no matter in what situation. Really really thank him tat when I feel lonely, he put friends into my life, he fills up this loneliness with his presence.



Praise be to You forever and forever!!!!

Discussions, discussion.... am actually getting bored with it. i guess it's because i've been having discussions on the same topic for three days in a row! and summore, I have another one tomolo. what choice do i have but to compromise on this issue as my presentation is on WEdnesday! Father, I just pray that we will be able to handle the presentation well! amen!



I have had fun today! It's so nice to jes sit and listen to people sing and play music. Chris was on the piano, playing for Mel's practice... I just go there to have fun lor... keke.. but it's really nice you know. Chris is good on the piano.. really good. He was teaching us some new songs.... there's this one i really like, but then sad to say I cant really remember it lor... If i were able rite, both of us singing different part, it would make the song really nicelor.. aihhhh.... hope we'll continue to be able to do this lor.. it's just so nice to sing praises worship Lord God Almighty!

Should we let feelings take hold of us and dictate how we will live our lives? Sometimes we do don't we? We allow ourselves to be passionate about things and then, boom! it hits us straight in the face, too passionate about something that we ignore other things

Why am I being bombarded with thoughts? Thoughts that are confusing me, making me feel the things that I don't want to.I cant seem to be able to control what I'm thinking and how it's making me feel? Why so? Why at this time, at this place and at this hour? Why?? Will this continue? Will it stop anytime soon? Why???



So consfusing, so distraughting.. so ... too many thingsss

So soon, it's weekend again. Don't you guys feel that time pass by us so fast here in Gippsland. In another few weeks' time and exam period would be here! Can't believe it lor. Ya know, it's really stunning and also scary to know that I would be graduating end of this year. Duno wat to expect when I am no longer here but back in Malaysia. Would I cry? Would I miss my friends heaps? Would they even remember me after I leave this place? I find that I can't really answer that. I do know that I have managed to make quite a number of friends here, some who have impacted my life here greatly. Maybe coz we're spending a lot of time together, or maybe we're just close. I don't really know. But God intended them to be in my life for this year and I would greatly cherish all the friends that I've managed to get close to this year. Though it's just a short time, but then, we don't really need to judge friendship by time do we? It's been a lovely things knowing so many people and to love and to care for them as if they are part of my family... well... they all are, my family here in Gippsland.



Soon this chapter of my life would end and a new one would be starting. Am I prepared for this new chapter? Seriously, I don't think I am ready for it. But can one be really prepared to go on? I would move on, I know I will for I am that kind of a person, not worrying about stepping to a new phase or a new place in life. But I would forever reminise the times that I have gone through in my past. It's not like I can't leave it behind, I can, but then again, these are some things that I would hold on to tightly and cherish throughout my life.



I so love and cherish all those that I've gotten to known here. I don't really know if we'll continue to contact each other anot, I really hope so. But then, being from different countries, it is sometimes hard to keep this contact alive. Not everyone would want to do so, but yet I do really hope that we would all be able to meet up again in near future and to be able to think of the times we've went through, the thoughts that we've shared with each other and the things we did together.



Most of all, I do hope that God will forever bless them abundantly in whatever they do. Really thank God for all my friends here in Gippsland. REally really am.....

It's early in the morning now and I'm still awake. Din sleep the whole nite coz went to chris' with Mel to get some stuff... we had a singing session there..quite nice...



I'm actually quite tired but then again, my mind's pretty awakelor. And knowing myself, if i were to sleep when my mind's awake, it would be a major disaster! D sleeping time would become dreaming time and in the end, i would not be really restinglo! It would be better to stay awake and to sleep later on when i am really really tired. Weird person eh me.. but then, aih... this is me and i cant do anything to change tat part of melor.



Hm, it's raining already. Guess this might be a cold and wet day ahead. Hopefully it wont be like this later of the day when I'm awake coz I would need to go up to the post office to grab some stufflo... well.. hopefully yarr.. we as human cant dictate weather can we.



Now my brain's a bit dead due to the lack of sleep for the past week and also due to the lack of sleep this nite.. keke... well.. might be more of due to not sleeping the whole nitelor... ok.. now even worse after i wash my face, do hope i'll be able to sleep afterwards, coz if not then aih...



basically, if i were to continue to write now, i would be crapping all the way, not making sense watsoever lor... keke.. so .. till d next time

Thoughts kept following in and out of my mind,

Uncaptured, unwanted

Yet it still stays around, waiting, pausing,

Blowing my mind away.



What can I do?

What can I say?

Nothing,

Captured by the air of nothingness

Floating, flowing

Will it stop? Will it leave?

Will it.....

It's been a while since I've written anything here. For some reason, I was either too busy (duno why) or too preoccupied with something. I guess another thing was I have recently reformatted my computer and this blogger address was no longer in my favourites, thus it slipped my mind that I do have a site here :D



Anyways, I'll just try to update things that have been happening to myselflor. Not sure if there's anything interesting, but here goes ....



Last Friday....



It's one of my free days (i have a lot this sem!!!)... and I've actually agreed to help out the ISA to set up a booth for the trip to mount BAwBaw... basically it was pretty bored as I dun think there's anyone who did signed up on that day. But then again, it was not so bad. Sat there for an hour or so and I hafta leave. I've agreed to help Melissa earlier, she needed someone to drive her to some places for interview, and me being free agreed to help out. At first we were quite blur and we don't really know the directions to the places we wanted to go. But then, it was quite coincidental as my fren's car was parked next to ours and he actually approached us and gave us directions! thanks Thy.. it was great help... ok.. the reason my fren needed my help was because she hafta write an article regarding art galleries around Gippsland.. and them being in towns nearby, she needed a driver as she doesn't have a car nor license to drive. That's where I come in.



Thus our journey began...



First place we went to was Yinnar. We first approach an art gallery by the name of Arc. Though it looks just like any other building on the outside (except for a big painting of cows on the walls...), it really does have the set up of a gallery. The actually have like rooms for artists to paint here. Beautiful paintings are around the whole place.. pretty interesting. The best part about the place was that on that day, Friday, a group of mentally retarded people, were to paint there... I've managed to catch a few glimpses of their artwork and it was magnificent! It looked very very good. These people are really artist. God created such beautiful artistic people you know, so don't look down on them for the gift that God gave them are sometimes more than ours. We were given a tour of the place and it looks nice. Nice to know that there are these kind of places around.



The next place we went was called Matchbox. It's also situated in Yinnar, just a little further up from ARc. Beautiful beautiful place. It really does capture my heart, touching it and melting it. The art shown was really really good. And the place was almost covered with stained glass! Beautiful beautiful stained glass.. havent seen them around except in old churches. Though these ones are simpler, it gives a feeling of gracefulness and beauty. The place was homey and cosy too, with the lady owner giving us a tour. It seems that his husband is the artist and they actually built the place from scratch... Wow... you can actually see the efforts that they've put into it. it's hard to describe it, but I guess you'll be able to feel what i've felt when you are there.



The last place we went was in Cow Weir.. it's sooooo far!!! It's like 27km from Traralgon ya know.. sigh... quite tired when i was driving there, guessed my lack of rest is taking a toll on me lor.... But yet, the place was really nice too... sigh.. the place was so spacious and empty, yet it gives not the feel of emptiness, but of cosiness and loveliness. The art that was on display was like, have a connection about sea, and it's really good lor.... hope that the pictures that I've tooked comes out good. I'm not artist nor anything, jes snapping away coz it looks rili nice... kekek.....really hope it'll turn out fine.



AFter that rite, i was actually rushing home coz there's movie nite organised by the ISA. I was soooo tired!!! But the movie was nice! So sweet you know, to know that the father loved the child so much till he's willing to do anything to get him back safe. Ya know, I guessed my dad was like that.. he's soooo protective of me till sometimes i felt so overwhelmed! Sometimes i cant take it lor.. but i guess coz i'm his only daughter.. and i do know that he loves me lor... aih.. parentslor....



Dunoleh, the movie was nice lor.... so cute!! kekee... reallly had fun tat day even tho i was so tired.