Exam's over!!!



Yippee! I am so glad that exam's over. Though i think i did not do well for both the papers today, I am still glad that i do not have to sit for another paper anytime soon! Yeah... now is really the time to party lor! keke..



Tomorrow would be packing day for sure. Hm, seems like there would be heaps of moving things around and putting things here and there. Thank goodness I have packed most of my loads into James' room (my future housemate). With that load off me, I would be able to spend less time packing tomorrow.



Going down city the following day lor. Do what, I'm not sure yet. BUt i would be hanging out with Fong. Would be the last two days hanging out with her as she would be going back to Malaysia for the break, will miss her heaps :( Nevertheless, it would be an exciting and enjoyable break as I would be attending Hillsongs and would be Sydney for a while! Yeah!!!!



Oh, had dinner at Geraldine's place earlier, the food was good! I love the spring roll and the soup. Very tasty! Thanks Din Din for the lovely dinner!



Hm, the semester's finally ended. Wonder how does everyone feels. For me, it made me feel like time does pass by in a faster pace when I'm here. There seems to be things to do and even if there isn't, time still goes by without waiting for us. It does makes u want to grab hold of time and try to make it worthwhile. Would it be much different when I am back home? Would it be even more different if i were to be in another campus and not here? This i am not sure.



I don't really regret coming here to Gippsland, though it's a big change for a city girl like me, this life here in Gippsland makes me very thankful to God, thankful that things are going on so well, that He gave me peace in my heart, the ability to be thankful for this wonderful and lovely place. Sometimes when I walk home at night, I just look at the sky and would be thankful for such wonderful view. Really, the beauty of it is indescribable.



Another semester has passed, another coming soon. Would it pass by so soon again? Would time free itself from my hold and disappear again? No answer to it yet, but one thing for sure, no matter what, time would not stop me from wanting to do the things that i want to :D

hm, exam's in a few hours' time and i have yet to study. So sad! I dunoleh, it seems that i cant get anything to enter my mind. Anyway, i cant be bothered so much as i am so tired and i have so many things to read. i am not sure if i will be able to do well in my papers tomorrow but i will leave it to God to help me.



Am i worried? Not really, i duno why. It seems that my friends are more worried than me even though they studied for it. Well, thank God that i am not in a panicking mood :D

oh no! dying dying...... paper's tomorrow morning and i havent prepare for it yet!! arghh... hey, please keep me in your prayers yah! seems like i won't be sleeping tonight again!

I should be sleeping now but i am still up! It's nearly 7 in the morn and i have not slept at all. Kinda tired earlier but now am kinda awake. Sigh, i still have heaps to study ler. Two papers on d same day. Not good, havent even started studying for MPI(marketing planning n implementation) and i am only half way done with my it project management. sigh..........



exam's on thursday!!!! arghh... need to keep meself uprite! tiring...but still.... what to do.. after this thursday!! saya merdeka!!! yeahhhhhh!!!!!!!!1 but hor, for the mean time, back to studying

hm, had wanted to typed a long long post yesterday regarding my day but i was too tired to do so. Nevertheless, it was really a fun and enjoyable night. It's a very memorable night too. Am glad on a lot of things :D



Tonight though, i need to study as my papers are on thursday. Yes, i have two papers on thursday. Such bad luck, but nevertheless i don't mind as long as i'm done with it. But i need to study lor....

Tiring Day for me



What a day! So many happened today, so many happy things :D

Why do people need to be so complicated? I duno lor, I find myself seeing things and seeing people in a very straightforward way, sometimes some even say that i am naive too. Am I? maybe in some things i do see things just as they are. why want to make things so complicated? why want to make a big fuss out of a small matter?Why?? Questions again.. questions that i do not know of the answers to. i am glad the way i am, and i wont change it just because someone wants me to change. I may be naive and i may be straightforward in my thinking, but i know that i have less things to be caution about, and less things to worry about. and at least i know i am genuine.



sometimes things does not go as well as you thought it would be going, but not matter what, things will fall into places by itself. So why worry so much? let things go smoothly on its way...



this life is funny it seems, to see people pretending to be someone whom they are not, and then when they want to find themselves or be themselves, the pretending part becomes so ingrained in them that they find it hard to be themselves. They get so used to the masks that they hide behind, that they totally can't find their original masks.



So many thoughts, so many things running through my mind now.. so overwhelming, so confusing, so tiring, so sickening.. so...

Conflicts



Why is there always so many conflicts between people? Sometimes i feel that there are conflicts that won't exist if we as human try not to make things so complicated. Why do we need to know so many, so much till there seem to be no answers to the questions that we ask? Why can't we be content being who we are? Why? So many questions, yet i can't answer them myself. I know that there are varieties of answers that i can get from you all, but then, would it satisfy me to know those answers? How long would i be content?? And can I be sure that these questions would not come up again? Can i be sure that i won't be bombarded by questions again? I really don't know..



*erm, just something that cross my mind :D*

was at Geraldine's place just now.. keke.. yar, i know, Geraldine's name keep popping up today in the blog. What to do, so famous wor! keke.. nolar.. was at her place and was checking out her books. She has quite some interesting book in her collection. Though it's not a lot, it's quite interesting. Hm, let me tell you guys something about myself. I'm a reader, I love to read novels or whatever that interests me. But erm, textbooks are one of the few that doesn't interest me at all. keke... It's nice to read. I also like to listen to music. If the tune is nice and catches my attention, i would love to have it in my collection. But sad to say, I don't have a radio here, and i can only listen to the songs that i have in the computer. Nevertheless, it's not so bad :D



Well, need to study liaolor... exam's in the morning tomorrow!! Programming!! Arghh.. help me Jooooooooo

Unproductive Day



Seriously unproductive day! woke up at 1pm.. sigh... no use setting alarm in d fers place. Nope, mind you i did not sleep through the ringing of the alarm, but more like i got up and turned it off and turn meself to another side and sleep! keek.. result of a tiring day. Neways, i got myself prepared to go uni after eating me cereals. Went there for what reason, don't really knowlor. Just felt like going out. Oh, got the hillsongs thingy liao. Good!!! No worries about it liao lor me.



Went to the lab after that and saw Thy there. He was asking me about the exam and how was my preparation and stuff. I proved myself to be not fully awake coz i took quite long to register his questions and to answer him. Was kinda funny coz he was talking so animatedly whereas I was sort of half dead! hahah.... well, he could see that I'm kinda like in the brain not functioning state and stopped talking to me. Felt so sorry coz I was so totally blur. Hope he does well in his exams. Poor thing, he has to sit for two paper tomorrow. What a predicament! Well, i do have two papers too, on the last day of my exam somemore. Life of a uni student!



Have not studied at all till now! Gosh, and it's already 9 something. Paper's at 930 tomorrow morning.. Funny is, i don't feel tense or anything. Kinda weird, ever since the first paper, this is what I've been feeling. I'm assuming that during the semester there's too many things for me to do, and it made me like so unemotional towards exam liao. Don't know whether this theory really is real anot, but for now i can't care less lor.



Hey, i had fish and chips for dinner and now ar... feeling so jelak liao! Don't think i would want to eat fish n chips any time soon! Can't stand it liao. Sigh, silly lar me, dun feel like cooking so i went to buy fish n chips... it's nice, sure of it, but it's oily and it makes me jelak!



Geraldine called earlier, discussing about the dinner we would be having on the 26th. Wonder if i can get a car from Nicole or andy anot. Not very sure if they would be in too.. sighh. Well, we'll think about this matter laterlor. No reason to "fan" now.



Gotta go to Fong's place to study later. Need to force myself to do so lor. Can't be lazing so much liao. Mel actually asked whether I want to go saloon. Will think about it.. ekeke.. nah, just kidding. Tomorrow morning paper ar! Want me to die ar!!!!!!!



haha.. geraldine called me again after reading my blog. seems that there's this part that i wrote would be her feel ... erm.. wat's that word ar, neways, will make her not look good. So she called and asked me to get rid of that part! Well, I did, as i would not want her to get into trouble or anything mar! Sorry ya Geraldine! But you were darn cute on the phone ar! kekeke... wouldn't mind you calling me again for that!!!!!

What a Nite!!!



Wah lau.. i cant imagine that i've studied the whole night through last nite!! Serious! I studied till 930 am in the morning today... started at around 12 plus i think. OK, here's the story... i was at home and decided to go to pui fong's house and study with her, since she have a paper today. Was at her place at around 12 plus.... studying and chit chatting at the same time. Not much progress on that department lor. But as usual, when girls do get together :D



Not long after that Joo came over to visit. Yeap, he's so lucky, finished his exam liao. Now all he does is lepaking and stuff... but i do believe he is hardworking as I saw him borrowing some books from the library to study. IT student worr, so for sure those IT related books which i have no idea of. Not good in computer stuff lar me. Anyway, he stayed for a while, talking and entertaining and bullying me! Sigh, am I such an easy target?? But nevertheless, I know you all don't really mean it, so i won't take into heart :D



After Joo left, I went out to Fong's common area to study. Needed more space as I was studying in her room on her bed. Such temptation for me to sleep ar!!! But needless, I pushed myself to study. From thereon, I was reading all my stuff and doing past year papers!! Can't believe i studied the whole night through! Do hope i remember what I've studied lor. If not, then sure bad lor.



Didn't manage to sleep properly when I'm home. Duno why, guessed it was way past my bed time. Anyways, I did manage to get some winks till 3 in the afternoon. Woke up coz jes remembered I need to go and meet up with mel to go student resident regarding something. Called mel, but she said we won't have to go yet coz those people whom we were supposed to be meeting weren't in.

Anyway, I tried to rest again after that, but can't liao. So i just got up and watch tv and eat cereals lo.



I was still watching the movie looking for alibrandi (quite a nice show!) when mel called. She called and talked to the Jo from student rez and have managed to settle for us liao. This means we will have a place to stay during the last week of the holidays. We're planning to come back earlier, I think I mentioned before. Well, still have things to plan but for now everything's good.



Joo called me at around 5 plus to 6, inviting fong, mel and i for dinner with thy. We gladly accepted it and when for dinner together at 730pm. Went down to morwell, at a place called dragon palace, or something like that. It's quite expensive, but the food's not bad. Recommendation: black pepper beef. It tastes really nice, I quite like it, so does everyone else too. Hey, forgot to mention, was kinda creepy when we went into the restaurant coz it's empty! Whilst eating, the lady serving us was saying that they were about to close the shop when we walked in. What good timing. The food's really not bad, but a bit too oily for my liking. Service is also not bad, and the lady serving us was quite friendly, chit chatting with us and stuff. When we left, she even wished us all the best in our exams and studies. So sweet of her :D



I called a friend of mine down in Clayton. Seems like she's sick again, poor girl, and such bad timing also.. exam period. Well, do hope she'll be better soon. The doctor's also duno wat's wrong with her, puking all the food she took out and feeling wuzzy and dizzy most of the time. Do hope she'll be alright. We talked for a short while only as she has to go back to study.Poor dear friend.



Seriously need to rest soon. Maybe I'll sleep for a while and then wake up to do some studying. Such work.



Am now currently packing. Yeah, I know, a bit early, but then the friend of mine whom I would be leaving some of my things to would be going off to adelaide on the coming monday, so I guess it would do me good to pack some first for now. At least I won't have to like oh No!!! and simply throw stuff to him.

Hm, as I was packing, I came across a journal entry that I've made when I was in the airplane coming down here to Australia, just want to share it with you guys :D



22/2/03

In the airplane



It's now 11.40 pm. I'm on the plane, on the way to Australia Currently sitting with a stranger, but a friendly one too. I know my mom and dad and aunt is sort of sad that I'm leaving Malaysia. I think mom and aunt Shirley soort of cried. I left the place as I am, smiling cheerfully. It feels more like I'm leaving for a short trip instead of one long year. I sure am going to miss them a lot. I feel like crying now. A lot of my friends came to send me off, and I'm happy that they did. I'm really going to miss themlo. I really do. Oh God, I don't want to cry, please, help me not to cry.



I do not fright... I mean I am not afraid of airplane. It looks so beautiful, to be able to see the airport from above, to know and to see the place all lit up. It's just so plain beautiful. Pity it ain't bright light... I mean brad daylight, coz I think it will be even more beautiful.



Well, the service in the plane is so so. The food was really not nice, but nevertheless I had some as I've skipped dinner earlier. At least the flight attendant looks friendly.



Drina and everyone from the church really gave me a cameralor. So very nice of them! Anyway, I'll email them to give them thanks. I really thank You God for giving me the chance to meet up with such wonderful people. You have been really good to me. Sook Ngoh gave me a cute dolly. Really will cherish all the gifts that I have received.Siew Leng gave me the lip gloss from Body Shop, strawberry flavour. Although it's not the flavour that I would have wanted, but nevertheless, it's something.



It's almost 3 in the morning in Malaysia. I think everyone's asleep back at home liao. I was looking out at the sky a few minutes earlier and I can see the stars blinking outside. I could feel such serenity in me, like there is such peace in my heart. But now, there's only darkness outside. Not a darkness that overwhelms, but just darkness.



I am actually sleepy but I can't sleep. Took out my contact earlier as it felt dry. Don't think I'll be wearing it tomorrow as I am tired. It really is a long and boring flight.



4.20am:

The sky is clearing up. The clouds looked like ice. So beautiful, so not moving. It's as though things are moving slowly up here. Such beauty God created. Amazing sights, the long hours are worth it.



A penny for my own thoughts. There's so many things that is going on in my mind. Yet, I can feel that my mind is blank.



Wow, i can see land: buildings down there. The sky is really clearing up. It's so beautiful. The sun is actually shining towards the airplane. I can see its ray. So wonderful to be able to sit next to the window, to be able to see a glimpse of God's glory.. so magnificient.........



4.30am:

i have just had my breakfast. hm, in the middle of the morning for me. i guess breakfast was alritght, just that the packet juice(orange) was kinda sour. all went well during breakfast. Hm, let me list down the menu: a croissant, a bread, butter and strawberry jam, tea, orange juice and a banana yoghurt. Quite a heavy breakfast for me I think.



There's a little baby girl sitting at the next aisle. Soo cute!! Blonde hair with big blue eyes. Such pretty little thing. She leeps staring at me and Ching Wern, the person sitting next to me. She's now playing with a mineral water bottle. So pretty.



I think i'll be arriving in melbourne aiport in about an hour's time. Wow, an hour to a new place. Well, figuratively speaking lar. I will still hafta wait to pass the immigration and then I'll hafta line up to check out. Sigh,... so mah fan lor.



Oh wow, they sky outside is wonderful. It's as though everything's still. The Breakline of the ocean and the sky is bright orange, and then smoothen to light orange and the light blue to dark blue. It's as though the sky is the ocean. Oh, the land down there is not ocrean. It's sort of like a desert. Wah lau.. miles and miles of empty land. Keng ar, .. or are those clouds??... now i'm confused... I'm not sure, but it's just beautiful, indescribable beauty. I think this is what indescribable joy sort of mean.... such joy.. such feeling....



:::::The end::::



A long entry, but a memorable one. As i was typing it out, the flashes of memories crossed through my mind. A new beginning.... something new...

Well, another day is passing by and again, it's being wasted away. Went to uni to see Natalie regarding staying for a week earlier during the holidays. Sad to say, we would have to go and meet up with Joan tomorrow and talk to her about it, reason being Mel's house is booked for the conference. Hopefully, we'll be able to stay in during that one week. Doesnt matter if Mel hafta stay with me for that week. Don't want to stay in the city for so long, would be using heaps of money! Not really a good sign....



Anyway, met up with Geraldine and she told me that Elicia was sick, vomitting and stuff. Kinda worrying, so told Geraldine that i would drop by her place as I am going to south to return some stuff anyway. Was at her place, but she was sleeping so I left. Don't want to disturb her as i know she doesn't sleep enough.



Geraldine gave me a call later of the day and told me that she dropped by Elicia's place. Doctor says eat nothing wor. But then again, kinda worried that if she doesn't eat she'll get cramps, so i called her after hanging up with Geraldine and asked her whether she wants porridge. She declined, but i insisted, coz it IS bad to go without food. She agreed after I insisted and thus i proceed on to cook porridge. Took an hour or so i think, but the result was good. I had some too :D



I went to shower when the porridge was done. After ta pao and was about to leave the house, Geraldine called, what nice timing. We met up and went to see Elicia. She finished one tupperware of the porridge (i brought her two!). Good thing she does enjoy it :D keke.. not really good in cooking porridge oo.... what to do, at home mom cooks for me during lunch and she's the one who prepares the things that i need to cook for dinner. When i'm here, i have to do the preparation. It does take up timelor, the preparation part. Really cherish my mom for her patience and her love. Gosh, would love so much that i have all the ingredients that i can get back at home! there's so many things that's lacking here, so hard to get them too... sigh, part and parcel of life i guess.



Dropped by house 6 as Serena was there. Saw Joo there. He was so happy, finished his exam liao. Neways, he went and had two shots of johnny walker! Goodnesslar that fella. A bit high liao. Was supposed to watch a movie with him but then again, decided not to coz he's a bit unstable liao (can't really drink eh he!) Kinda funny ar, but a bit worrisome osolar. Tipsy eh tat fella.



Neways, was wet when i got home. Was Drizzling...... better not get sick oooo...

What a Day



Why would i put such a heading, one might ask. Well, things didn't really go well for me today lor. I woke up when my alarm rang, and being tired, i decided to take a short nap, for i usually does that and i do get up like 10 to 15 minutes after. The next thing i knew, the phone in the common area was ringing non stop. Quickly, I sprang up and ran to the phone! Too late!!!! The phone stopped ringing, and my handphone started to ring instead! Oh no, knowing who was calling, I quickly dial Mel's house number. Being blur, I asked her what time it was, and she told me it's 9.30! Oh no, i should be waiting at the intersection by now. From thereon, it was a rush for me. Quickly, i went to brush my teeth and changed.



Well, i do know that Mel and I would be late, so after changing, Mel called Norman and asked whether he drove, and whether he would be willing to come and fetch us. Nice guy he is, he did come and fetch us. Luckily, we just made it in time.



The worship and the sermon was lovely today. Praise the Lord, His presence was so strong and so real at church. He reassures me of so many things today. So touched by Him. I'm so touched by Wileen too, such a beautiful and wonderful sister. Really thank God for her words of truth and encouragement during the altar call.



Kaline sent us home today, using Lyle's car. So nice of him to lend her his car. When i got home, I grab Fong's stuff and went over to her place to drop them off. The whole house was still sleeping, as usual. Especially Fong, she was still awake in the morning when i was about to go to church. Her time is really messed up. Anyway, i dropped off her things, came home, vacuum my room and then i slept.



I woke up at 4 something, feeling hungry. Reason: i have not eaten anything at all the whole day!. Well, still not eating now as there's nothing that i can take as a light meal. If i were to cook and eat now, i would not be able to eat later during dinner time with Mel and Fong. Not a good idea.



Just came back from Fong's place. Went to her place after dinner to watch tv coz the tv in her house is bigger :D The art of war, interesting movie. Still, prefer chinese fighting scenes.. more interesting i guess. Was hanging out with James after that, playing and teasing around. Hm, asked him whether i can put my things with him during the break. He said yes, so i am glad. But it means i have to start packing coz he's leaving soon, end of this week perhaps. Sigh, will hafta ask Andy to bring my luggage down. Goodness! so many things that i need to pack liao.



Feeling sleepy liao, might just get onto my bed and sleep after this. Or i could surf the net for a while longer. Not sure yet, but i am stopping for the day, tired. Will study tomorrow! for sure!!

Everything's Gone :(



I have just keyed in a very long entry, but when i click the post and publish button, everything disappeared. Nothing came up. What a sad incident. And to think that what I've keyed in was interesting too. No more mood to retyped what i've wrote.



Got to rest liao. Church tomorrow.

A Site of My Own



Well, it seems to be a trend to do a site of our own and it does seem interesting. I have been interested in creating one for some time now but then i have too many things occupying my time (mostly are useless things.. goodness). Now is exam time, and i am a bit bored. Seeing Geraldine created one, I might as well join in the fun!



Would there be a lot of things that i can write here? would it contain my secret thoughts and stuff? that i do not know. Maybe, but there are things that i would be keeping to myself. This is like writing my own journal, only difference is that people can read it whereas my journal is kept safe from public viewing.



But i guess mostly i would write of things that is going on in my life at this moment in time, living and studying in Gippsland, being away from home, under the care .. is there someone caring for me? Well, i know for sure God is! Whom do i rely on? I guess i do rely on my friends to support me. But most of all, i would learn to rely on God and myself.