Realization hits me! The old testament prophesy of Jesus' coming years before He was born and us, being around.. read of it, heard of it. But I come to understand this, that Jesus came and fulfilled the prophesy of His death, so that we may LIVE
Old testament:
So they weighed out for my wages thirty pieces of silver... throw it to the potter-that princely price they set on me
new testament:
For 30 shekles, Judas sold Jesus to the Pharisees and such, sealing and fulfilling the prophesy
Old testament:
He was oppressed and He was afflicted, yet He opened not His mouth; He was led as a lamb to the slaughter
new testament:
Jesus was whipped, tortured and was led by the Roman soldiers up to the calvary, but He did not complain nor lament..... He accepted the affliction caused
Old testament:
And they made His grave with the wicked-but with the rich at His death
new testament:
He was crucified with the robbers/thief- and buried by Nicoedemus at the cave
Old testament:
He poured out His soul unto death, and He was numbered with the transgressors, and He bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors
new testament:
Jesus prayed and said, Forgive them Father, for they know not what they are doing
Old testament:
He was bruised for our iniquities; the chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed, All we like sheep have gone astray
new testament:
Did not Jesus suffered the afflictions by the ROman torturous methods? By His stripes, WE ARE HEALED
Dear Father in heaven,
Ya know, Following U is something that I want to do, and it hits me when I realise what great sacrifice U've done so that we may come before U once again. Father, I ask for Ur forgiveness, for I've done a great lot of things that is not right by Ur sight. Forgive me Father. I come before U today Lord.. not asking for anything, but wanting to be in Ur presence...
Friday, October 27, 2006
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Ponderings of a girl
26 Oct 2006
Don’t feel like writing, so I’m typing instead. It’s hard for a girl/woman when it comes to the emotional side of things. It’s even harder when it comes to the matter of the opposite gender, where our hearts turned frail and mushy and desolation sets in when there is nothing happening in that aspect.
Being a girl myself, it’s typical that I do feel that too. Sometimes things can be such a downturn that you wonder whether God really have someone in store for you in your life so that you can spend the rest of your life with him (or if you’re a guy reading this, her). You see people being so lovey dovey and you ask God, will I get someone who would love me for who I am, for the person You’ve created me to be? Then again, there are days when you find, hey! FREEDOM! You can just do whatever you want when you’re single and not worry about anything. You can go and serve God wherever He wants you to go, you don’t have to worry about things that may bog you down (of coz, work is one and your immediate family is one, but we shall put that aside for another day J) You don’t have to worry like your friend does, aiya, I need to check with my boyfriend first to see if it’s ok if I join you guys (come one mate, you’re not married to him .. YET).
Hey, I’m not criticizing those that are attached and all, just seeing things from a different viewpoint that’s all. Haha, who knows in the near future I might end up being like that too, calling and checking with my boyfriend (whoever that is) to let him know that I’m meeting who and who and where and when.
Being a girl, I do wish to be on the other side of the picture. Ya know, human sometimes do think that the grass is greener on the other side (well, it does, doesn’t it, to have someone to love and to care for you and to be assured when you need assurance. Of coz, what I meant is a deeper level of love and caring and support). Ya know, to be able to find someone who truly loves you, and all. Sometimes, we also wonder whether we’re destined to be single as well. I know of friends who prayed that God would not let them be single for the rest of their lives, friends who came to accept their singlehood and friends who desperately seeking for that one partner in their lives (ok, I’ve learnt of something during the camp that we ought not to think of it this way, but I betcha there’s heaps who are thinking this way, probably due to the fact that this is what the TV and movies portray, meet your prince charming, he’s the only one and you live happily ever after. Better not go this direction else it’ll be a big diversion).
Being 24 and haven’t even dated before, it’s hardly always positive for me. I’ve dealt with self esteem, self worth and there are still things that I need to deal with. I think anyone would, when people around you asked you the following questions:
- do you have a boyfriend? (when you answer no, series of questions shot out from their mouth)
- have you paktoh before?
- How come never?
- But…
That’s when I look at them in wonderment and ask, I also wish to know why I’ve never paktoh (dated) before. Maybe coz I was never asked by anyone to be their girlfriend? (ok, NO, I will NOT simple say YES just because someone comes up to me and ask me that question). To be honest, I think these kind of questions, although meant well at times, is not that appropriate. Do you know that you will end up hurting the person you’re asking. I know I did during the first few times people asked me that question. During those times I think of questions like:
- Am I not that attractive?
- Am I really that plain?
- Do guys really think of pretty girls (this one I duno ok!) and go for them?
- Does God really want me to be single for my whole life (gotta admit that I’m scared to know the answer to this question)
- Are guys repelled by me?
And a whole list of questions more. I guess the struggles I went through made me strong as well, for I know I am beautiful, for all of God’s creation is beautiful. Beauty should be seen from God’s eyes and not men. Sometimes these questions do creep into my life time and again, but I’ve learnt and am still learning to continue to trust God’s plan for my life. I figured, heck, I’m only 24, who knows, I might meet a guy later and get married right away after that (haha, my friends would probably freak out). Only God have the masterplan in my life and thus, it’s alright.
Ya know, I’ve friends who said this to me, why not just try out with whoever? Who knows, he might be the right one. I know this works for someone, but for my personality and character, I guess this style of try first and see how doesn’t really work for me? The try that I meant here is the kind where you’re a little teeny weeny attracted to a guy and he comes after you and you just say ok without really thinking through. There’s bound to be some criteria (physical criterias aside) that you would want the other party to fulfill. I’m not the kind that want a person to change himself to suit me… but yet, there are things that I do hope that my partner would have. I just want someone who loves God, who would put God even before me, who would love me for who I am and is genuine with himself and with others. I can’t just try with any other guys who come into the picture (haha, it sounds like there’s a lot, but there isn’t any for a while). I guess that’s just me and who I am.
Ya know, it’s tough at times, being single, hanging out with your friends and their boyfriends. I mean, it’s great that you know, they are together and all, but it’s just that sometimes it makes me think about my singleness a bit more than usual. Things such as self-worth, beauty in the eyes of the beholder, self-esteem does crop into your mind and it’s hard to control the self-pity that seems to be screaming to be let out.
A girlfriend of mine is going through this at the moment. And being through it myself, I still can’t find the words to console her and help her pull through it. I don’t know what I can say to her to make her feel better, to help her feel God’s love in her life (she knows that God does love her, but sometimes things just don’t seem to be as positive as you want it to be eh). There are a lot of other factors that comes into to play, but as a respect to her, I will not reveal too much. I can only pray that God will continue to touch her, for I know He is by her side at all times, and He knows of her tiredness, her weariness and also her desire and feelings. Being her friend, even right now, I guess all I can do is just to lend an ear and a shoulder for her to cry/lean on. Even so, I do pray that the Lord will grant me wisdom to be sensitive to her needs and feelings and to help her through this. And I also pray that ya know, she will lay her burden, her tiredness and her despair before God and allow Him to hold her once again.
Ok, I know I’ve rattled quite a bit and I should stop now. Girls out there who are seeking and even guys, I really do trust that God knows what is best for us and maybe, at the moment, He’s using our singlehood to mold us to be the person that He wants us to be and at the same time doing the same for our life partner as well. I do trust that He will bring that person into my life and at the moment, I do pray that God will continue to take good care of him until the time comes for us to meet and be together.
So at the moment, DO ENJOY your singlehood and use it to do wonders for GOD!
26 Oct 2006
Don’t feel like writing, so I’m typing instead. It’s hard for a girl/woman when it comes to the emotional side of things. It’s even harder when it comes to the matter of the opposite gender, where our hearts turned frail and mushy and desolation sets in when there is nothing happening in that aspect.
Being a girl myself, it’s typical that I do feel that too. Sometimes things can be such a downturn that you wonder whether God really have someone in store for you in your life so that you can spend the rest of your life with him (or if you’re a guy reading this, her). You see people being so lovey dovey and you ask God, will I get someone who would love me for who I am, for the person You’ve created me to be? Then again, there are days when you find, hey! FREEDOM! You can just do whatever you want when you’re single and not worry about anything. You can go and serve God wherever He wants you to go, you don’t have to worry about things that may bog you down (of coz, work is one and your immediate family is one, but we shall put that aside for another day J) You don’t have to worry like your friend does, aiya, I need to check with my boyfriend first to see if it’s ok if I join you guys (come one mate, you’re not married to him .. YET).
Hey, I’m not criticizing those that are attached and all, just seeing things from a different viewpoint that’s all. Haha, who knows in the near future I might end up being like that too, calling and checking with my boyfriend (whoever that is) to let him know that I’m meeting who and who and where and when.
Being a girl, I do wish to be on the other side of the picture. Ya know, human sometimes do think that the grass is greener on the other side (well, it does, doesn’t it, to have someone to love and to care for you and to be assured when you need assurance. Of coz, what I meant is a deeper level of love and caring and support). Ya know, to be able to find someone who truly loves you, and all. Sometimes, we also wonder whether we’re destined to be single as well. I know of friends who prayed that God would not let them be single for the rest of their lives, friends who came to accept their singlehood and friends who desperately seeking for that one partner in their lives (ok, I’ve learnt of something during the camp that we ought not to think of it this way, but I betcha there’s heaps who are thinking this way, probably due to the fact that this is what the TV and movies portray, meet your prince charming, he’s the only one and you live happily ever after. Better not go this direction else it’ll be a big diversion).
Being 24 and haven’t even dated before, it’s hardly always positive for me. I’ve dealt with self esteem, self worth and there are still things that I need to deal with. I think anyone would, when people around you asked you the following questions:
- do you have a boyfriend? (when you answer no, series of questions shot out from their mouth)
- have you paktoh before?
- How come never?
- But…
That’s when I look at them in wonderment and ask, I also wish to know why I’ve never paktoh (dated) before. Maybe coz I was never asked by anyone to be their girlfriend? (ok, NO, I will NOT simple say YES just because someone comes up to me and ask me that question). To be honest, I think these kind of questions, although meant well at times, is not that appropriate. Do you know that you will end up hurting the person you’re asking. I know I did during the first few times people asked me that question. During those times I think of questions like:
- Am I not that attractive?
- Am I really that plain?
- Do guys really think of pretty girls (this one I duno ok!) and go for them?
- Does God really want me to be single for my whole life (gotta admit that I’m scared to know the answer to this question)
- Are guys repelled by me?
And a whole list of questions more. I guess the struggles I went through made me strong as well, for I know I am beautiful, for all of God’s creation is beautiful. Beauty should be seen from God’s eyes and not men. Sometimes these questions do creep into my life time and again, but I’ve learnt and am still learning to continue to trust God’s plan for my life. I figured, heck, I’m only 24, who knows, I might meet a guy later and get married right away after that (haha, my friends would probably freak out). Only God have the masterplan in my life and thus, it’s alright.
Ya know, I’ve friends who said this to me, why not just try out with whoever? Who knows, he might be the right one. I know this works for someone, but for my personality and character, I guess this style of try first and see how doesn’t really work for me? The try that I meant here is the kind where you’re a little teeny weeny attracted to a guy and he comes after you and you just say ok without really thinking through. There’s bound to be some criteria (physical criterias aside) that you would want the other party to fulfill. I’m not the kind that want a person to change himself to suit me… but yet, there are things that I do hope that my partner would have. I just want someone who loves God, who would put God even before me, who would love me for who I am and is genuine with himself and with others. I can’t just try with any other guys who come into the picture (haha, it sounds like there’s a lot, but there isn’t any for a while). I guess that’s just me and who I am.
Ya know, it’s tough at times, being single, hanging out with your friends and their boyfriends. I mean, it’s great that you know, they are together and all, but it’s just that sometimes it makes me think about my singleness a bit more than usual. Things such as self-worth, beauty in the eyes of the beholder, self-esteem does crop into your mind and it’s hard to control the self-pity that seems to be screaming to be let out.
A girlfriend of mine is going through this at the moment. And being through it myself, I still can’t find the words to console her and help her pull through it. I don’t know what I can say to her to make her feel better, to help her feel God’s love in her life (she knows that God does love her, but sometimes things just don’t seem to be as positive as you want it to be eh). There are a lot of other factors that comes into to play, but as a respect to her, I will not reveal too much. I can only pray that God will continue to touch her, for I know He is by her side at all times, and He knows of her tiredness, her weariness and also her desire and feelings. Being her friend, even right now, I guess all I can do is just to lend an ear and a shoulder for her to cry/lean on. Even so, I do pray that the Lord will grant me wisdom to be sensitive to her needs and feelings and to help her through this. And I also pray that ya know, she will lay her burden, her tiredness and her despair before God and allow Him to hold her once again.
Ok, I know I’ve rattled quite a bit and I should stop now. Girls out there who are seeking and even guys, I really do trust that God knows what is best for us and maybe, at the moment, He’s using our singlehood to mold us to be the person that He wants us to be and at the same time doing the same for our life partner as well. I do trust that He will bring that person into my life and at the moment, I do pray that God will continue to take good care of him until the time comes for us to meet and be together.
So at the moment, DO ENJOY your singlehood and use it to do wonders for GOD!
God's Glorious Creation
Today I'm reminded of God's glorious creation. It's a wonder, with the sky's clear, rays of sun breaking through the clouds, bringing light to the earth. Really, the song, I stand in awe comes to mind right now as I write these words. His beautiful creation never cease to amaze and make me in awe.. I truly do thank God for the wonders of the world, be it the small one or the great ones, as they represent His love for us.
Today I'm reminded of God's glorious creation. It's a wonder, with the sky's clear, rays of sun breaking through the clouds, bringing light to the earth. Really, the song, I stand in awe comes to mind right now as I write these words. His beautiful creation never cease to amaze and make me in awe.. I truly do thank God for the wonders of the world, be it the small one or the great ones, as they represent His love for us.
Monday, October 9, 2006
Just Want to share something I've read with you
The Sovereign LORD has given me an instructed tongue,
to know the word that sustains the weary.
He wakens me morning by morning,
wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. (Isaiah 50:4 NIV)
BE A BOAR!
A wild boar was busily sharpening his tusks against a tree in the forest when a fox came by. “Why are you wasting your time in this manner?” asked the fox. “Neither a hunter nor a hound is in sight, and no danger is at hand.” “True enough,” replied the boar, “but when the danger does arise, I will have something else to do than sharpen my weapons.”
It is not time to prepare our defense when the enemy is on the horizon. That is why boarding an airplane may be more inconvenient these days because it is better to find a weapon on the ground than having it brandished while in the air.
Do I sharpen my spiritual defenses on a regular basis or is my thinking more in line with the fox’s “late is great” mentality? Do I awake each day zealously looking for time to listen to what God has to say to me in his Word and then to follow it? Are my ears truly open or do I have an earful already? Am I prepared to be bombarded with desires to live in a way that satisfies a sinful urge for pleasure? Has God instructed me for times of spiritual weariness when disease rages through me? Am I spiritually equipped to live in a world where evil regularly smirks in apparent victory? Is my tongue ready to encourage and sustain the weary with something more than homespun philosophy or wishful thinking?
Be a boar. Be proactive. Take up God’s Word, the Bible. Learn how to use it. Use it regularly. Open your ears to God’s calling. Keep Satan away. Be sustained. After all, what is amazing about Isaiah 50:4 is that it is foremost a prophecy about what Jesus would do when he walked upon the earth. Although Jesus was true God, as a true human being he would be instructed by God the Father and use the words of the Father to sustain us, the weary.
The Sovereign LORD has given me an instructed tongue,
to know the word that sustains the weary.
He wakens me morning by morning,
wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. (Isaiah 50:4 NIV)
BE A BOAR!
A wild boar was busily sharpening his tusks against a tree in the forest when a fox came by. “Why are you wasting your time in this manner?” asked the fox. “Neither a hunter nor a hound is in sight, and no danger is at hand.” “True enough,” replied the boar, “but when the danger does arise, I will have something else to do than sharpen my weapons.”
It is not time to prepare our defense when the enemy is on the horizon. That is why boarding an airplane may be more inconvenient these days because it is better to find a weapon on the ground than having it brandished while in the air.
Do I sharpen my spiritual defenses on a regular basis or is my thinking more in line with the fox’s “late is great” mentality? Do I awake each day zealously looking for time to listen to what God has to say to me in his Word and then to follow it? Are my ears truly open or do I have an earful already? Am I prepared to be bombarded with desires to live in a way that satisfies a sinful urge for pleasure? Has God instructed me for times of spiritual weariness when disease rages through me? Am I spiritually equipped to live in a world where evil regularly smirks in apparent victory? Is my tongue ready to encourage and sustain the weary with something more than homespun philosophy or wishful thinking?
Be a boar. Be proactive. Take up God’s Word, the Bible. Learn how to use it. Use it regularly. Open your ears to God’s calling. Keep Satan away. Be sustained. After all, what is amazing about Isaiah 50:4 is that it is foremost a prophecy about what Jesus would do when he walked upon the earth. Although Jesus was true God, as a true human being he would be instructed by God the Father and use the words of the Father to sustain us, the weary.
Friday, October 6, 2006
Challenge of Faith for the day.
I was very challenged and encouraged by certain statements made in my devotional book today and I would like to share with everyone:
"If we are in Christ, we are in the ministry"
"God calls us to be faithful wherever He puts us"
WE are to be faithful: "To be as serious as a heart attack about God and to encourage others to be as well"
"God calls us to be ministers everyday, everywhere"
"God doesn't call the qualified. He qualifies the CALLED"
Ya know, I was talking to a friend and we came to conclusions that there are Christians out there doing ratings about our faith. I remember a conversation (my friend as well) whereby my Christian friend told me this, "you're different ma, your level is different, so expectation in faith also different. "
I was quite stunned! I was like, hello? What you mean level is different? Fine, I do understand that certain people understand certain things at certain age, whereby your maturity comes into play. But don't you think we ought to strive to draw closer to God and come to realise that this world we're living is temporary? Why do you rate and grade people's faith? I do understand that there are certain people around who's faith is still wavering, who is still seeking, so just found the truth and all. But we are called to be ministers! Ya know, new believers challenges our faith! They ask questions that sometimes we never ask ourselves. I know I was very challenged by my friends' faith! They really believe like kids and it amazes me that certain things that they take into account is so ...accepting. I was ashamed of myself and that helped me to buck up!
No, I was not challenged in the way that I must force myself to know more than them, but rather, to build up my own faith as well! It challenged me in asking more in church, during classes and also to read more of the bible.
Hence, brothers and sisters in Christ, be encouraged and challenged by what I've written and let us continue to build our faith and walk on with Him, the one that has given us LIFE and LIFE abundantly!
I was very challenged and encouraged by certain statements made in my devotional book today and I would like to share with everyone:
"If we are in Christ, we are in the ministry"
"God calls us to be faithful wherever He puts us"
WE are to be faithful: "To be as serious as a heart attack about God and to encourage others to be as well"
"God calls us to be ministers everyday, everywhere"
"God doesn't call the qualified. He qualifies the CALLED"
Ya know, I was talking to a friend and we came to conclusions that there are Christians out there doing ratings about our faith. I remember a conversation (my friend as well) whereby my Christian friend told me this, "you're different ma, your level is different, so expectation in faith also different. "
I was quite stunned! I was like, hello? What you mean level is different? Fine, I do understand that certain people understand certain things at certain age, whereby your maturity comes into play. But don't you think we ought to strive to draw closer to God and come to realise that this world we're living is temporary? Why do you rate and grade people's faith? I do understand that there are certain people around who's faith is still wavering, who is still seeking, so just found the truth and all. But we are called to be ministers! Ya know, new believers challenges our faith! They ask questions that sometimes we never ask ourselves. I know I was very challenged by my friends' faith! They really believe like kids and it amazes me that certain things that they take into account is so ...accepting. I was ashamed of myself and that helped me to buck up!
No, I was not challenged in the way that I must force myself to know more than them, but rather, to build up my own faith as well! It challenged me in asking more in church, during classes and also to read more of the bible.
Hence, brothers and sisters in Christ, be encouraged and challenged by what I've written and let us continue to build our faith and walk on with Him, the one that has given us LIFE and LIFE abundantly!
Thursday, October 5, 2006
Today marks the first day I start work at my new office. This company is called ME (best not write it out J ). My manager is nice, she informed me I only need come in to the office at 1030am, two hours later than usual. So I took my time, preparing myself both mentally and physically for the day.
But my eyes were giving me some problem throughout the day, where it was blurry and was causing my eyes to tear a little. Sad to say, I had to endure it throughout the day, as I did not bring my glasses with me.
On thing sad though, it’s that there is no more season parking left. I had to find other alternatives as parking within the building costs like RM20 per day, which is extremely costly and killing.
There’s a lot of readings and information being chucked to me the first day. And I am briefly informed of certain things that I need to do. I was also brought to meet everyone on the floor, that’s like 80 over people and me, being sooo wonderful with names, forgot them, the minute it’s mentioned. But everyone was fine and was telling me that I will DEFINITELY forget the names and hence, would forgive me for it J
That was the wrap for the day, where readings was what I did for the day.
But my eyes were giving me some problem throughout the day, where it was blurry and was causing my eyes to tear a little. Sad to say, I had to endure it throughout the day, as I did not bring my glasses with me.
On thing sad though, it’s that there is no more season parking left. I had to find other alternatives as parking within the building costs like RM20 per day, which is extremely costly and killing.
There’s a lot of readings and information being chucked to me the first day. And I am briefly informed of certain things that I need to do. I was also brought to meet everyone on the floor, that’s like 80 over people and me, being sooo wonderful with names, forgot them, the minute it’s mentioned. But everyone was fine and was telling me that I will DEFINITELY forget the names and hence, would forgive me for it J
That was the wrap for the day, where readings was what I did for the day.
Wednesday, October 4, 2006
Testimony on New Job
God has been truly good to me, really leading me in many of my decision making opportunities. This is one of them which I want to share with all.
Beginning of year 2006, I’ve thought of changing job. I’ve planned to change around after March, after I get my bonus. Well, my plan is just.. Well, my plan. But God showed me that He has other plans for me. I’ve sent out my resume during the start of the year, on and off, waiting for news to come in for an opening. But it was not so. My waiting continues to be, just that, waiting. It went on for so long that during the month of May, I actually asked God this: Am I such a useless person that no one wants to hire me? Is my resume so bad? Am I deemed to be working in the company for a longer period? I truly did feel that I’m not good enough. But you know, God is truly amazing, and He truly hears my prayer and my questions. And He has his own way of answering my question. A friend called up to inform me that there is an opening in her company, this is an international company by the way; and I casually asked her if the position is alright. Well, I met up with my friend and she informed me of the challenges and the on-goings and etc and so, I’ve passed my resume over to be submitted. Amazingly, the manager for that position informed my friend that he is impressed by my resume and wants to meet up. Even in the email that he sent to me states that. You know, I truly know that it is God’s way of telling me that I am good enough, that I am worthy enough, and I truly am thankful for that.
Well, I went for the interview and I realised one thing after that, that God wants me to wait, I don’t have the peace in my heart to take up the job even if it’s offered to me. And clearly, I know in my heart that God says “September” to me. So I told God this, Lord God, if You want me to wait till September, then fine, I shall wait as You’ve asked me to.
So after that, I continue to focus my attention to my work and occasionally send out my resumes. I started sending them more frequently during the month of June and July.. Definitely so cause September is just around the corner. Still, there is no news and I started to get a little worried. But my heart still continues to pray and uphold this to Jesus.
Miraculously, the last week of July marks the change in my life. Calls from companies started to come in, asking me try out certain positions and to attend interviews. I truly thank God for the chances He’s given me, to meet with the different persons and the different companies.
Even during this time, I was still seeking God for the right job. I’m not very sure what I want to do, still seeking and still learning. But one thing for sure is that I don’t want to work in a place where God does not approve. Hence, I continue to pray and commit this search into His hands. Finally, it was narrowed down to two, and it was probably like one of two weeks before September comes. And furthermore, I would need to give an answer to my then current job by first week of September on whether I am to renew my contract or not. One of the jobs that I interviewed would only give me an answer two weeks later as they regional manager would only be back then. So, on Tuesday on the last week of August, which coincides with the revival night meetings, I went for an interview in the morning. Before I enter the place, I prayed and told God this, God I know that there would be two companies who may be offering me a position. But God, I am not looking at the money, but rather, Your approval. I pray that the right job would be the job that offers me a position first. You decide which one is going to offer to me first and I will follow it through. Once again, I cannot emphasize enough on how miraculous God works. ON that day of interview, the manager offered me the position on the spot! I was so thankful and so utterly speechless after that. God is really amazing when it comes to answering prayer.
From this too, I’ve learnt not one, but two lesson. The first is that God really does answer our prayers. Sometimes we feel that He doesn’t, but He does. It’s just that His answer for me from the beginning was to wait. And when we obey, we will be able to see God’s handiwork in our lives.
Another one is what Proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” You see, I can make whatever plans that I want and decide on when to execute it, but at the end of the day, it is our Lord Father who decides for us.
So, praise God for His works in my life and I pray too, that everyone would be able to see God’s work in your lives and you continue to walk with God.
God has been truly good to me, really leading me in many of my decision making opportunities. This is one of them which I want to share with all.
Beginning of year 2006, I’ve thought of changing job. I’ve planned to change around after March, after I get my bonus. Well, my plan is just.. Well, my plan. But God showed me that He has other plans for me. I’ve sent out my resume during the start of the year, on and off, waiting for news to come in for an opening. But it was not so. My waiting continues to be, just that, waiting. It went on for so long that during the month of May, I actually asked God this: Am I such a useless person that no one wants to hire me? Is my resume so bad? Am I deemed to be working in the company for a longer period? I truly did feel that I’m not good enough. But you know, God is truly amazing, and He truly hears my prayer and my questions. And He has his own way of answering my question. A friend called up to inform me that there is an opening in her company, this is an international company by the way; and I casually asked her if the position is alright. Well, I met up with my friend and she informed me of the challenges and the on-goings and etc and so, I’ve passed my resume over to be submitted. Amazingly, the manager for that position informed my friend that he is impressed by my resume and wants to meet up. Even in the email that he sent to me states that. You know, I truly know that it is God’s way of telling me that I am good enough, that I am worthy enough, and I truly am thankful for that.
Well, I went for the interview and I realised one thing after that, that God wants me to wait, I don’t have the peace in my heart to take up the job even if it’s offered to me. And clearly, I know in my heart that God says “September” to me. So I told God this, Lord God, if You want me to wait till September, then fine, I shall wait as You’ve asked me to.
So after that, I continue to focus my attention to my work and occasionally send out my resumes. I started sending them more frequently during the month of June and July.. Definitely so cause September is just around the corner. Still, there is no news and I started to get a little worried. But my heart still continues to pray and uphold this to Jesus.
Miraculously, the last week of July marks the change in my life. Calls from companies started to come in, asking me try out certain positions and to attend interviews. I truly thank God for the chances He’s given me, to meet with the different persons and the different companies.
Even during this time, I was still seeking God for the right job. I’m not very sure what I want to do, still seeking and still learning. But one thing for sure is that I don’t want to work in a place where God does not approve. Hence, I continue to pray and commit this search into His hands. Finally, it was narrowed down to two, and it was probably like one of two weeks before September comes. And furthermore, I would need to give an answer to my then current job by first week of September on whether I am to renew my contract or not. One of the jobs that I interviewed would only give me an answer two weeks later as they regional manager would only be back then. So, on Tuesday on the last week of August, which coincides with the revival night meetings, I went for an interview in the morning. Before I enter the place, I prayed and told God this, God I know that there would be two companies who may be offering me a position. But God, I am not looking at the money, but rather, Your approval. I pray that the right job would be the job that offers me a position first. You decide which one is going to offer to me first and I will follow it through. Once again, I cannot emphasize enough on how miraculous God works. ON that day of interview, the manager offered me the position on the spot! I was so thankful and so utterly speechless after that. God is really amazing when it comes to answering prayer.
From this too, I’ve learnt not one, but two lesson. The first is that God really does answer our prayers. Sometimes we feel that He doesn’t, but He does. It’s just that His answer for me from the beginning was to wait. And when we obey, we will be able to see God’s handiwork in our lives.
Another one is what Proverbs 19:21 says, “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” You see, I can make whatever plans that I want and decide on when to execute it, but at the end of the day, it is our Lord Father who decides for us.
So, praise God for His works in my life and I pray too, that everyone would be able to see God’s work in your lives and you continue to walk with God.
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