Christmas is just around the corner. Can't believe it, Christmas day is the day that marks my return to my homeland for one year. Seriously, one year has past but the memories of the time in Gippsland is so fresh in my heart and mind. It's amazing how fast time flies.



Will never deny the fact that the one year I was in Gippsland was the happiest in my life. Being surrounded by friends who are like family to me, makes it even sweeter. Really really amaze me, the friendships that was built then. Never in my entire life have I ever had such close friends in my life, so much so that there was never an issue on give and take, but everyone was willing to give and give. Such joy, such beauty in our friendship.



The last trip down was very memorable as well. Although things were weird at first, for a year since we've met up, but slowly things were like last time. I have had a great time, the things that we did, the games that we played, the silliness that existed during that time, brings such great memories of the past to me. I seriously did not want to leave that day, my heart was truly breaking as the bus pulled away from the station. Though they are still in sight, still there seeing us go, I willed them not too. But reality is reality, coming back is truly reality.



Went to work the next day, but came home half day, couldn't take it, not feeling well.. mebe it was heart ache, I do not know, but it took me a while to get back up.



Thank you for G and LA, who helped me through a period where it hurts, where everything seemed to be wrong, where everything seem to fade... thank you for being there for me, for helping me up and most of all, for loving me.

LIfe is definitely a mystery, yet this is one mystery that we can solve with God's help. Though it might not always be the answer that we hope or wish it to be, but yet, the answer is there.



God has truly bless me in my life, taking good care of me since I was a little girl and even till now, a young working adult. Sometimes it's hard to comprehend the ways of God, and sometimes we find it hard to follow Him through that narrow path. But praise God, for we don't have to walk that narrow path on our own. All we have to do is just to ask Him, Father, can you help me and guide me through this narrow path, He will answer, yes, my dear child, let me hold your hand and guide you. If you allow God to take hold of your hand, praise Him! The path will not feel so narrow anymore, for you'll know where to step. Sometimes we may stumble and fall, but when we cry out to our Father in heaven, He will turn around and carry you through. I've stumbled and fall many times, yet, He never once choose not to help me up. I've took a tumble recently and He was there when I cried out to Him. Praise Him for He is always with us. Sometimes we wonder, is God with us? All we need to do is just to be still for a moment, and we will hear Him. Look up to the sky, you'll see the beauty of His creation. Let everything around you quiet down, and you'll hear Him. Let our heart quiet down and be at peace, and you'll feel HIm around you.



Praise God for His love, praise God for His everlasting love..

Sometimes life can be so unpredictable. There's so many happenings in life that you find it hard to be still for a moment and think things through. Sometimes find it hard to be still and wait on Him, my world is so bombarded by things... wana learn to be still and wait on Him. Maybe it'll be different then, things I mean....

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now :

- why am I feeling the way I am

- how's my blog now

- why must I go to work tomorrow

- should I sleep or should I watch vcd



Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:

- Slurpee

- watches

- a pair of shoes (in spore)

- Korean vcd



Name the Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :

- Water

- Orange juice

- yoghurt

- teh ping



Name the Four things You Wish To Have :

- a closer relationship with God

- close friends to be around me always

- A bookshop of my own

- love



Last person chatted online with?

- Geraldine



Last Time You Cried?

- About an hour ago



What's Under Your Bed?

- nothing lor..



Current Clothes

- my pj



Current Desktop Picture:

- picture of Mel, Alicia n me



Current Screen Saver:

- can't remember, think it's pictures



Current Worry ?

- why the heck I am so depress at the moment



Current Hate ?

- feeling depressed



Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex

- don't go for physical, but more of personality



Favourite Place To Be?

- some place where I am happier



Least Favorite Place?

- place that makes me sad and hurtful



Favorite Color(s)?

- red, pink, black



Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?

- yes, I do believe in heaven



Current Favorite Word/Saying?

- cacat



One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could be?

- myself when I was closer to God than now



Favourite Days?

- in Gippsland with my friends



Favorite Bike?

- erm... duno.. gime a mountain bike and i'll cycle lar



Favourite Cartoon Character?

- anime can?? they are soo cute



Favourite Food ?

- lai fun (only available in gopeng, ipoh



Favourite song?

- I need you Lord



What do you like to do most?

- read and sing



Do you like to eat fish or chicken?

- chicken, scared of fish, coz there was a time I'm always cooking fish at home.. ergh



Do you like to complete your homework in school or at home?

- at home lor.. but now no more homework lor



Do you skip school often ?

- only when I was in Uni in Gippsland... kekek



What are you doing now?

- nothing, trying to find something to occupy me so that I don't feel what I don't want to feel

Feeling very depress at the moment. Can someone explain to me why am I crying almost every day? Seriously have no idea what is wrong. Am very very tired physically, spiritually and mentally.... God, is there something wrong with me???

Emotions' unstable at the moment. Hard to explain why it happen, but will continue to try to be strong.. feeling vulnerable emotionally as well.. Pray that things will be better soon.

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