In the midst of everything, you are still very real to me. You know my thoughts, you know my feelings.. you know of the fears that cultivates in my heart and you crushes them away. You see the joy that is in my heart and blooms it even further, filling my heart with all of it.
You are with me day and night,... even when I cannot see or feel you. You are by my side and carrying me through, even when I feel all alone and without care.
When insecurity kicks into my life, you replace it with love that overcomes it.
When sadness punctures my heart, you allow grieve to fill me, but at the same time, filling yourself with it too. When things becomes so overburdening, you came to lift it away from me
I'm truly thankful for the grace you've shown to me and for the love that surpasses all understanding. In my teeniest mind I can never comprehend the vastness of your heart, but you, your Spirit, fills my heart with all of you.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Tired
Tired both from work and from clearing people's mess. I really do hope that those people will come to their senses and realise what they are getting themselves into and not just allow their emotions to take hold of them. It's easy to allow emotions to get hold of you, but having gone through the same thing over and over again, can't you learn to take a step back and see things in a sound position rather than just let your emotions run on a choo choo train? I'm tired, really tired of all these mess.
Father Lord, grant them sound mind and the maturity to bring themselves out of whatever they've gotten themselves into Lord.
Father Lord, grant them sound mind and the maturity to bring themselves out of whatever they've gotten themselves into Lord.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Lost money
Sigh, lost more than RM50 earlier. Went to buy contact solution. Remembered putting it into my wallet. But for the strangest reason, it's not there. Probably dropped it. Sad... since I'm quite tight this month. Oh well, nothing I can do about it...
May the good Lord bless whoever who gets it...
May the good Lord bless whoever who gets it...
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Crazy work schedule
My crazy work schedule has kick started. It's definitely not easy to deal with client's demand and trying to manage things and make sure that everyone agrees with the scheduling. Sometimes I wonder if I can cope with this job, one that really does drain me out at times. Remembering times when it ought to be celebration with friends, but then because of my work, it's dampened. But I do still praise God for the fact that I do enjoy certain things that I'm doing right now. And I do thank God for granting me strength and a way out when things doesn't seem to be working on well with work. I guess I need time to get used to the craziness of my work... life of craziness... prob overflowed from the uni days where I'm so crazy myself.. hehe..
Praise You Father,
For Your awesomeness
Praise You Father,
For the wonders You've shown to me
Praise You Father,
For You are worthy to be praised
Burdens I lay before Your feet
Knowing You will lighten it
Barriers I pray You'll remove
Seeking to draw closer to You
See me Father and know my heart
I yearn and long to draw closer to You each day
Praise You Father,
For Your awesomeness
Praise You Father,
For the wonders You've shown to me
Praise You Father,
For You are worthy to be praised
Burdens I lay before Your feet
Knowing You will lighten it
Barriers I pray You'll remove
Seeking to draw closer to You
See me Father and know my heart
I yearn and long to draw closer to You each day
Reminder
Seek the Lord with all your heart and not just to gain knowledge... this is something that I need to constantly drill to myself. Sometimes I feel that things just doesn't sink in.... i gain the knowledge, i know some of the words used, but what's the relevance? Sigh, Lord, please help me to see and let not Ur Word be like those seed that falls on the rocky ground, on amongst the thorns and so on.
A friend shared a song with me. It's been a while... and I used to have this song until my computer crashed and all my songs was gone. A very simple song from the Shout to the Lord kids album:
A true reminder of "giving" urself to God.
A friend shared a song with me. It's been a while... and I used to have this song until my computer crashed and all my songs was gone. A very simple song from the Shout to the Lord kids album:
MY HEART YOUR HOME (D)
Verse:
D A/C# Bm
Come and make my heart Your home
D/A G D/F# A
Come and be everything I am and all I know
D A/C# Bm
Search me through and through
D/A G A D
Until my heart becomes a home for You
Chorus:
D G A D
A home for You, O Lord
D G A D
A home for You, O Lord
D G Bm G
Let everything I do open up the door for You to come through
A
That my heart may be a place
A7
Where You want to be
A true reminder of "giving" urself to God.
Monday, May 7, 2007
UPdates
Disappeared again! haha, haven't been updating the blog again since the workaholic notations. Let's see what's been happening in my life for the past weeks.
1. Did a presentation in front of the client last month. My very first one and I was sooooo tension! So scared of saying the wrong thing. When it was over and done with, I was glad that I've managed to say what is needed to be said and all. Yet, I do know that there are heaps of things that I need to improve on. Did not actually do a very good job in it. Oh well, it's a first. Will get a hang of it later I guess.
2. Was worship leading alongside Pris when I realised I got no more voice! I'm supposed to speak during offering n prayer, and I ended looking at Pris and mouthing, "NO VOICE" to her. Haha, my attempt at prayer ended up sounding so hoarse that I wonder if people can hear me. Oh well, it's a prayer for Him and not for others. Not to self, SLEEP EARLIER n DRINK MORE WATER.
3. Had a crazy last Monday. Flew to Singapore in the morning and flew back in the afternoon. It felt really surreal... but it was crazy when I was there. Met Lucy (the office's cleaning lady) who commented... u come here to study arh? Apparently I look like a student with my backpack and casual. Sigh.... hello! I'm not that young ok!
4. Went to Malacca (more accounts later on) and aside from all the sweats (literal) I had a great time there
5. Spent the rest of the week in a daze, can't remember exactly what I did for the rest of the weekdays after the holiday break.
6. Went to a friend's wedding. The church is beautiful! There were so many stained glass surrounding the church that really makes me think of the passages in the bible. The one that struck me was the picture of sheeps and a staff, reminding me of Psalm 23, The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want...
7. Had a glass of wine, went dizzy after that. Reason: I gulped it down too fast! Haha, not really a fan of wine, was just helping... overly enthusiastic I guess. I was okay though, just a bit dizzy if I make sudden movement.
8. Went to a brethren church on Sunday. An eye opener... never been to one, so it's something different. Fell in love with one of the hymns, can't remember how it goes or it's title, but I remembered it to be number 713. Should get it from my friend...
9. Remembered what was shared during the service. Talking about "When bad things happened". I remembered the person sharing mentioned that people who ask, "Why did God let this happened". It reminds me of the incident in Virginia Tech and in Columbine High School. Tragic incidents.. yet people blame God and all. What Geri shared in her blog is quite true. We asked God where He was when bad things happened. Yet, we rejected Him when things are going well, we pushed Him away, we turn the other way from Him. Yet, when things happened, we ask where He was. He is always there, it was just us who turned away.
Will share more another day I guess. Having a headache right now, guessed it's triggered by my "wonderful" job. kekeke.... not complaining, am still thankful that I have a job here.
1. Did a presentation in front of the client last month. My very first one and I was sooooo tension! So scared of saying the wrong thing. When it was over and done with, I was glad that I've managed to say what is needed to be said and all. Yet, I do know that there are heaps of things that I need to improve on. Did not actually do a very good job in it. Oh well, it's a first. Will get a hang of it later I guess.
2. Was worship leading alongside Pris when I realised I got no more voice! I'm supposed to speak during offering n prayer, and I ended looking at Pris and mouthing, "NO VOICE" to her. Haha, my attempt at prayer ended up sounding so hoarse that I wonder if people can hear me. Oh well, it's a prayer for Him and not for others. Not to self, SLEEP EARLIER n DRINK MORE WATER.
3. Had a crazy last Monday. Flew to Singapore in the morning and flew back in the afternoon. It felt really surreal... but it was crazy when I was there. Met Lucy (the office's cleaning lady) who commented... u come here to study arh? Apparently I look like a student with my backpack and casual. Sigh.... hello! I'm not that young ok!
4. Went to Malacca (more accounts later on) and aside from all the sweats (literal) I had a great time there
5. Spent the rest of the week in a daze, can't remember exactly what I did for the rest of the weekdays after the holiday break.
6. Went to a friend's wedding. The church is beautiful! There were so many stained glass surrounding the church that really makes me think of the passages in the bible. The one that struck me was the picture of sheeps and a staff, reminding me of Psalm 23, The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want...
7. Had a glass of wine, went dizzy after that. Reason: I gulped it down too fast! Haha, not really a fan of wine, was just helping... overly enthusiastic I guess. I was okay though, just a bit dizzy if I make sudden movement.
8. Went to a brethren church on Sunday. An eye opener... never been to one, so it's something different. Fell in love with one of the hymns, can't remember how it goes or it's title, but I remembered it to be number 713. Should get it from my friend...
9. Remembered what was shared during the service. Talking about "When bad things happened". I remembered the person sharing mentioned that people who ask, "Why did God let this happened". It reminds me of the incident in Virginia Tech and in Columbine High School. Tragic incidents.. yet people blame God and all. What Geri shared in her blog is quite true. We asked God where He was when bad things happened. Yet, we rejected Him when things are going well, we pushed Him away, we turn the other way from Him. Yet, when things happened, we ask where He was. He is always there, it was just us who turned away.
Will share more another day I guess. Having a headache right now, guessed it's triggered by my "wonderful" job. kekeke.... not complaining, am still thankful that I have a job here.
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