Realised one thing that's happening in the churches in Malaysia, well, at least in Klang Valley to be exact. There's so many youth out there who are hungry and seeking God, even youth in churches. But what's happening to the churches around? It's not the first time that I'm hearing people complaining about their own church, even for me, I do that as well. God, I'm not forsaking You, I need You more than ever, but I also need support from others to help me grow. Lord, hear the cry of the youth in this nation Lord, I pray that You'll bring revival, sweep through this land and awaken Your people Lord. We need You, we desperately need You.
Churches, rise up, look at the youth in your church, don't just wait and see.. but be ready to strive and intercede for them.. even the government claims that the youth will rise up to be the emerging leaders of this nation. Come then, pray and intercede for the youth of this nation, that they will rise up and take on the world, in God's way.
Wake up and realise, we're young, we're kinda lost, and we need guidance. We don't need everyday high, but we need everyday God. We don't really know what to do and who to turn to when we face problems, God you say. We do that, but God never says to stay away from the elders of the church. Stop rebuking our ways of praising God, but understand, this is how we release, how we say we love God, how we say we hunger for Him.
Youth of this nation, do you hunger? Then turn and look to God. Lord, hear the cry of the youth, come then and move... come then and move this nation.
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Tuesday, August 9, 2005
Realised that in this world, there's so many heart wrenching love stories. Stories of love that never took place, stories that ends in hurt and anger, stories that ends in loss and ache.
For those who are now with the one that you know you want to spend the rest of your life with, be thankful for this gift of love. It is truly hard to be able to find someone who loves you as much as you do him/her.
For those who are still searching, be patience, for God already have someone in mind for you. He's just waiting for the right time to present him/her to you. Who knows, that person might be the one next to you.
For those who have been hurt, who have been angered, who's aching, it's time to let go. Let God take this hurt with Him and let Him fill you with love. When you decided to let go, that's when you truly move on and enjoy life.
Learn to be thankful for the little things in life.. be thankful for the fact that you can still walk and talk and filled with emotion. Think of those, who wished that they can walk and talk like you. Be thankful that you are alive, for to live is a gift in itself. Be thankful that you can see the changes that is happening, for only then you may change yourself.
But most of all, be thankful that we all can love, for the greatest gift of all is love.
For those who are now with the one that you know you want to spend the rest of your life with, be thankful for this gift of love. It is truly hard to be able to find someone who loves you as much as you do him/her.
For those who are still searching, be patience, for God already have someone in mind for you. He's just waiting for the right time to present him/her to you. Who knows, that person might be the one next to you.
For those who have been hurt, who have been angered, who's aching, it's time to let go. Let God take this hurt with Him and let Him fill you with love. When you decided to let go, that's when you truly move on and enjoy life.
Learn to be thankful for the little things in life.. be thankful for the fact that you can still walk and talk and filled with emotion. Think of those, who wished that they can walk and talk like you. Be thankful that you are alive, for to live is a gift in itself. Be thankful that you can see the changes that is happening, for only then you may change yourself.
But most of all, be thankful that we all can love, for the greatest gift of all is love.
Saturday, August 6, 2005
Why do ppl run away from the things in their life? This is one question that came into my mind today. Seriously, I wonder... is it natural to run.
I used to face changed without even caring about would happen... but now, for every step that I take towards the future, there is this nagging fear that grows bit by bit in me? What happened to the old me, whom, though carrying fear inside of her, continue to strive on and face those fears? I truly wonder... have I changed that much? Who am I now? Do i really know myself? I wonder at times...
The power of the mind... can make u think clearly and also confuse at the same time... Dear Lord, I'll leave it into your hands....
I used to face changed without even caring about would happen... but now, for every step that I take towards the future, there is this nagging fear that grows bit by bit in me? What happened to the old me, whom, though carrying fear inside of her, continue to strive on and face those fears? I truly wonder... have I changed that much? Who am I now? Do i really know myself? I wonder at times...
The power of the mind... can make u think clearly and also confuse at the same time... Dear Lord, I'll leave it into your hands....
Thursday, August 4, 2005
A BABY'S HUG
We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik ina high chair and noticed everyone was quietly eating and talking. Suddenly Erik squealed with glee and said, " Hi there." He pounded hisfat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes were crinkled in laughterand his mouth was bared in a toothless grin, as he wriggled and giggledwith merriment. I looked around for the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pantswere baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-beshoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed.His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was sovaricose it looked like a round map. We were too far from him to smell, but I wassure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. "Hi there, baby, Hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster" the man said to Erik. My husband and I exchanged looks. "What do we do?" Erik continued tolaugh at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisancewith my beautiful baby. Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, "Do ya patty cak? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look he knowspeek-a-boo." Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husbandand I were embarrassed. We ate in silence, all except for Erik, who wasrunning through his repertoire for the admiring skid row bum, who in turn,reciprocated with his cute comments. We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband wentto pay and check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old mansat poised between me and the door. "Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik," I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him andavoid air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm,reaching with both arms in a baby's "pick-me-up" position. Before I couldstop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man's. Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their loverelationship.Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head uponthe man's ragged shoulder. The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneathhis eye lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled mybaby's bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeplyfor so short a time. I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erikin his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, " You take care of this baby."Somehow I managed, "I will," from a throat that contained a stone.He pried Erik from his chest unwillingly, longingly, as though he were inpain. I received my baby, and the man said, "God bless you, ma'am, you've givenme my Christmas gift." I said nothing more than a muttered thanks. With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I wascrying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, "My God, my God, forgiveme."I had witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment, a child who saw a soul, and a motherwho saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child whowas not. I felt it was God asking, "Are you willing to share your son for a moment?"when He shared His for all eternity. The ragged old man, unwittingly, hadreminded me, "To enter the Kingdom of God, we must become as little children."
We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik ina high chair and noticed everyone was quietly eating and talking. Suddenly Erik squealed with glee and said, " Hi there." He pounded hisfat baby hands on the high chair tray. His eyes were crinkled in laughterand his mouth was bared in a toothless grin, as he wriggled and giggledwith merriment. I looked around for the source of his merriment. It was a man whose pantswere baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-beshoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed.His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was sovaricose it looked like a round map. We were too far from him to smell, but I wassure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. "Hi there, baby, Hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster" the man said to Erik. My husband and I exchanged looks. "What do we do?" Erik continued tolaugh at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisancewith my beautiful baby. Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, "Do ya patty cak? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look he knowspeek-a-boo." Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husbandand I were embarrassed. We ate in silence, all except for Erik, who wasrunning through his repertoire for the admiring skid row bum, who in turn,reciprocated with his cute comments. We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband wentto pay and check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old mansat poised between me and the door. "Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik," I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him andavoid air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm,reaching with both arms in a baby's "pick-me-up" position. Before I couldstop him, Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man's. Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their loverelationship.Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head uponthe man's ragged shoulder. The man's eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneathhis eye lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor, cradled mybaby's bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeplyfor so short a time. I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erikin his arms and his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, " You take care of this baby."Somehow I managed, "I will," from a throat that contained a stone.He pried Erik from his chest unwillingly, longingly, as though he were inpain. I received my baby, and the man said, "God bless you, ma'am, you've givenme my Christmas gift." I said nothing more than a muttered thanks. With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I wascrying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, "My God, my God, forgiveme."I had witnessed Christ's love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment, a child who saw a soul, and a motherwho saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child whowas not. I felt it was God asking, "Are you willing to share your son for a moment?"when He shared His for all eternity. The ragged old man, unwittingly, hadreminded me, "To enter the Kingdom of God, we must become as little children."
there seemed to be some conflict amongst the closest ppl in the department. Wondered if it'll affect me... I have no idea what has happened, but I do hope that things will be better for them soon. It's sad to know that minor things can be blown to this extent. There seemed to be some tension in the air the whole day. Truly, it's affecting my attention. Finding it a little hard to concentrate on my work... sighh...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
I'm not trying to brag or anything, but I've finished work for the week. Now am feeling a little tired. Probably because I haven't been sleeping well for the past few nights.
The skies for the past few days was quite polluted.. it seems that it's due to smog from the burning of the forest in Indonesia and also for the fire at Cyberjaya reserved park. Visibility was so low and the air was so thick with burning smell that I almost ran to my car after work on Monday. But thankfully, it's been raining in the morning for the past few days, so it has helped cleared the air a little.
Went for this charity dinner last night at Tropicana Golf Club. Not too bad, did not expect such a big crowd though. Everything's kinda cool... was feeling a little awkward though, coz I only found out when I reach there that I'll be sitting with my friend's family... but it's cool, they all seemed like very nice ppl. The sister's kinda sweet as well :D
There heaps of music going on.. still find it amazing to see so many talented people in a place. There's just groups and groups of ppl walking up to the stage to perform, and performing for the Lord they are. Had a great time there.
Yesterday was also Swee Wei's birthday.. did something that I took for granted for her and got a surprise. Called her and sang happy birthday to her.. she went "OMG" lots of times, then finally mentioned that she's gona cry. I was kinda dumbfounded to get confirmation from G that she was about to burst into tears... really the things that we do may seem to be of nothing to us, but to the ppl who hears it or receives it... was joy/sorrow it might bring to them. Makes me realise that I should be careful of the things that I do or say, because it does affect the other parties
The skies for the past few days was quite polluted.. it seems that it's due to smog from the burning of the forest in Indonesia and also for the fire at Cyberjaya reserved park. Visibility was so low and the air was so thick with burning smell that I almost ran to my car after work on Monday. But thankfully, it's been raining in the morning for the past few days, so it has helped cleared the air a little.
Went for this charity dinner last night at Tropicana Golf Club. Not too bad, did not expect such a big crowd though. Everything's kinda cool... was feeling a little awkward though, coz I only found out when I reach there that I'll be sitting with my friend's family... but it's cool, they all seemed like very nice ppl. The sister's kinda sweet as well :D
There heaps of music going on.. still find it amazing to see so many talented people in a place. There's just groups and groups of ppl walking up to the stage to perform, and performing for the Lord they are. Had a great time there.
Yesterday was also Swee Wei's birthday.. did something that I took for granted for her and got a surprise. Called her and sang happy birthday to her.. she went "OMG" lots of times, then finally mentioned that she's gona cry. I was kinda dumbfounded to get confirmation from G that she was about to burst into tears... really the things that we do may seem to be of nothing to us, but to the ppl who hears it or receives it... was joy/sorrow it might bring to them. Makes me realise that I should be careful of the things that I do or say, because it does affect the other parties
Wednesday, August 3, 2005
there seemed to be some conflict amongst the closest ppl in the department. Wondered if it'll affect me... I have no idea what has happened, but I do hope that things will be better for them soon. It's sad to know that minor things can be blown to this extent. There seemed to be some tension in the air the whole day. Truly, it's affecting my attention. Finding it a little hard to concentrate on my work... sighh...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
work seemed to be quite ok for me these few days... i cannot imagine that i can finish my planned work for the week by today. yeap, there's just like 5 more and I'm done. But then again, that's that. We still have heaps in the pending folder. 110 to be exact. I've been quite tired from working on so many emails in a day.. straining my eyes too much. I have a feeling that my eyes power will increase again soon.. sigh.. sad ain't it.. not good man... arrggghhh....
I need to talk to boss about my contract and my leave.. how lar? I don't know how to start on it.. sigh.. dilemma man...
Monday, August 1, 2005
time of blogging
It's been quite a while since I've blogged. i've been busy? I have no idea, really.. there are times when I seemed to be so overwhelmed by everything that I've lost touch of ... everything... weird ain't it. Well, decided to write a little of wat i've been doing in my life besides work.
1. Going out for dinner every week with friends
2. Movie's the second of the list
3. Stay at home watching anime
4. Doing nothing but hiding in my room
5. ...
Rather unproductive I would say, but oh well... have no idea how to spend the times that I have... most of the time i'm so tired after work that I'd not do anything but just hide in my room, wishing for peace and comfort to envelope me. Rather looking forward to the weekends, where I get to stay at home the whole day! Haha.. but not entirely true as I have been hanging out with my friend some of these weekends as well.
It's been a while since I was out with my taekwondo gang, it feels different, but still nice. Crap like mad, joking, teasing, whatever we could think of... rather fun I would say. I guess sometimes it's tough, the way things are in my life right now..
At the moment, I just wish that my brother will get a house so that we can really stay as one family once again, but then again, I might not be able to enjoy the freedom that I have now, coz staying with my family means more responsibility on my part. Maybe it's a good thing too, since I've kinda been running away from responsibilities that I need to bear... weird.. sighh.. things are going awkward for me at church... the teens are disappearing, even I am disappearing.. commitment.. wat is that? Oh dear Lord, just hope that You will bring a good shepard to lead your people once again...
It's been quite a while since I've blogged. i've been busy? I have no idea, really.. there are times when I seemed to be so overwhelmed by everything that I've lost touch of ... everything... weird ain't it. Well, decided to write a little of wat i've been doing in my life besides work.
1. Going out for dinner every week with friends
2. Movie's the second of the list
3. Stay at home watching anime
4. Doing nothing but hiding in my room
5. ...
Rather unproductive I would say, but oh well... have no idea how to spend the times that I have... most of the time i'm so tired after work that I'd not do anything but just hide in my room, wishing for peace and comfort to envelope me. Rather looking forward to the weekends, where I get to stay at home the whole day! Haha.. but not entirely true as I have been hanging out with my friend some of these weekends as well.
It's been a while since I was out with my taekwondo gang, it feels different, but still nice. Crap like mad, joking, teasing, whatever we could think of... rather fun I would say. I guess sometimes it's tough, the way things are in my life right now..
At the moment, I just wish that my brother will get a house so that we can really stay as one family once again, but then again, I might not be able to enjoy the freedom that I have now, coz staying with my family means more responsibility on my part. Maybe it's a good thing too, since I've kinda been running away from responsibilities that I need to bear... weird.. sighh.. things are going awkward for me at church... the teens are disappearing, even I am disappearing.. commitment.. wat is that? Oh dear Lord, just hope that You will bring a good shepard to lead your people once again...
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