Singapore, I ain't seeing you til next month

Supposed to be down in Singapore tomorrow onwards for training cum retreat. However, due to the chicken pox that my boss' son has, it has been postponed till later. Gosh, can't believe it actually, because Friday is my birthday (nay, not making big announcement here) and some of my friends in Singapore was planning to take me out for dinner, or something of that sort. But now, too bad. What's more, my Malaysian friends knows that I'm going to Singapore and there isn't anything planned. So I guess I would just stay at home for the night, since there isn't much for me to do anyhow.

Wanted to write more, but duno wat to write suddenly... oh well...

Times of Refreshing and Revival

Praise God for He is worthy of all praise! Only He and He alone are one true God, undeniable, indescribable, irreplaceable, almighty, great, wonderful, generous, loving, caring, peace maker and many many more! Praise God for He is worthy to be praised!

Having attended the revival meetings by Rev Timothy Yeung, I feel greatly blessed and made to understand better on how the Holy Spirit works and what worship really is.

I agree with what he say, worship is borne out of the fact that you hunger God. We are all created to worship, that's why no matter who and where, people do worship something or some gods in their lives. Maybe for atheist, who said they don't believe in anything but themselves, but allow me to be bold in my own opinion, that they do worship themselves by saying that... but this is purely my opinion and no one self. God created us to worship Him, but because of the fall of Adam and Eve, we have become separated from Him. But our nature of worshipping is still in existence.

One thing shared that strucks me strongly is that we are worshippers of God must hunger for more of Him! We are like parched lands, so dry that we're so cracked inside. In parched lands, nothing can grow, nothing at all. Only well-watered lands has plantations. We are like parched lands, and thus, there isn't anything growing in us. But if we hunger for more of Him, our loving Father will water us with more and more of the Holy Spirit, allowing us to drink more and more and more of Him to the extend that we no longer because a parched land but instead, a land that is well-watered and things will GROW!

One strong reminder that strucks me is this: those of us who are in praise and worship can always demand the best, be the best drummer, be the best guitarist, be the best worship leader and etc, but beware that it becomes a habit. He's not saying that we ought not to do our best for GOd, but we are to beware of the possibility that in our quest of pursuing to do our best, we forgot the main reason for our worship. God doesn't demand us to be perfect, but in all that we have, we are to do our best. Do the best with what you have. If you have the best equipment and you are playing the best music, but if you are not up there to worship God, then there isn't any difference between us and those concerts that's out there. Always remember what we are up there for. We are up there to lead the people into worshipping God. We are priests that leads people to draw closer to God. How? By proclaiming God's greatness. There isn't any ways or methods, but rather, acknowledge who God is and that in itself, will bring about your church to draw closer to God.

Christians out there, always remind yourself not to be a benchwarmer. But everytime you go to church, go with a heart of wanting more of God. DOn't just sit there, but go with a strong desire for more of God and to see God move. When christians get together, don't just chit chat and all, but use that as an opportunity to fellowship and to exalt God together.

GOd is great! Always always great.

Sometimes we never thought of this, but God took the FIRST STEP to draw closer to us. It is not us. He took the first step by sending His one and only son to the earth to be sacrificed on our behalf. Those who are parents, can you imagine sending your son to the gallows? I may not be able imagine the suffering that parents goes through, but the thought of it is incomprehensible to the point that it's unphantomable. But God did just that. He sent his son to die for us.... and what does he want from us? Only that we would want Him in our lives again.

Father Lord, I thank You for the time of refreshing and the chance to witness your great powers moving mightly amongst Your people. Lord, I believe revival is heating up in this nation, and Lord, I pray that I would have the chance to participate in it. May Your anointing continue to fall in this nation and may Your fire continue to light up more and more of Your people to come and draw closer to You. Thank You for Your amazing presence, thank You for Your amazing revelation and thank You for You!

Troubles after problems

Probably in a deep shit situation right now. A junior staff was directed with a nasty email and what I meant as help in my reply email... it was sent instead to the owner of the nasty email. My boss found out about it and he is not happy. I didn't realise until my boss called me, and being the cause of it, he said this is one thing i need to settle myself.

Oh well, called another supplier who got involved and ta, he is "selamba aje". Even told me not to worry and that he will talk to the owner of the nasty email.

My boss? I smsed him saying I've spoken to the nice supplier and he is alright with things. He replied asking me to be careful with the direction of my emails.

Like very simple hor? Monday still have to face the nasty email owner .... what can I do? Pray....

p/s: my life has been very dramatic ever since I worked here. Never knew I can:
-do so many things at one time
-resolve so many problems that arise i.e. how? i need a dvd player (boss)..(me) ok, I go home and get it now (group starts in less than 45 minutes).
-manage such crazy bunch of people in a go
-too many to list..

Tired, but looking towards the one who can give me rest

I'm tired... felt like I've aged a lot working here. One month of working seems to me as though it's one year of working. I'm drained, with no one to lean on at work.

Only He, and He alone can I look up and find peace.
Only Him, that I am able to turn to and pour my heart out

I'm tired Lord, and I turn to You for rest
I'm burdened, and I turned to You for your light burdens
I'm weary, and I turned to You for your ease

I may not understand what's going on, but LOrd, I will continue to trust in You at all times, and not try to comprehend things on my own. Lord, I acknowledge Your presence in my life and allow You to direct my path....

Work is quite draining at the moment. Feel like giving up, but still, only God knows the best timing for me to do so. Will hold on, not the work, but on God and on His promises for my life. Want to grow deeper in Him, for loving Him is also the greatest gift in my life.

Can I comprehend without Him in my life? I can't.... even before I accepted Him into my heart and life, He has already been working to draw me in. How wonderful our God is, that He knows us even before we are formed? Incomprehensible, for such an almightly God would choose a mere me to live in me....

Oh Holy Spirit, stir in me, that I may once again burn for Him... with a passion unspent.... in entirety, to serve Him from my humble being...

Faith

Once again, grateful and humbled by God's word. What is not only believing what we cannot see, but faith is acting on what you know full well is true.

Sometimes I guess, we always console ourselves, hey, we just need to believe in God, and that's faith. But in reality, faith is not only believing in God but it encompasses action too. What action, we are to act out what we know is truth. Everyone around us does believe in God, but for us believers, God is not just another God out there. We know He is the one and true God out there. Yet, many of us live our lives as though we are oblivious to it.

Walking with God aint easy. Life is never easy. Especially for believers, if you have the notion that life would be easy peasy and you don't have to work for it, then you better wake up. Life is never easy. But what it is, is the fact that we have Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour, our peacemaker, our counsellor in our lives, and we know we do not have to walk alone, and that is what makes us different from the rest. Work... didn't God created Adam to work? Work used to be a positive notion, but it became negative only after Adam fell and sinned. Us, the reconciled, the one known by Him, should see work as positive now, to work for Him.

I guess, all in all, we should be grateful for what we have. In the world that feeds discontentment, all the more we should turn our eyes to Him and be contented.

Father, thank you for the fact that whenever I ponder upon Your words and who You are in my life, that You would refresh my soul and mind once again. Though I am physically and mentally tired, You never fail to nourish my soul. A trickle of Your Holy Spirit gives me peace that I need, and I thank You. Thank You Father, for the chance to have FAITH in You.

In loving You forever, Amen.

Work is taking its toll

Would anyone want to hire me? Deemed the superwoman of the company... been working in this company for 8 months, out of which 5 I'm the only researcher in the company handling all the projects. Good decision maker and flexible and agile in all situation. Quick on her feet and quick to pick things up.

Ain't fun being deemed a superwoman in the company. The only researcher in the Malaysia officer, with another colleague who is the accounts manager, things can be quite crazy. I think I'm hitting the brink soon. With this weekend so packed with church and the need to rush work, I think I'm crashing soon.

Dear Father, I pray and pray for more of your strength each day, to help me through. I need life, and my life is in your hands. May you continue to always be the person to lead me at all times.... Father, I'm weak, totally... at the brink. Only you and you alone can sustain me,. hear my prayer Lord, for with my weary body I come before you, seeking for more of your presence...

Part 1 of Hong Kong trip

Been wanting to blog about my travel in Hong Kong, but have not been having the chance to do so. Right now I'm in the airport waiting for my flight departure.. and there's another story to tell... maybe in the later part of this posting.

Scheduled my flight so that I would be in Hong Kong from 15th till 19th August 2007. Reached here just in time for my meeting, thankfully I requested to check in a bit later (11pm). As usual, there is flight delay and I was rushing like crazy even from the morning itself. You see, I had to do a transit in Singapore to come to Hong Kong due to certain reasons, and I only managed to reach Singapore with less than half an hour (or was it 15 minutes) to catch my flight to Hong Kong. I practically had to run/dash to the gate! And all the while I was like.. WHY THE HECK IS IT SO FAR???? Breathlessly, I made it on time and got comfortable in the flight.

On flight, a grandmother was sitting next to me. She's Singaporean but she's a cantonese, so ended up chatting with. Such a dear old lady, helped her with things and all, and I'm cool about it. I'd like helping them, because they have gone through so much and have so much experience and life-story to share. She shared about her children, one of which was in the flight with us, sitting on the next row on our left with her two children. Think she's grateful that I'm lending a helping hand. Realised as I was talking to her, that parents do have amazing influence in our lives. She shared that because her parents suffered so much to raise them up, that she felt she does not have the right to actually enjoy herself. Indeed, I am grateful for all the love and enjoyment that my parents have given to me… grateful indeed. Likewise for my grandma, I would love for her to enjoy herself. Not everyone can live to be 90 eh? Well, she is one of the lucky ones then :)

After the flight ended, I was pretty stunned by some of the elderly people in the plane who pushed their way through to get off the plane. Went blur for a moment and I was like, ooookayyyy... but realised they were hurrying to catch the connecting flight, so it's cool. I myself had to rush like mad to be able to meet my client at 430pm at Causeway Bay. It was 330pm already and would definitely take me an hour from Hong Kong Airport! Tried calling my client of my impending lateness, but was unreachable. So I called the facility to alert them to welcome the client. With that, I'd managed to reach there like probably 5-10 minutes later. So work starts and I was working till almost 11pm. Exhausted, i took my time to get to my hostel.

I ended up sleeping at 4 something in the morning, after refreshing myself and did some work. Mainly chatted with a friend about nothing… haha.. but it was good to crap sometimes. Neways, woke up the next day at about 1050am, cause received a call from my boss enquiring on the group the night before. I think I’ve quite mastered my voice to sound awake although I just woke up… haha, too many experiences whereby my boss’ call woke me up in the morning. Anyhow, his call woke me up and I’ve gotten myself up and did some work in the morning. Showered at about 12 plus and went out for lunch. The minute I reached downstairs, I was stunned. Because it was raining quite heavily and I left my umbrella upstairs. Feeling lazy, I decided to brave the rain and went about to purchase some water and necessities for the trip. Once done, I went to eat some porridge at a nearby shop. It was really weird though, for their porridge’s very sweet. I couldn’t finish it and left it as that.

As it was still pouring I decided to back to the hostel and laze about. Feeling lazy… haha. Neways, ended reading a book that was lying around at the hostel. Quite interesting, I would say Sidney Sheldon is quite good for he really keeps you in suspense throughout the book. Interestingly, the story revolves around multiple personality disorder, and the story ended amazingly well. During the course of it, I was chatting with a friend, and because he was studying for his exam and me with my book, we missed each other’s messages quite a lot. We ended up being a parrot, with the numerous “hello, are you there?” on the msn. Haha…. By the way, it was still pouring outside, making it amazingly nice to stay in-house.

At 4 plus, I went to shower and prepared myself to go to Causeway Bay for work again. Today’s event ended quite well, it numerous good take-out from the group. However, like the day before, the group ended late again. The client was so amused that he turned and asks me if it’s normal. I told him that it does, because the respondents were the ones talking a whole heap of their feedback. I guess the interesting part about my work is the things that the people would say and share with us. It’s amazing the things that they would share, sometimes unpredictably un-assumptious.

Likewise, the group ended late again, at about 945pm. Supposed to have dinner with my friend, and because she was held up at work, and vice versa, she thought I had finished dinner (told her I would finish about 8plus) and thus she went home straight. As for me, I was still in the observation room and did not dare to sms since the client was sitting next to me. So after the whole thing ended, I rang her and she was giving some exclamations about me not contacting her earlier. Assured her it’s alright and told her to recommend what’s nice at the area. She told me to visit this place called Yee Shun Milk Company, which is a few shops away from Causeway Bay Plaza 1, towards Sogo. When I reached there, I realised that I’ve passed by this little old shop the last time round and had wanted to go in to try (but I didn’t though). So my friend recommended me the Pork Chop burger and “Dang Dan” (Steam white egg ….. or something like that). I’m impressed by the Dang Dan, because it was so smooth and soft. It literally slides in your mouth and the texture’s light and easy. Not only that, it was quite a big portion too, as least compared to those in Kuala Lumpur.

However, the burger was not really interesting, for it is just a plain baguette with a piece of pork chop in between. However, I would give it credit for the pork chop was not too, what’s that word… kenyil in Malay. Can’t think of the English word at the moment.

All in all, it is one of the cheapest meal I’ve taken in Hong K0ng, with a total cost of HKD37 (RM17.50).

Went home right after that…. And oh, did I mention it was still raining after the groups and after dinner?

But really do praise God for the weather because I shared with my Hong Kong friends about my need to work on 15th and 16th August and that I would not be able to go with them. And viola, weather does not permit it either.

Just a pause to share that I really do thank God for His blessings in my life. He blessed me with a bunch of friends who are willing to drop their things and take me around I am truly grateful for that.

That's all for now :)