Faith

When it comes to faith, one asks a lot of questions.  What is faith? What does it actually mean? What does it entails?  A lot of times, faith is explained as believing in something that you cannot see or feel.  The dictionary.com define faith as confidence or trust in a person or thing.  But when it comes to Jesus Christ, what is faith?  It's easy to say, have faith sister or brother, have faith that God is in control and etc.  But when reality hits you right at your face, can you still say have faith?  Can you still have faith?

Faith hits me right at the face tonight, when I busy myself managing the stage for Jaeson Ma Music Rally at PGRM.  Faith hits me when Ps Joeann shared that we have nothing, no money at all, just a vision and a dream to do a big one for God.  Money is something we do not have.  But what we have then, is faith.  Faith to step out and say, God, here I am, use me for I am yours.  Faith is when everything is telling you it's the wrong thing to do, it's the worse ever commitment you're going to make, you'd say yes for God.  Faith, is believing beyond what we can see right now, and believing and trusting and KNOWING that this is what God calls us to do, and He will bring it to pass.  This team that has come together, showed me what their faith in God truly is.  Their faith shows me that, no matter what fear or worries we may have, we can have faith in God knowing that He is in control.  Their faith shows me that, no matter what you plan or want things to work out, we can have faith in God, knowing that He is our master and holds the blueprint of our plans in His hands.  Their faith shows me that God works beyond what is right now and He can work in you and I to go beyond what situation we may be in right now.  Their faith shows me too, that we can dream big in God, because if we have that faith, and out of that faith, born passion and desire to go beyond our own limitations for God, we can achieve great things for Him.  We may be ordinary people, but we have an extraordinary God and because of that, we can do extraordinary things for Him too!  And all this start from faith.

Faith is such a simple word, but yet, it carries such a weight in its meaning.  Faith...  Do you have enough faith in God?  Can you say and mean it from your heart that God is in control of your life?  Can you tell God, lead me oh Lord, that I may have faith to see beyond what I can see right now, and to be confident in You and trust that You are leading me?  Faith....

Declutter: A number of stuff

Like I was saying, I've accumulated heaps of things for a while now and so I am in the midst of getting rid of them when time permits.  Sometimes I get so busy with work that I just tune out once I reach home.  Here's some stuff that I've decluttered over the past week or so.

Gave this to a friend when I found out it was breaking me out!  So off it goes to someone whom I think could use it.

I was keeping this eyeliner that I bought for ages and finished up for ages because I love the smudge that comes with it.  Since I purchased a new eyeliner with smudge, so off it goes to the bin!

a darling friend of mine bought this for me a few years back from Australia.  Because it was hard (I mean literally hard inside!), I've been keeping it aside, until I decided that it's too hard to use and too heavy to keep (the bottle is a glass bottle =.=).  So, off it goes to the bin.  I actually contemplated of recycling it, since it's a glass bottle, but.. the thought of needing to dig the balm out *shudder* so I just toss it.

This was also a gift from my friend when I met her in Aussie.  She's such a darling ok! Always buy me stuff.  Anyhow, I did use it for a while because I was breaking out and I found it helps.  But recently when I attempt to use it again, it smells funny, so off to the bin it goes.

Another session of decluttering well done, don't ya think?  More to come!

Moment

It is right at this moment where God is so real.  It is right at this moment that I am blown away by the wonders of my God.  I am amazed, so amazed that I am speechless.  Oh Lord, U are truly such an amazing God.  Who am I really, that U would choose me?  Oh Lord my God, U, truly, truly are so amazing.  This is the moment that I want to capture, the moment when U touch me, the moment when U reminded me of who I am in U.

U, even before I was named, even before I was born, already have such an amazing name for me.  I am touched by Ur grace, each and every day, and oh Lord, may I be a reflection of Ur grace in my life.  May people who see me, sees Ur grace me in and through me, find Ur grace in their life too.  May people who see me, finds favour in Ur eyes.

I pray oh Lord, that I may continue to be the vessel U use to expand Ur kingdom, not a kingdom of war, but of grace.  It is by Ur grace that we are saved, and by Ur grace we find life, by Ur grace we find peace and hope in this life that we are living.

Blessings, love, peace.....

Organising: One in Two Out Practice

As some of you who are reading my blog would notice that I've currently started re-organising things in my life.  I'm starting with the physical things, so that I will be able to spread it to the emotional and spiritual side.  I don't think it's easy, because I always carry the "I think I'll need this for one of these days" or "This will definitely come in handy later".  I realised that this is causing me to hoard things and it's really hard to let go of thing when I'm in this mode.  So the decluttering session has happened.

I'll be very honest in saying that there are days where I still give in and ended buying additional stuff to add to my ever growing pile.  But I'm starting to do practice what I've read, which is to throw things for every new things that comes in.  Instead of doing the one in and one out method, I'm attempting the one in two out method, because I still need to get rid of more of the existing stuff in my room.  I'm still cheating though, for I'm still throwing papers away =p  But papers tend to be thrown a few more than just two, so I'm guessing that's a start. Let's hope that I'll be able to keep it up eh =D

Declutter: Work Table

My work table is a mess!  I took more than 15 minutes to declutter just one corner of it.  Here's the before and after picture:

Can you believe that this is just one corner of my table?  Sigh, it's such a mess and it was cramping my space to use my computer.  I was left only with space ample for my notebook.  I wanted to clean the other side too, but decided not to be over ambitious and focus on one thing at a time.

I threw away heaps of paper clutter and kept things simple.  The previous shoebox which I was using to store things weren't thrown away as I was stuffing it with more things.  I replaced it with a very nice paper bag, big enough to hold my books and rough papers, yet small enough to leave me some space at the side for a bible.  The rest is my study bible, which I intend to use and my devotional book, along with my writing book.  That is what I intend to keep for this little corner.  It's been a few days now, and it's still looking as such.  I am proud of myself!

Declutter: Drawer

My decluttering continues!  I opened one of my drawer and here's how it looks like!

What a mess I tell ya.  There's layers of stuff in it, papers, cds, cards and what not! So I've dumped quite a number of things from it, shredding my papers and binning some of the stuff here.  Now it looks like this:

Much more organised right? Woo hoo! I think I'm on a roll here... haha, hopefully it gets better.  I will need to start doing the 15 minutes per day decluttering session.  Makes it less guilty if I do buy some necessities home (yes, I'm trying to make sure I don't simply buy stuff now =D )

Declutter: Make Up

As mentioned yesterday, I'm on my mission to declutter all the things that I have.  One of things that I want to declutter is my make up stuff.  Okay, I like to buy things, hence, I do have a number of make up stuff which I never finish.  So what I am getting myself to do now is to finish up the things that I have before I buy.  So some of the things that I am binning this month is as below:

This is my second bottle of the Loreal Derma Genesis Pore Minimising Smoother.  I got it for like 3 to 4 months I think, and now it's done!  As I have other moisturisers in place, so I won't be re-buying this until I have finished.  Like I said, I want to finish up those stuff that I have first =D

Can you believe it??! This is the first blusher that I bought for myself like 2 years back.  I was using it diligently when it started breaking (see those balance there?)  Well, like I mentioned in my previous post, I tend to not be able to give up things that I have and continue keeping them even if I don't use them! So I've decided to keep it in picture form! What's better than to blog about the things that I binned! Woo hoo!  Bye bye darling blusher.  You've served me well.  

I bought this because I was wearing mascaras on certain days earlier and it came in cheap.  Probably about RM8 I think.  Well, it's not a very good product for me because the smell/chemical was too strong for my eyes and it kinda annoyed me on and off as I was using it.  Then I got my Maybelline eye make up remover and this was left aside (I bought the Maybelline when this thing was about to finish! I thought I would have the discipline to finish it sooner, but as usual, I failed.)  Anyhow, I forced myself to use it up a few days ago and viola! It's used up yesterday evening.  I am very proud of my little achievement and hopes to continue to bin more things in the coming future!  Be on the lookout for it mates!

Btw, do you have anything you need to start using up and binning? Do share with me =D

p/s: i think my maybelline eye make up remover is finishing soon! I'm eye-ing another make up remover and working out to save for it.  It's not expensive, but I'm on tight budget now and hopes to not over-spend.